Ultimate Reality Between Soul & Self

So their compassion- one side compassion, other side completely cruel. Completely- that is the right word ‘cruel’ but I Am fortunate I was not supported. I had such a beautiful mentors. Again and again and again standing up was become very easy. They will go on giving spiritual words, spiritual techniques and I can tell you, it will be always good if you have 2-3 mentors in your life when it comes to mentors. Of course, Master will be only one naturally. Master can be only one but mentors…. when you are in a spiritual community or satsang center or the spiritual groups, just have 2-3 people to talk to because you will have 2-3 version of the understanding. It can always be inspiring. Then you will catch that balanced perspective. Objectively you will catch it.

Because I had 2-3 mentors, I can tell you how much it added. Even though Kuppammal is a great vedanti, she had a very powerful connection to the bhakti dimension and same way Raghupati Yogi. Even though he was a great yogi, he was an amazing bhakta. He was an amazing devotee. So these different, different people, different, different juice made Me completely juicy. So you also try to have 2-3 mentors. Then you will grasp more. Even in this Vata-Prativata, now I am seeing. Everyday I am receiving emails. This Vata-Prativata debate is doing a wonderful job, very powerful job. I am seeing really Vyasa and Shankara’s blessings are there on you guys.

So many emails I Am receiving with deeper clarity, understandings. I can tell you, really this twenty one days we don't know how we started, why we started. From Shivaratri, how much of good we are doing to the world is secondary. How much of the good we have all done to ourself I am surprised. All our centers, devotees, they have become so intense. Today I saw, I don't know, I don’t know the number exactly. The number of people going to practice tomorrow onwards samyama I do have. Now I am Guru of worthy disciples, very strong disciples.

Actually in the ashram itself, I was shocked. In Bidadi Ashram some sixty people want to do this fifteen days samyama. These fellows to make them come and sit in half an hour Pada Puja, I know how much I have to struggle. But all these fellows suddenly wanted to do this samyama. Then I only made a rule if you are underweight you cannot do. If you are overweight you can do. I made a rule because health I have to take care. But I was shocked so much of sudden inspiration has happened in our Sangha all over. Everywhere the strong debates are going on. In the facebook, left and right I Am enlightened, you are enlightened everywhere I am just.... Now the whole Nithyananda Dhyanapeetam I feel like a huge sky with lot of stars, enlightened stars running around here and there. Even in your community, have 2-3 mentors. You will see you will be able to grow easily. You will be able to imbibe this understanding easily.

So the thought trend for today's sacred secret: be stable at the space where the achiever and achieved is one and the same. If you are not in that space, just be unstable. That is enough. You feeling unstable is enough to push you into the stable Consciousness. Actually you feeling you just hate who you are, what you are is enough. Nothing else is required. That will just push you to the space where you need to completely be fulfilled, where you need to completely be in restful awareness. The problem is, you don't completely hate what you are. One part you hate, the other part you hold on, “No no no no. This is all good only. These fellows are telling lies. I am not that bad.”

Be very clear, you are bad completely. There is nothing to be hold on. Be very clear or hold on you are completely good. That is also okay. If you hold on completely good, then your personality will just how the salt melts into the ocean. If you make a salt doll and put it in the ocean, how it melts, you will melt down. That is also perfect, no problem but the problem is, you neither feel you are completely good nor feel completely bad. You hold on to one part. That is where you are not letting the achiever and achieved to become one. Just the deep dissatisfaction of the source where you feel your individual identity is more than enough to awaken the non-mechanical parts of your brain and make you experience the transcendental awareness, transcendental Consciousness. Transcendental awareness and transcendental Consciousness- these are all different words I Am using but I mean one and the same: Source, Existence, Brahman, Cosmos, Original Self. All are same thing I Am denoting with different words.

So through this Taittiriya Upanishad Sutra, Swami Sivananda is trying to establish clearly the individual soul which feels still it need to achieve something cannot be the achieved, the goal. As long as that feeling ‘I still need to do something’ is there in you, you need to do something…. You need to get into the space where that very idea ‘I need to do something’ disappears. I Am telling you, if you just create wealth don't grab, create wealth, the moment you reach certain level, you feel completely fulfilled, “I think I have enough. I have enough. Nothing more needs to be done. I have enough.”

April 14th of 2001. 2001 April 14th, that was the day few people who lived around Me, who gathered around Me that time, not lived around Me. That is the right word. Gathered around Me even before Ayya and Amma came. Two-three people gathered around Me. They all have requested Me to stay in one place that they want to build a hut for Me. I said, “I don't know I will be able to stay in one place.” Then they said, “At least till You stay, let us make a hut for You.” I just laughed and said “Alright, make it.” That was the day the first hut they built for Me on the banks of Kaveri. They inaugurated. Still we have photographs. I had one Ramakrishna’s photo and Sharda Devi, Vivekananda’s photo. Somebody gave Me one kamandalu, one pot. The moment I got that pot, I had the tremendous satisfaction, “Wow! All the wealth I required for My life has come.” That's all. I tell you, after that I have not acquired anything…. The greatest satisfaction that I have what I want, means My prarabdha to accumulate wealth has ended when I got that kamandalu because that was the only thing I require.

As I said, I Am a washing maniac. That keeping Myself clean is a very big thing. So I always wanted after taking bath when I come out of Kaveri, I want to carry one kamandalu water so that when I reach the place where I used to lie down, I want to wash My feet. See, the feet will be dirty, will become dirty by the time you come out. So the only property I was in need, only thing I needed is I need one kamandalu to wash My feet after I reach the place where I stay because I cannot see My room muddy. Of course, the whole room itself is inside burial ground. That is different and it is the samadhi of one person. That is funny thing. On one samadhi on four pillar they put the thatch. On that only I used to sleep. That was My first....

The guy is little bulky guy. So they built a bigger samadhi, very big samadhi. It is a square 8 feet by 8 feet and there was a pillar and on that they put some four wooden pieces and put thatch. So from the Kaveri if I reach that place where I used to lie down, leg will become muddy, dirty. So after reaching to that place I want to wash My feet before I put My feet on the place where I lie down. So the moment that kamandalu came I can say, the whole personality has become completely satisfied…. Such a deep satisfaction! I can tell you, when you create wealth, your prarabdha hits a space of that utter satisfaction…. After that, wealth was never in My mind. It was always around Me but it was never in My mind. My inner space never had wealth. It was always around Me but never inside Me.

So as long as you feel you need to achieve something, you need to achieve. The moment you feel the achiever and achieved has disappeared, you have achieved. So the sacred secret in this Sutra is, if you are feeling you need to achieve something more, then let the dissatisfaction grow intensely and swallow your whole personality. It is capable of pushing you into Existence. It is capable. This is the sacred secret I want you to do the debate today. How the feeling of not attained can lead to the attainment. What should we do with that feeling of not achieved! When, how the feeling of achiever and achieved becomes one and the same. I am really happy because these great truths are never discussed especially to the mass like this.

Even if you comb the whole Varanasi, where the Vedanta is supposed to be repeated even by parrots, you will not find one tenth of the number of the people who are sitting and discussing all these great truths but go on drill these great truths into your inner space. Do the debate, eN debate. Don't say, “Oh! I am... These are all not for me. This is too much for my head.” No! Catch at least 2-3 people and start. Just because you failed once in the debate, don't think you should not start again. Go on and on and on. So start the eN debate today, Vada- Prativada today on this sacred secret: How the feeling not attained can lead to the experience of attainment. How to deepen it? When you are achieved, attained, how to know it means the feeling to attain will disappear. That's it.

As you all are aware, today is the Holi and Manmatha dahana. In all Shiva temples, the Manmatha will be burnt. It is a symbolic representation that Shiva opening the third eye and burning all the fantasies. Shiva becoming beyond fantasies. It is like a, it is a philosophical description of Shiva expressing His Enlightenment and very beautiful description of Krishna initiating all His gopas and gopis into the Bhava Samadhi. Today is the day He did Rasa, Rasa Purnima where He played with His gopas and gopis and gave the experience of Bhava samadhi to all of them, experiencing Oneness with Krishna to all of them. So all the ashramites are waiting for the celebration. We are having now two celebration. In all Vishnu temples they will have the Holi. In all Shiva temples they will have the Manmatha Dahana, burning of Manmatha. We have both. We have Shiva and Vishnu, both here. So naturally we will be having both celebrations. Holi now and after the Holi, the burning of Manmatha, Manmatha’s effigy, like a collective negativity, fantasies, delusion, that's all.

So now, we are going to have the celebration. That is the reason I Am ending the Brahma Sutras little early and today we have a great news. Scarborough Toronto is starting a new center, a new place. Satsang is held in new place today. My blessings to Toronto devotees. Scarborough and Toronto and My blessings. I Am now in you guys, with you guys in that center. This place now will experience intensely My presence. Let all of you experience Kundalini Awakening and levitation. Up! Intense experience of My presence will fill that place. I have already now sanctified that place. Put the padukas in that place. You will see vibhuti coming from that Paduka. That whole place will vibrate intense positive, auspicious spiritual energy.

So as today is very auspicious day, Panguni Uthiram, very good day for Subramanya. You guys have got a right place on right day. Today is the good day for Subramanya, good day for Vaishnava tradition and good day for Shaiva tradition. All three tradition, today is the great day and My blessings. Beautiful temple will happen in Toronto.

My blessings to all of you who are sitting with us at this moment 669 places and 223 cities in 30 countries.

Let you all achieve, experience, live, express, radiate and share the Eternal Bliss- Nithyananda.

Thank you.