“Today for a change I will start with question answer.”

Prayer. I welcome all the devotees, disciples, samajis, satsangis sitting with us around the world at this moment in 312 places through eNtv, in 12 places through 2 way Nayana Deeksha in 148 cities, 18 countries!

Today for a change I will start with question answer. Long questions are pending still I have not answered.

1) Hiranmayi from Toronto – Dear Swamiji I am confused between unclutching remembering not to be attached and being determined as you advised yesterday in the Satsang.

Even to be unclutched, you need to be determined. Your being needs to be determined…

Understand only before starting your practice you will be confused because I am using different words. Understand this story. There was a lake in the center of a forest. From one side somebody who knows only Tamil he says – water – ‘tanni’ is there. Other side one person who knows only Hindi says no, no it is ‘paani.’ Another person who knows only Telugu says - No, no, neellu. All four of them without even going and seeing the lake, they fight here itself. They say come on, let us come to the decision…

It is only tanni. No, non, no, …

Everynbody told it is only paani. The fight starts. Finally all four kill each other, without knowing all four words mean the same – water. All four the meaning is same water that’s all. But when the efforts are not put in the right direction in argument itself you die. Same way, I am using diff diff words everyday…

Iron out your mind – whatever I am saying, just try to practice you will understand it is same. It is just same and diff diff words. That’s all. Its only words. That’s it. any one thing you practice.

Try to practice you will understand, it is same. It is just same. And different different words. That’s all. It’s only words. That’s it. Any one thing you practice. Hiranmayi you are saying you are confused between unclutching and being determined. Have practiced unclutching? Have you practiced being determined? No. If you practice, you will not have a confusion. If you have a confusion alright practice any one. That’s all. Practice some one that’s all. Any one if you practice, you will not have a confusion. All confusions are before starting the practice. Do not try to solve all your questions logically before you start the practice. No. While you start your practice you will have your own answers which I call the answers of the internal Guru. Answers of the internal Guru is very important for you to understand the answers of the external Guru. So practice. Now don’t send me one more question saying now I am confused between unclutching, determined and practice ☺ Don’t tell me that.

2) Megan Bishop Scott from USA asks – How can we tell the difference we must undertake and a battle that our ego has created.

Please understand, all battles is created by your ego. Undertake all the battles which comes in front of you. Through this two will happen – all the battles you have to win, you will win. All the battles you need to lose you will learn the lesson of not to run around expecting fight or inviting fight. How can we tell the difference between a battle we need to undertake…

See when you are not having ego, there cannot be battle. Even when the breeze flows if you are with ego…

Even if you feel the breeze understand it is a battle. If you are egoless even breeze will pass through you. so life is battle. All battle is created by your ego. What is battle actually. As long as you have the idea of dvaita, duality something other than you there will be battle. Only ego creates the idea of something other than you exists. Please understand, fortunately or unfortunately you can experience only two emotions. One fear another one love. You can experience only two signals. As long as you feel there is other, you will jump between this two signals. Please understand, you can never love God continuously consistently. You will always carry the underline fear even to God….

No. You will carry at least the fear of rejection. Fear that you may be rejected. You may not be accepted. As long as there is other, there is somebody other than what you experience as you, something other than what you experience as you, you are bound to have fear and greed. As long as ego is there, you will find something other than what you are. Even if you feel God is other than what you are, you will be having battle with God also. Please understand even you feel other than you God exists, it is a battle. Already a line of ego is there. It is a battle, it is a fight. So all battles are created by ego and take up all battles. Don’t bother. See even if this question you are asking me Meghan Bhishop as a suggestion which all battles you can win. Bhagavan is not saying, Bhagavan is not a war counselor. He is not saying he is not counseling Arjuna at elast in BG what kind of war you should take up so that you can have victory…. Pain or gain, pleasure or suffering, victory or loss don’t bother, wage the war, for the sake of war. Please understand Bhagavan is not a war strategist. Of course he plays that role later on. But alteast in BG he is not…

All battle are battle created by ego. Take it up! Beautiful incident happened in Jayaram Pati Sharada Devi’s birth place quite a long time after RK left the body…

Well known when she was in the body as usual these donkeys will not recognize greatness of a person when they are in the body. after they are dead they create all sorts of stories and ….

That is the problem. The problem comes frm the dead masters to the living masters is the worst problem..

Like us only with all the ups and downs of the human life, fame and defame of human life. Everything they were living of course they were untouched. How much I am untouched that much only they were also untouched….

When they are dead, they will create a larger than life size picture around them and they will carry them all the time in their pocket to compare! I don’t have p roblem…

Such a simple lady, village lady. But Devi herself expressing extraordinary knowledge and love, compassion. One day night 1 o clock some visitors come to see her. See it is a remote village whoever comes to her, she has to take care of them. she will. ..

Tonight she will be cooking and giving you food, cleaning your plate, doing everything. Tomorrow int eh Guru peeta she will eb sitting and initiating you…

It means its like a not even a direct tea. The cup in which tea was kept, the water washed the cup….even that was so strong. It is like a I did not even drink tea directly. The cup in which the tea was kept, the water used to wash that cup. That is what is the second generation energy. One Swami Vairagyananda I had the fortune of touching him. ..

Living around him, living at his feet. because this perverted mind…

I wanted to make it very clear when I touched him he was more than 90! Great Sadhu. I used to wonder oh God! If the water used to wash the cup itself is so tasty. Then how tasty the tea would have been. From him I can understand the power of her, how powerful she is able to initiate ppl..

One night somebody came to have her Darshan, late night…

I will cook and give you food and she runs to fetch get fishes from the pond. You see in WB there is a habit in each house there will …

Fish and so for all the household purpose they will catch fresh….

Cook and feed the guests or you can eat. It is almost like growing vegetables int eh back yard….

So she goes in the late night with the lamp to fetch fishes. One assistant who was with her she says – no, no, no, no. mother there may be snakes. Don’t go. Old lady. See the samatva penetrated her inner space. It is an ordinary action, she could have avoided. But she is so established in samatva, she says very beautifully – aiy, even for such a small act, act of going and getting the fishes and coming back, for such a small act her enlightenment comes to help. She says – aiy, work for work. I neither have the greed this fellow should go back and praise that mother cooked and gave me….

Nor have fear that some insects will bite and I may have some physical disorder or death. Pl und I am not telling you you also go into the bush or inot the pond and go into the place wehre…

Even for an ordinary act, her whole bio memory and muscle memory is filled with this samaschitta being centred and being balanced. I tell you in ordinary acts even for a small act like picking up a cigarette and smoking or just eating your morning breakfast or just drinking cup of coffee, even in those small acts if you are referring to the knowledge of enlight, science of enlight internally, that is what is the right weapon to wage the war…

You want to know which are the bigger battles I need to take up, which are the samller one I need not take up..

Even for the smallest act. Take up all battles, even for smallest battle, refer the science of enlight. Get back. Open the book of the heart. See each one of you carry a book of the heart….

All that churned inside with the internal master. For ex, when I say a few words if it clicks with you, It is a click from external master. Same clicks you put inside and churn it, with course of time….

At least 100 click inside. so the click from external Guru awakens hundreds of clicks from internal Guru. All this put together only I call the book of the heart. All of you carry book of the heart. Constantly refer the book of the heart and do not leave a single battle, do not miss a single war. Wage all the war, all the battle, all the problems you face in your life….

No. I means life as a battle. Wage every war, every incident, every situation. Refer to the book of the heart. I trained myself in my young age to have the book of the heart. I have more than 10-11 books, notebooks whatever i hear fromt eh external masaters….

I pen down…

Has not happened just like that. there is so much of effort went behind the whole thing…

Very casually only. I really feel I will sincerely suggest eventhough it is a lillte hard work, I will support and recommend all the samajis, satsangis, devotees, disciples, followers, friends, all of you I will sincerely recommend try to create book of the heart outsie as a hard copy only then it will get inot your being and become a soft copy. It may look like a child. See when I was a small boy, I know this Kanchi Shankara mutt. They used to give an advt, if you write the Kamakshi mula mantra …

And I had one elderly gentleman in my native village he is called…Swami…

It is a sacred verse from a Tamil saint Tiruvaluvar, he will give you one candy…

But then Kuppamal called me and said aiy write like this and send it and get that dollar. I tell you when I sat and worked. It is a hard work…

Do japa. No it does not happen. You will not have the same strength of the remembrance….

Your hand finger beads will be rolling but you will be, you will also be scrolling. …

Again and again, I saw the power and then I sent it to the Kanchi mutt. They sent the dollar. She was so happy. And whenever I went in front fo …

Candy. These all looks too like a hard working, not like a smart working. But I tell you from my experience, only when you do hard work, you will learn smart work. So I will sincerely…

Knowing you will not practice. Know the pain. Understand, it is not a smile or laughter it is a pain. Even when you say such an important things, you know very clearly people are not going to do it. anyhow…

Trty to maintain the book of the heart externally first….

Laptop or in your cell phone ….

But maintain book of the heart outside. Whatever clicks with you, what you hear from the external master and what you heard from external master and gets churned inside what you clicked with internal master. As is said…

You will have at least 100 click from internal master. Unfortunately, you never churn inside. you get it and dump it. then even the one you got is forgotten! …

Enlgithenemnt is nothing but getting subtle and sutble and sutble that’s all. First 10k clicks you get about enlight will nto work on you. it will only hit the gross plane of you. I can give you very clearly numbers of enlight. Decide first 10k clicks ….

My books you read or the discourses you listen in any way you get fromt eh external guru. First 10 k clicks will not function on you. it is like the rain on the buffalo. Skin is too thick. So make this as a decision….

Your eyes or your ears should have picked it up. 10k click go on penning down, penning down, penning down, it will not touch you immd. Then after 10k whatever clikcs, by that time you would have achieved certain sensitivity, certain sense of subtlety. In that subtlety whatever clicks, that only becomes…

Only then the skin will give little way and that buffalo will feel little cold and it will start sneezing. Try to maintain book of heart. You can maintain in your cell phone. Nothing wrong. But don’t…..

Maintain book of heart. Don’t try to have ….maintain the book of heart – full sentence – which makes meaning for you completely whenever you read again. The problem is I give so many thousands of instructions you decide ….follow two three and raise yourself….

Keep the book of heart. I used to keep. Because hard work in the initial level. whatever I hear from Annamalai Swamigal I write in my own hand. This idea….Annamalai Swamigal book of heart is still with us, we have in our archives….

In a very casual way, but he appreciated and gave me the clarity that is a spiritual practice. What I was doing without even knowing it was a spiritual practice. Whatever click I get from the external masters. See I had many teachers – Ram Surat Kumar – Ram will rarely speak but I heard ….

Very sharp. Raghupati Yogi, Kuppamal, Annamalai Swamigal himself. So many people. Whatever I used to hear, everything I will come back and sit and pen down. I am feeling so bad that 11-12 books have got lost. Everday whatever Arunagiri Yogishwara….

My whole relationship with Arunagiri Yogishwara is beautifully described in that how I felt with him. see the words …

You can see the relationship getting mature. We have my one of my dairy we have retrieved. In that we have a description….

Small 3 feet by 3 feet he always sat only in that place. He …

Samadhi is there next to our ashram. My relationship with him that is very nicely very clearly described…

Anyhow, whatever I heard from Aruna I will pen down. Whatever I read clickced with me. I will pen down. When I am writing every day thinking, thinking, all these ideas so many will click with me internally. I will pen down that also. in the intial level you should be doing …

Internal success enlightenment book of the hearts is very very imp. I am not saying you should read it everyday. No. just maintain it. you will see how your concepts about you, world, society, God …

Your ideas will grow, mature. Otherwise sometime just the immature ideas will waste your whole life. …

You will understand you are really growing. You will have so much confidence you are really growing. Only when you have the book of heart, you will get the habit of constantly referring to it…

That will become part of you. you wil pen down, pen down, pen down in the paper externally or type it then simply it will become part of you. book of heart when it becomes internal that is what I call your scripture. Pl und, each one has to write his scripture…

If you become enlgihteneed. Even if yo become enlgiht. Your scripture cannot be 100% useful for your disciples..i can say

Time zone. Same period. But the last 10% is crucial. You only have to write for yourself. same way, for your disciple…

The remaining crucial 10% he has to write. I don’t know why this 10 volumes got lost. 10, 11 volumes I don’t know. Maybe it is too secret and too sacred which cannot be revealed to common man, it got lost…I penned down. How I felt with him, how he reciprocated. I still remember…

Spelling mistakes he himself corrected it. his hand writing is there. What to do? It is unfortunate …

And there is a signature of him in that book. We will get it, we will get it. I am just consoling myself. Because that ….

My internal scripture it has become book of heart for me…

Even if you see the dairy in which I learnt puja, how I learnt the traditional rituals, how I wrote eveyr word, every instruction in a detailed way and not only in the dairy for practicing, in a small bit paper like a when I go to puja ….

For examination, in one small bit paper, the whole puja will be there. Understand, don’t trust your mind thinking that you can behave very smartly and achieve. NO. sit and learn to create book of heart. Your scripture, your shaastra. Give this as a title – book of heart, my book, my scripture, my shaastra. Because many time even your own growth you will not understand. One of my BC came to me and said I want to serve Bharat…

What kind of service you will do? Of course fortunately that guy has forgotten Bharat at least what he…

How you have grown. See now, slowly slowly he will have the ultimate concept of Bharat. See ultimately Bharat lives by the thin stream…

Bharat. You see this maturity if you have recorded the my book, book or heart, you will be able to see wow how I have grown from where to where. You can see the graph…

Really useful especially during the mood swing. This can save you from mood swing because many of the higher sacred sentiment which you cherish, enjoyed, clicked with you will be there…

Joke is a statement which you can’t enjoy 2nd time, 3rd time…but

Ss is a statement which gives you constant inspiration how many times you read….

It has no power over you. …

Ss is the words, statement more number of times you read, it will have more power on you. I tell you maintain the book of heart then you know constantly to undertake all the battle you face in the life. May be I think when the internal book has become eternal, the external book got lost! That is what I feel in me. you see in big businesses all the cash handled, black money handled …

All the black money handled…

Because this evidence may land this fellow later on when somebody catches it…

In a way, the ultimate enlightenment is …

This, this, this qualification then everybody will try to make it as a shop. The last push of decision is a discretionary decision. Maybe Aruna does not want the world to know what was the last push made me to take the discretionary decisions…

That is why this great masters after that it has become part of me, they made it disappear. But whatever one or two things we got the diaries from that we can get certain ideas. Not all certain ideas. How I was maintaining the book of heart. I can tell you today take this as a message. Book of heart. Even though it is little…

How much it has worked on me. even to learn a ordinary ritual which you are doing everyday morning the same thing…

50 page manual in my own handwriting…and all the mudras. If I have ….

Cut and stuck on that. if I have to do some mudras korma mudra or some mudra I have taken the line drawing, line sketch….

Behind the whole thing…

Have you done it? No. take this as today’s message and make a sankalpa. From today, you will start having your own book of heart. You can have it in your laptop, or cell phone, black berry….

In a book form, note book form. Whenever a click happens…

Record it! I can tell you by the end of one year, that book will become internal book – the book of the heart inside you. when you have the book of heart inside you millions of questions will disappear, life will become such a beautiful flow. I can say having book of heart inside and automatically referring it. referring before every cognizance taken…

You are living enlight. Even for every suffering….

Before feeling I am depressed, you will refer the book of heart, …

Everytime you will refer the book of heart. I tell you if you are carrying book of heart inside, you are carrying me directly carrying me inside you….

But sleeping! Not awake and constantly reminding you or teaching you or pulling you up and guiding you. create this book of heart. For our whole sampradaya, I give this as a command. Every one should have your own book of heart in your own form….

Leave it. untouched for 25 years. No. you should have active habit of book keeping - book keeping, book of heart. Today I will end with this one idea. With this one teaching.

Wow! Materialization – today in Calgary Amarnath in paadukas vibhooti has materialized…

Shiva Linga in ice and it will not melt! Blessings! Soon you will find a place for temple. Somebody will come and donate…

May be if I would have known that I will teach for millions of disciples, I would have done a better job. ..

Cutting it bit by bit, assembling it because all these mudras will not be available in one page…

How much of passion was there in the process of learning. When I wrote this book RK did not even a Tamil translation, ..

During the puja. That is the breakfast time. I will skip breakfast. As per the rule of RK mission a non Brahmin…

I am wriging he will chant the mantra slowly. Then I have to …..

During puja. You can enter the Garbha mandir dcuring the cleaning and all…

I will sit outside and go on penning down whatever he chants. That guy is very angry why this fellow is angry…I can say at least for three months I missed breakfast. …

Whole mantra you can’t match in one day…

Then again next three verse. So to catch it completely itself took at least a month for me. then after that correcting all the mistakes. Then I want to do with 2, 3 other pujaris so that the whole thing is complete…

So understand create book of heart. I tell you – you will be living enlightened. Sit taking this one sankalpa. I will create book of heart and see to it that it is internalized and automatically I refer to book of heart before taking every cognizance - ..

I will refer to the book of heart. Create this one sankalpa and sit with closed eyes for few minutes. Let the external Guru bless you to experience the internal Guru. Let the grace of the external Guru awaken the internal Guru in you!

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