So Why are you suffering?

“Even if I gain a thriving kingdom that has no rivals on this earth and even lordship over the Gods, I surely do not see how that can destroy this deep anguish that is parching my sense organs”.

Wow! First time Arjuna is talking intelligently. The moment you surrender the first thing happens to you the moment you become disciple you find the right problem. Understand, till now Arjuna was talking different, different, different problems, all are his engrams not real problem. The moment he said I am your disciple, he is taking about real problem. The think the power of the engram over Arjuna as mellowed down, till you have till you are experiencing the sufferings because of engrams you will not find the original suffering. Here Arjuna finds right problem. He is not stuck with engram based problems, he is coming to the true problem. As long as you are suffering with engram based problems you cannot experience, catch, understanding of real problem.

What Arjuna is now going through see, he is telling he is suddenly looking beyond. Even if I gave this whole kingdom and lot of the guards, Krishna I don’t see, the anguish parching my senses organs, he realized the suffering has no reason. As long as you associate some reason for your suffering you are misguided, you are running in the wrong direction, you have not diagnosed yourself properly. When you understand there is no reason for suffering is. Your existence is suffering to expresses your existence to your existence. (05:35)

It is like you are suppressed inside you and the suppressed you is trying, his best to break free from that suppression and express itself to you. Suffering is not due to some reason all your effort to find some reasons for suffering, is only you yourself trying to miss the real life, suddenly Arjuna is realizing his sufferings are not due to any reason. Whether he wins or loses even if he wins and gets control over all the worlds and Gods he feels how is the anguish that is parching my sense organs are going to be healed? He realizes the original sufferings when you start suffering and trying to identify some engrams, some reason, for the suffering, if you did not find the reason you are blessed.

Then you realize suffering has no reason. It has no reason, your existence is suffering, the cosmic existence is suffering to express its existence through your existence. It’s like a child trying to come out of mother’s womb, the enlightenment is trying to come out of you, when a mother who is delivering a baby tries to find any reason, for her pain and suffering, if she feels, oh! Maybe I hit my hand yesterday that is why I am having suffering. Ok, that can be a reason for the pain you feel in your fingers, what about the reason for the pain you feel in your leg? Because when you delivering a baby your whole body is going to experience that Aagni, the anguish. What about the pain you feel in your head? Maybe you can say no, I was hitting my head so hard on the bed that’s why I am feeling. Ok, what about the pain your feeling in your stomach?

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You are going to carry that anguish, that suffering is going to be there, if you trying to find any reason for your suffering you will take revenge on that reason. Taking revenge on the wrong reasons continuously is what I called, birth and death and birth and death and birth and death. If you wrongly identify your husband as the reason for your anguish you will start taking revenge on him. Somebody asked me, Swamiji why do so many women want same husband for next life also? I said may be they don't want to waste that time they took for training him (laugh). The time they spent training him in one life, why waste training period? (Laugh). If you find your boss is the reason for your suffering again and again you will take birth to take revenge on him. If you find your relationships as a reason for your suffering you will again and again take birth to take revenge on them. If you find human society as the reason for your suffering you will again and again take birth and become a terrorist to take revenge on them.

Incarnations is almost like a ten thousand year old soul. I will call a soul as a soul when it has become a independent awakening energy like a “Pratyaghatama Chaitanya Jakarta”, now any incident happens in front of his life, he collects only the lesson from that. From Chennai one Doctor she was telling me, in front of her house there is a beautiful tree, Parijata tree, this corporation fellows were trying to dig drainage and in that they were about to damage the tree, the roots were getting exposed and she was really mad at the corporate contractor, corporation contractor and he called them and told them to put the pipe in front of her house to save the roots of the tree and finish the job in front of her house.

(11:53) And that contractors could have done it within five minutes because all the machineries were there. But just to get some money out of her, our devotee that fellow was just playing this game, that game, no, no, no, I was busy, I am busy this work, that work and he did not do it. She said that tremendous anger it came, the anguish suffering happened in her she says because she did not identify any reason for that anguish she did not curse him. She says suddenly the whole anguish, anger, suffering turned as a energy into Anandagandha, the whole energy moved up. She said I was witnessing, suddenly I felt tremendous energy into in my Anandagandha and I sat closed my eyes, did not shout at him, did not do anything, in 10 minutes the fellow who was so angry and against came with the machinery and did the job and went away.

I told her, now the “Pratyaghatama Chaitanya Jakarta” as happened in her. Means without you involving your thoughts are becoming reality without your false identification without your false cognitions and actions. See if she has taken cognitions that this contractor is responsible for her suffering, anguish, it is a false cognitions based on the engrams, Samskara. She did not take cognitions, she just allowed the energy to explode, raise with the witnessing awareness, Consciousness and she is really a sincere person. When your experiences become reality, emotions become reality without you taking wrong cognitions and wrong actions due to the wrong cognitions you are already having “Pratyaghatama Chaitanya Jakarta; the individual soul awakened the inner awakening has happened”. Now, from now, see actually from the day she had that experience her birthday of the soul starts, the count starts. Now any number of years she lives with that same mood she will only pick up wisdom from every incident means she only gets matured from that day or life I can say the age of the soul starts. See, till that moment only her age of the body that is not anyway useful because it is going to be die, die, die, die, die…

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Like a, even if she has lived hundred life, that all the years she spent in that hundred life, is not going to be counted, that is not going to be the maturity of her soul. But the day she had this experience where; See, anybody could have naturally associated with that contractor only, their suffering, they would have called another one contractor and did the job, she didn't do wrong cognitions she did not find, reason for her suffering and she is really honest that is the reason the suffering has immediately raised itself to the level of Anandagandha and became answer, became reality. I can tell you, the whole Bhagavad-Gita Krishna as does just this one job, removing the idea, somebody is responsible for Arjuna’s suffering from Arjuna and making Arjuna take right cognitions, stopping him taking the wrong cognitions.

See, if Arjuna takes cognitions that somebody is responsible for his suffering like all the people, friends who are standing in front of him or the Krishna who is asking him to wage the war or blaming himself who has taken all the foolish vows in front of public, I will kill all these fellows, I will kill Karna, I will do this, I will do that, these are the vows Arjuna took in front of public. So, now either he has to keep up that wow, or live in a defamed way. So naturally he will try to blame himself. Please understand, even blaming yourself is wrong cognitions. The whole Gita, Krishna does only one job, telling Arjuna not to take wrong cognitions and letting Arjuna’s suffering remain as original suffering and evolve itself to its Anandagandha. So that just action happens, it becomes reality without Arjuna taking wrong cognitions.

When she had this experience with that Government contractor not taking cognitions of any reason for suffering and allowing it to raise itself to the next level so that it can become reality by itself. If it becomes a maturity at least for five years, five years is a too long period if she can retain the state again and again and again for next five years it is unlosable you can’t lose it, its permanent. Because five years is a long period for any habit to become your bio-memory. In the first level it will be only in the level of muscle memory but within five years it will become bio-memory.

I can say based on this scale an incarnation’s soul is at least ten thousand years matured. When you stop taking cognitions of any particular reason for your suffering, the maturity of the soul starts, the dark night of the soul starts, the dark night of the soul should not be understood in a wrong way. Please understand, it’s tremendous depression filling your whole being but should not be taken in the wrong sense, it is like a delivery pain, delivery pain should not be taken as inauspicious, it’s an auspicious experience to bring one more life to planet Earth. Same way the dark night of the soul is the auspicious expression to bring one more Enlighten Being to the planet Earth.

The day you experience the dark night of the soul, the maturity of the soul starts. With her example I will describe, from now onwards any incidents happens in her life, she will not collect engrams from her life, she will collect only the wisdom from that incident. Now, what has happened to her you know, now suddenly a, a nerve in her is opened which knows the alchemy of converting your suffering into action, that nerve only I call it as ‘Medha Naadi”, when your suffering becomes automatically the right action...

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Even when you don't take cognitions of even if you don't identify some person or situation as reason, without wrong cognitions, you’re suffering, expressing itself as an right action. Arjuna’s darkness of the soul we can start counting, Arjuna’s soul is getting matured. He says, even if everything achieved I don’t see, that I can remove the sorrow that burns my senses , I can remove the deep anguish that is parching my sense organs, means he is realizing there is no reason externally for his suffering. His realizing, his wrong cognitions and I wanted live you all with this one truth today, “stop taking wrong cognitions for your sufferings, your existence is suffering till enlightenment. Because the cosmic existence is struggling through your existence to express its existence”, so don't take wrong cognitions. Your family is not responsible for your suffering, your friends are not responsible for your suffering, your enemies are not responsible for your suffering, not even human society is responsible for your suffering, you are suffering because you are suffering.

Cosmos is trying to express its existence through your existence , you are going through a delivery pain , don’t curse the nurse , don’t curse your husband who made you pregnant, don’t curse the bed , don’t curse the hospital who is taking care of you and don’t take wrong cognitions. Any incident, person, situation you take cognitions is wrong cognitions. If you take the wrong cognitions poverty is the reason for your suffering, you will run behind Lakshmi; if you take the wrong cognitions ignorance, is the reason for your suffering you will run behind knowledge; if you take wrong cognitions powerlessness, is the responsible for your suffering you will run behind Druga, Kali behind power.

Here he says, even if I have lordship over all this Gods I don’t think I can remove my sufferings. He takes the right cognitions of his sufferings not having enlightenment is the reason for his sufferings. He realizes he is going through the dark night of the soul. A cell in the reproductive organ of a woman if that cell take the cognition, takes cognitions during the delivery time, that nurse is responsible for my pain, it is the wrong cognitions. That cell should know life is trying to express through itself. Now sit mallover, not having money, not having relationships, not having energy or all wrong cognitions you take for your suffering.

Contemplate on Arjuna, the suffering now Arjuna is having worth having, but suffering Arjuna had till the last verse is not worth having. Only in the last verse he says I am your disciple. Then suddenly he is having the right suffering. When you declare you are a disciple, first great thing will happen is to you is, you will have the right suffering, don't think you will not have suffering, you will have the right suffering. Then right suffering is the suffering which brings all sufferings to end. But unfortunately everybody expects the moment you declare yourself as disciple all suffering will disappear, No! First right suffering will happen only then sufferings can disappear.