“Deep passive waiting without knowing what is going to happen is what is…”

Deep passive waiting without knowing what is going to happen is what is passive surrender. That is what I call passive surrender. Total surrender a deep waiting; actually the moment you decide I will wait forever simply thing starts happening. As long as you are in a hurry, you are agitated, you stop things happening in you. It’s like you try your best, the lotus to blossom. What will you do? You will open the petals by hand. Will the Lotus flower? It will never be Lotus flower. Lotus flower can be called as Lotus flower only it blossoms by itself. Give little space. The moment you decide to wait, simply things starts happening. You don’t have to wait anymore. You have to wait till you decide to wait. You have to wait till you decide to wait. The moment you decide to wait you don’t have to wait anymore. You don’t have to wait anymore.

Beautiful story told by Ramakrishna. Once the Narada.. Narada is a joker actually in the puranas. He is a comedian. 😊 Spiritual comedian. Narada is going towards the Vaikunta. On the way he saw one yogi sitting and meditating. The Yogi asked Narada, “Oh Narada please ask Vishnu how long I should wait? When will I become enlightened“ Narada said “Surely I will ask.” And he was going. Again on the way one more person he was just jumping and dancing under a tree. He asked Narada, “Oh Narada please ask Visnu when I will have His darshan?” Please be very clear he never asked when I will become enlightened. He asked “When I will have His darshan? Tell Him to grace me how long should I wait for His grace?“ Narada says “Surely I will ask. Don’t worry.”

Then Narada goes to Vaikunta, comes back with the replies. The yogi asked him “What, what God said?” Narada says, “Visnu told me you will have to wait for four more janmas to become enlightened.” The guy simply fell into depression, “Ohhh four janmas what will I do?” He started weeping. And the other guy who was dancing, jumping around... must be our healer. 😊😊😊 The guy who was jumping around he asked, “What did Vishnu say? What did God say?” Narada said “You see God told me that how many leaves are there in this tree, that many jenmas you have to wait. Only then you will become enlightened. Only then His grace will come on you.” The moment this guy heard this, “Oh anyhow that is, that is alright. But He told me that He will grace na. That is enough. He told me that He will grace, that is enough. How long I have to wait I don’t bother. He gave me the assurance that He will grace. That is enough.” He started jumping and dancing. The moment he uttered this word “He gave me the assurance, He will grace me that is enough. How long I have to wait I don’t care.” The moment lightning happened and divine descended; he became enlightened.

So a deep patience, the decision to wait is what I call surrender; a total patience and relaxed mood. In My own life as long as I was doing meditation I never became enlightened. As long as I was doing all the practices, tapas, I was so agitated nothing happened. Actually only after becoming enlightened I came to know because of My tapas I postponed My enlightenment. I postponed My enlightenment. At the age of twelve already I had enlightenment. The blueprint is already happened. To tell you honestly at the age of twelve I became enlightened. Because I do not know that I have become enlightened I started, I tried to catch that experience. I tried to possess the Nithyananda. The moment I tried to possess, it started slipping away from Me... like a soap. Try to catch the soap, what will happen? It will slip. Because I was trying to catch that experience, that experience was slipping from Me. The day I decided ultimately no more catching, no more fishing, no more net, no more searching, no more seeking, enough. When I decided to relax, wait, simply it happened. That day you decide you wait simply things will start happening.

People ask Me, “Swamiji I decided to wait but it’s not happening.” 😊 It’s a nice game. When you have decided to wait, how can you ask the second statement? People ask Me, “Swamiji yesterday itself I decided to wait but still enlightenment is not happening. What to do?” 😊 How can you say you have decided to wait if you are still asking? The problem is the cognitive shift, the whole energy should turned towards the waiting. Not, not cheating, waiting. Have you seen the kids, they play hide and seek game. They cover their eyes with the hands but you can always see that between the gaps they will be seeing. They will cover their eyes so that you will under…..you think that they have covered their eyes. But they will see through the hole. Even our guys at the time of meditation I’ve seen they put the thin ribbon and in the vishuddhi running time I have seen they will run in a clear path properly 😊 without hitting anybody from there to here they will run. Without touching anybody they will run so carefully. 😊 How? They just put the blindfold so that others will think that they can’t see but they will be seeing. Hide and seek game. So when you asked ‘yesterday itself I decided to wait still I have not become enlightened’ you are again playing this same game.

You wanted others to know you are wait.. you have covered your eyes but you have not covered. Same thing you wanted others to know, you wanted Me to know that you have started waiting but you have not really started waiting. You see you can cheat Me but not you. You can’t cheat yourself. Enlightenment happens from you not from Me. If it is from Me long before you would have cheated and taken from Me. 😊 If it hap...if it happens from Me, if it can be taken away from Me long before either you would have you would have bribed Me or told something and you would have taken. It is very easy. But enlightenment happens from your being not from Me. So if it is supposed to be from somebody else we knows the tech..….. we know the technique to take it from them. But it has to happen from us. So no other way, you have to have a complete understanding, complete understanding. Otherwise you can always come and fight with Me. I started doing what you said. But nothing happened. You can always come and shout. You can cry. You can weep. You can try to do everything. But it never happens from Me, it happens from you. If I had, if I can give long before I would have also given. But it is you who is supposed to receive. It is you who is supposed to receive.

So you can’t play this hide and seek game. You have to completely blindfold, you can’t play the game of using the thin ribbon. You can’t play the game of covering your eyes with your hands and looking through the gap. No. Here no game is going to help. A utter, clear, total decision to wait is what is the basic necessity to become enlightened. That is why in Zen monasteries when somebody enters they say “Wait”. That’s all, nothing else. They don’t say anything else. All the Master’s have used this technique, the waiting technique.

Krishna says, ‘Again and again I will come’, means what? He is asking us to wait. He is asking us to practice waiting. If it is just a fact then five thousand years over still He has not come back. At least He could have sent some representative saying “I will… I will be back, I am getting little delayed. My car is repair.” Or some message, tell the people “My car is getting repaired, soon I will start.” No message. Gone forever. When they say I will come back they mean learn the technique of waiting. The moment you learnt the technique of waiting they will be back in you. They will be back in you.

In every religion they are waiting. Waiting is a ultimate technique. So in this question Devi is beautifully expressing her deep surrender; not even question She just says “Let My doubts be cleared. Let My doubts be cleared.” She never gives any bracket. After giving Her problems She never gives any bracket, no suggestions, no priorities, no preferences. People come and ask Me “Swamiji I have heart problem.” And next statement, naturally I will say “Please be here I will heal.” But they do not want that solution. They say “I have a heart problem, can you heal me from the house itself?” 😊 “Can you heal me from the house itself.” They have priorities, means what? They do not want to solve the problem. They do not want to dissolve the problem. They just want to have a mental support. Anyhow we have come all the way, we were going through this Mysore, Bangalore road, just we saw the board. Alright let us go and have the darshan, so we came. The casual window shopping, casual visit, casual window shopping.

So be very clear either have the urgency or forget the urge itself. Don’t play the game which is in between. The guys who are playing the between game, they end in the worst depression. Because they think they are seekers. But never they start seeking. As long as the blood is hot there will be no problem. You will have a good health, everything will go well; after the middle age I have seen so many spiritual seekers, thousands of seekers, the moment, the so called the seekers, the moment blood becomes little cool after the middle age around forty to forty five, they fall into the worst depression. Because they have not done; they have not achieved what they are supposed to achieve in the young age. Young age all they did was playing in the name of seeking, getting into the mud horse and entering into the river. You can sit down on a mud horse and take a photograph that’s okay. For photograph it is okay. You can keep it in your showcase, but not for travelling, not for entering into the hor.. into the river.

(15:44) Just saying I am also a seeker you can have a photograph next, you can stand next to Me have a photograph and have it in your house. Perfectly alright. For that that’s okay. But don’t play this game of mud horse after coming here; after coming here. Here the mud horse game is not going to work. You are entering into a new life. You are entering into the river. So please be very clear, now just bend and see whether you are sitting on a mud horse or real horse. Check once, not once, twice, whether you are sitting on the mud horse or real horse. Don’t believe the mud horse. Don’t believe the mud horse and enter into the seeking. The moment you crossed the age of forty or forty five you will come to know whether you travelled on the mud horse or the real horse. Don’t take the risk, you are entering into the river. Let you be very clear about the risk which you are taking. At least the people who are becoming ashramites be very clear, don’t travel in the mud horse. The people who are staying outside, who are having their house and everything they can always have a photograph of Me. It is just like sitting on the mud horse and taking a photograph. You can have it in the show case, okay, no problem. They can stand next to Me and have a photograph and keep it in their showcase, “You see Nithyanada Swami came to our house. Look at this, Nithyanada Swami, He came to our house He is eating with me you see. 😊 He is sitting with me you see.” Okay for that perfectly alright. But don’t come and start saying inside the ashram.

If you have not really felt the urgency better 😊 you also have a showcase and the photograph and sit quietly happily with it. If you don’t have urgency don’t enter into the river. If you have superficial seeking, if you don't have the patience to wait, if you don’t have the courage to surrender don’t take this risk. Because after 45 you will enter into the worst depression. I have seen the people who are so called seekers falling into the worst depression even comitting suicide after the 45. Because once the blood becomes little cool what happens? You have nothing else to hold on. Then you understand even your seeking is just a cover. Even your seeking is just a cover. Then there is nothing else to stick. Understand. Be very clear whether you are seeking or doing the game of hide and seeking; whether you are really seeking or doing the game of hide and seeking, find out. Find out from you; it’s a warning for you all. It is not a advice, it is not a discourse. It is a Warning! Don’t miss.