Be Free From Bondage

Now scan your whole life, every relationship in your life, where you don’t want the person to die. Look at the whole list of people in your life such as your son, your daughter, your wife. Your wife may not be in that list, that is okay. Your father, who you think should never die. You don’t want to even think that they will die. Make a list of such people and against each name, describe what will happen to you if that person dies! Please understand, what will happen to you, what will you miss. In Tamil, there is a beautiful proverb, ‘when your mother dies, beautiful food goes away. When your father dies, further education goes away. When your wife dies, the pleasure goes away. When your son dies, future security goes away.’ Like that, each person when they die, something happens to your life. Describe that.

To see the understandings you got and give you the deeper insights. Come on, who is going to share your stories? Come out, one by one. God! Nobody wants to come. No, come, I will ask you which question I want answer! You come out with answer with all the questions. Answer for actually eight questions. I have given you eight questions. I may ask any. Come on. Answer Me the second part last question means the eighth question answer.

Devotee: Just regarding scanning the whole life relationships.

Swamiji: Ha, answer that.

Devotee: I can put me, my mother, I would never want her to die.

Swamiji: What will happen if she dies in your life?

Devotee: She is the person who loves me the most

Swamiji: Yes, so you will miss her love and attention. So some part of you will die. That is the main problem more than her. Come on, next.

Devotee: It is my sister. My younger sister

Swamiji: Hmm, what is the reason?

Devotee: Who will take care of her little daughter who is just seven years now.

Swamiji: Okay, otherwise the responsibility will come to you.

Devotee: Yeah, will I be responsible enough to take it up?

Swamiji: Ha yes, great. Come on, next

Devotee: They are the only two persons that I have.

Swamiji: Okay. See, you understand. With every death it is not even that person. It is your like the impact that will create on your life. That is where the whole thing boils down. Alright. Come on, this side? What? Nobody is coming out! Arey! Such a rare chance directly to talk to Me and get the solution and deeper insights. Come on. Come out. People usually fight and stand in the queue. Come out. Why you guys are going back? Come on, come on, come on. Going back? Hmm, see, I want the answer from you, the second part-first question. Earliest concepts of death.

Devotee: My cat had to be put to sleep because he had a fish stuck in his mouth and I felt that was good because he was free of suffering and pain but I...

Swamiji: What is the idea you got from the elders when you asked what happened to him?

Devotee: They didn’t tell me too much that I remember except that this was a freedom and letting go of pain and…

Swamiji: Alright, okay. Come on, this side. I wanted the first part, the fourth question’s answer. Recollect your earliest memories of your life of fear of unknown. Have you ever had or having?

Devotee: I don’t remember anything, Swamiji.

Swamiji: Come close to the mike. Answer now. No fear of unknown?

Devotee: I have fear of unknown but I don’t know what is the incident.

Swamiji: Ah, so like a ghost or God or death. So you don’t even know how to describe what is the reason.

Devotee: What is the reason I don’t remember the incident.

Swamiji: That is why it is called unknown. Please, you can go now. You are right. Come on. Tell Me the first part-first question. Your fear of losing name and fame.

Devotee: Fear of name and fame not being able to be perfect in ..

Swamiji: No, first memory of losing the fear of losing name and fame. First memory? Oldest memory.

Devotee: Just fear of not being able to...

Swamiji: No, with your mother and father or teacher. Earliest memory, what is the memory? Some incident?

Devotee: Okay, I would never marry someone because they are always smart in all ways, always getting things right…

Swamiji: Oh, your mom said?

Devotee: No, my teacher.

Swamiji: Teacher said?

Devotee: And giving me a zero for I have not passed and I wasn’t able to..She gave me a big zero

Swamiji: Do you know the recent study says? All the kids who can’t do math excel in the life, they become genius and 92% of the gold medallists in all top US Universities are jobless after five years and living in the streets means literally living with basic things. So if you are aspiring to become a gold medalist in the top University of the world, please get ready to be jobless and homeless in the streets begging. Of course, the survey does not say they are beggars begging, but living almost just with a bare minimum. Small house or no job literally not capable of having more than basic things. So, many of your calculations are wrong in life. Come on, alright, that’s enough and I wanted to know your earliest memories of losing your near and dear ones or their love, understand! Hmm, means the first part, third question, engram you have in that line.

Devotee: My mother died in 1988 when I was 13 year old. I felt complete vacuum in myself but I did not weep at that time.

Swamiji: What was...see, what I am saying, “What it created in you now to carry the fear of death of near and dear one?” See now, you may have some fear. Will this person die, this person die, what will happen? Do you have anybody like that in your life?

Devotee: No

Swamiji: Oh God! That is great liberation! Okay, then what was the impact of that death in your life?

Devotee: I felt complete vacuum in... I felt that I may not be taken care of by anybody

Swamiji: So something which is of your life’s interest is missed, going to be missing, right? Ha great. That’s all I wanted to know. Please...answer Me the last part, last question. Scan your life, whom all you don’t want them to die in your life. Is there anybody in your life you don’t want them to die.

Devotee: My dad, my mom, my brother, sisters

Swamiji: Mike closer, brother, sisters.

Devotee: And my lover.

Swamiji: Okay, now tell Me what is the reason

Devotee: Well, daddy is the only person. He cares me a lot. My mom also is great.

Swamiji: So if they are not there, that love will be missing.

Devotee: Yeah, same for my sister and my brother. And for my lover, I am going to marry him

Swamiji: So he is the future.

Devotee: Yeah

Swamiji: So with every person there is something your vested interest, you understand? Something that they are contributing to your life is going to be missing. Okay.

Now understand. I wanted all of you to know, with each near and dear one’s death, one dimension of you is dying. And I tell you, this is the truth. Not only science validates this by many surveys and studies, it’s a spiritual truth. If your father dies in the young age, you will have right side paralytic attack. If your mother dies, you will have left side paralytic attack because that part brain does not get nurtured if your father or mother is missing in your life. It’s a proven fact. If some of your relatives, close relatives die, some part of your life starts missing. That is why, there is so much attachment to the near and dear ones. Please understand, unless you integrate all the joy source of your life as yourself, there is going to be this fear, there is going to be this suffering, there is going to be this torture. Come on, answer Me the first question. What is the first concept you heard about death? The second part of the first question.

Devotee: What I remember is that I read some poems regarding death

Swamiji: Age? At the age of?

Devotee: I think around six or seven and I used to read some spiritual things they said that it will continue and things like that. What I had...I studied some science and this idea was there in me that somewhere I was thinking that something will definitely continue but alongwith there was also feeling that with death, all sort of problems and the set of drama which they continuously creating..

Swamiji: Why should it continue?

Devotee: It will..this could be a automatically pre-designed enter to all that. This I had in mind.

Swamiji: Alright, that’s enough. Come on, you answer Me the last question. Second part last question.

Devotee: You only Swami. So if you go away

Swamiji: Only Me, nobody else? You don’t have in your life anybody other than Me?

Devotee: Maybe I write my mother. Companionship

Swamiji: That’s all? Other than Me, nothing? Don’t worry. I am not going to die. I am going to be for 126 years. I’ll see you and your next, next generation. Alright. So what will..what you will miss if I leave?

Devotee: Security.

Swamiji: Then?

Devotee: Guidance

Swamiji: Then?

Devotee: The basis of my life. Image.

Swamiji: God! Alright. You won’t miss, don’t worry. Come on, you answer Me the eighth question means last question. Second part last question.

Devotee: I think they shouldn’t die, it is obviously my daughters because I don’t find any meaning in my life. I don’t have anybody to celebrate whatever I attain in my life. So It is my daughters because like... I won’t find any meaning for my existence.

Swamiji: Okay. So your future is curtailed, snubbed

Devotee: Yeah

Swamiji: Basically daughters means extension, future.

Devotee: yeah

Swamiji: Okay, alright, you can go now. So answer Me the first question of the first part. Your first fear of losing name and fame started building in the young age, youngest age.

Devotee: Yes Swamiji.

Swamiji: Tell Me that

Devotee: When I was about five or six years old, my sister ..my elder sister was about thirteen years old to me. She decided that she will get married to somebody who was not acceptable in the family and the grandfather, great grandfather and my father had supposedly very good name in the society. So when she decided that she will get married to her, the entire family decided that they lied in the society.

Swamiji: Ha, I understand. So that is the first shock you heard about the name and fame. Okay. come on, answer the eighth question.

Devotee: Last question?

Swamiji: Last question. Second part, last question. Who you may never want to die in your life.

Devotee: If Swamiji dies, nobody will tell jokes.

Swamiji: So I am only a joker in your life? Arey, then? Alright, at least as a joker, I am in many people’s life. That’s great! Then?

Devotee: My father already died in..actually I never learnt any concepts about people dying, okay

Swamiji: No, what I am saying, I am asking only about the engrams left. You have any fear of anybody?

Devotee: Actually if You would die, of course Sangha would probably dissipate people I would normally see would not see each other anymore, the beautiful Darshans and experiences

Swamiji: Okay, alright, great! Don’t worry. I am not going to die. Come on, let Me listen this side. Nobody? Okay, now why I am asking you to write you know, two thing: One, to bring it to your conscious. Only if it comes to your consciousness, I can clear it. I will not be able to clear anything unless you give permission. So bringing it to your conscious, that is the one reason. Second, when you read and write, understand, there are so many things, clicks inside you. When you write and listen, now the answers I gave, for many people it would have many understandings. It would have brought many things. Again please understand. Now sit, read the whole thing you wrote. All the answers of eight questions. Please understand, don’t miss even one line. Don’t think, ‘Oh! Just now I wrote, why should I read?’ No! Read. Read at least twice. You will see many things you missed. You will be able to pen down. Please do that. Just ten minutes. Then we will go to the next level process, next step.