“Life is too complicated.”

Life is too complicated. You are not even able to possess your own body. …or leading you to some disease which you are not able to handle. See if you wanted to restrict some diet …same way you don’t want some disease but your body is attracting that disease again & again…that is why the disease is happen. If you cant even possess your own body, why do you try to possess your son, your brother, your father, your mother? It is life. Each one tries to decide, tries to do something on their own. See now what Arjuna’s …whom he feels as his own people are coming directly to wage war on him. but this foolish guy is still caught with the idea swajana. And he constantly tries, tries no,no, no, my people. Understand falling for any weakness is sin! Life is expansion whether it is societal conditioning or societal commitment or emotional imbalance or the strong engrams whatever may be the reason, falling for weakness is the sin. Arjuna does not even know who is his swajana. He is just standing and…who have taken the vow to kill him and he says my brother in law, fathers in law, parents, grand parents. If you see the funny description he does not even know who is his swajana…life is too complicated, the moment child comes out of his mother’s womb he declares his independence, his freedom…from the parents same way, see that is the source of all relationships. Even in that relationship you can’t possess. You can’t do anything. Then what about all relationships? No. You need to understand who is your relationships? Your relatives? People who directly contribute encourage and help you to fulfill your life’s mission are your relatives. People who complete your life mission are your parents….are your kids. Here Arjuna do not even know who is his relatives. I have a small story –

Man goes to his son’s room to wish him good night. His son is having a nightmare and screaming, rolling. Man wakes him and asks his son is he okay. Son replies …aunty died…next day really aunty dies. One week later the man again goes into his room to wish him good night. …grand daddy died. Father assures the son the grand daddy is fine and sends him to bed. Next day grand daddy died. One week later…daddy has died! The father assures the son that he is okay and sends the boy to bed. The man goes to be but cannot sleep because he is so terrified. Earlier 2 reference are there! Next day man drives very cautiously to work very fearfully. He does not eat lunch because he is scared of food poisoning…gets disturbed at every movement and hides under his desk. Upon walking his front door finally in the alte evening ……entire life! She responds you think your day was bad, my day was also bad. The milk man drop dead the door this morning!

He does not even know who is his relative. Sometime we do not even know. Even if you know somebody is biologically related, you can’t possess. Relationship is all about the fulfillment of your life’s mission. He suffers in unconsciousness for the people who are standing there to kill him as relatives. Please understand if he suffers these guys …at least that has some logic but when he says I have to kill my people. Then he is suffering with unconsciousness not with clear logic. See this whole Gita ultimately what Krishna does it bring Arjuna to clear logic. He removes convulsion and perversion from Arjuna’s system.

Sreyo bhokat..

2nd chapter 5th sloka Arjuna says it is better in this world to live even on alms. He is feeling for wrong people. Because of his perversion, he is not taking decision bas…fired by the CEO. How your appraisal makes your manager take decisions, same way your minds appraisal, the society’s appraisal makes you take many decisions. So don’t allow the appraisal of the society, of the mind to work on you, to do anything on you. the reason for Arjuna’s confusion is he tries to make decision based on the appraisal. He is not going by the proper logically logically logic. The logical logic. Then he repents about the hell and heaven the concepts appraised to him by his teachers. And he himself being a son of Indra lord of the heaven, he is talking if he does something wrong, he will go to hell. Heaven and hell and all lot of discretions are alos playing. Like Indra, he has lot of discretion of power. And for the sake of his son, Indra comes down and goes to…Devendra comes down, goes to Karna and begs for his kavacha kundala the sheath which karna is having from birth. Arjuna does not know Karna is his brother. That their mothers are the same. It is a very tricky drama. He is feeling in this verses of BG for all the relatives but he is not feeling for the real relative Karana. Karna is his real brother. But he is feeling for all other fellows who are not ….when my father can come down and such a sinful act. It is a sin going and taking away somebody’s protection. Karna was born with protection Kavacha and kundala a shield which covers his body which does not allow any arrows to touch his body. …even if Arjuna does all kinds of sins, Devendra may say my quota, come and live in my house…but Arjuna in fear is trying to create all kinds of justification for his fear. See if Arjuna is really understanding he is afraid that is why he is talking all these things, I don’t think Krishna would have interfered…it is okay. But Arjuna is not even clear what is his problem. So here the Krishna has to take the responsibility of at least clearing all the problems Arjuna is having and imagining. Krishna needs to bring Arjuna to reality, to the truth.

Suddenly he says what is this? I have to kill all these people. It is sin. The community system will collapse…one girl she got married and the day she is about to leave, it will usually be a huge scene….the second street. The in-laws house is just next street and there is even internal connection. It is a inside relatives. Father is also crying, mother is also crying. All of them keeping kerchief in the mouth. It is a big scene and the m other is telling what is there it is okay you are going to be in the next street..what is the reason you are crying? They are asking one by one are you going to miss the grand mother you are crying she said no! are you going to miss the brother you are crying? They said at least point out what you will miss. She pointed to the wall. See in the village …how will I get this lime everyday? How the daughter in law how the girl can’t go to the in-laws house because she will miss the lime…she is in totally different spectrum. At least if she says my mother or father or my bed room at least bathroom it is okay. The village girls will always sit near the wall, break the wall patch by patch and eat little lime and this girl is saying she will miss the wall. Exactly same way, Krishna is there doing something extraordinary too big and this guy is saying…I don’t know what to do. It is like this old ladies sitting and crying during the death. If somebody dies….what are you going to do? I tell you don’t utter even a word without being in reality. Any word you utter without being in reality makes you more and more weak. You become weaker and weaker! Do not inherit the sin of making yourself weak by uttering words in unreality. Living in societal realilty. The appraisal of the society cannot be reality. Here Arjuna is just floating on the appraisals of the reality, appraisals of reality by society! Judgments from the appraisals of the societal reality will always be sin and shrinking you. it is the right word it just shrinks you.

Small story –

In a small town prosecuting attorney called his first witness to the stand on trial. Grand motherly elderly woman. He approached her and asked Mrs.Jones do you know me? …frankly you’ve been big disappoint on me…2 bit paper pusher. Yes I know you. the lawyer was stunned not know what else to be done. He just pointed across the room and asked Mrs.william do you know the defence attorney. She again replied, yes I knew Mr.Bardy since he ws young…he has a drinking problem …and his law practice is one of the shodiest in the …at this point judge was really shaken and whole …..if either of you ask her if she knows me you will be in jail for contempt within 5 minutes!

Even judges are afraid of appraisal. Appraisal is not going to help. Societal realities are not realities. He is just playing with words. I can see there is no material in the whole Arjuna’s verses. There is no material at all. He is just repeating his words swajanam - my people father, mother, relative, daddy, grand daddy, sin hell, heaven without even creating clear logical statement or meaning. He is just jumping here there, here there and playing with words. He does not even get back. He is just playing with words. Neither he is convinced of his logic nor he is able to convince of others Krishna his logic. The whole thing I was reading again & again all the verses. Finally only one thing I realized. You can’t make much out of it. huge confusion of engrams, confusion of words. If actually Arjuna is allowed to talk, talk, talk for 5 minutes he himself will contradict what he is talking and will get caught…they talk, talk and they suddenly feel drained and after few minutes they miss the whole thread…and they themselves get caught and get the answer and leave…..for more than 5 -10 minutes…what will happen then? Whatever they are uttering suddenly they themselves will find they are talking completely opposite of…now they will eb talking something completely against….it is very easy to handle confused people. Because they themselves do not know the meaning of the words they are uttering, words with which they are playing…

Small story –

Once there was a family of skuns. It is a small animal. Skuns who lived in a hollow tree. They have 2 baby skuns their names are in & out. Now whenever in went out, out came in…if in happened to be in and wanted to go out, he did not go out until out came in and out….i don’t know how many of you understood. One day a big storm blew up…in was in and out was out or if out was in and in was out. Out happened to be in right then. The mother said – out go out and bring in in please, I am worried about him. out said sure thing mom. So out went out and for the very first time out & in out for the same time. Just a minute or tow…in and out were in at the same time! ☺ the mother skun was amazed…out said in stink!

Arjuna also is doing the same thing. …you might have laughed for the sake of courtesy. Understand, just like using diff diff words again & again tires you. Arjuna is trying the same trick on Krishna. But whom is he trying. Naturally it is not going to work, that is not going to work. In confusion, in depression Arjuna is using all different techniques, all different possibilities. All diff methods. First he is systematically expressing his greed, the whole country will suffer. Then he says whole civilization, societal structure will suffer..pitru loka even they will suffer. So he makes everybody suffer because he feels he will suffer. He is projecting his suffering on the whole world. understand he is projecting his suffering on the whole world. many time you do it. you project your suffering on the whole world. you think if you close your eyes the whole world will tumble down and fall on the ground. No. everything is going to happen in spite of you! I can say it is almost condensed version of ego. Pl und, Arjuna in a way is claiming I am God, I am everything I am center of universes through these verses. When you are in joy if you feel I am God you are enlightened. In suffering you are in suffering…I am god should be felt when you are in joy not in suffering. Here the way Arjuna puts it to krishna almost he shows the whole world will suffer because he feels he is the center of everything.

Ego is something which thinks too much about you. when you think too much about you, you are bound to be in suffering. Somebody goes to the Guru of Paramahamsa Yogananada a great Mahatma, a great Avatara purusha. He goes to him and asks master I am feeling depressed, I am not feeling I can get enlighten I don’t know what to do. …the Guru says very simple thing go and peel about potato skin continuously without thinking or talking anything for next 10 years. Naturally that guy who does not have patience for 10 minutes…within next 5 days he finds himself in a completely diff spectrum to the master and said oh Master ….understand thinking too much about you brings suffering. When you started thinking of the potato, peeling the skin of the potato then constantly thinking about has stopped. When you stop too much of thinking about you , 90% of your suffering will disappear! ..go on bragging about it. a small story –

One preacher in a town he always used to brag see what I am doing, how my sermons are attended by ppl, how divinity is invoked into everybody….one day his doctor told him he has only few days left to live. He went home feeling very sad and cries to his wife. She said Honey if there is anything I can do to make you happy tell me. then the preacher answers…your little secret and you said you never want me to open it as long as you live. Now that I am about to leave the eath, about to die….the preacher’swife go out the box and opened it. it contained 10k dollars and 3 eggs. What are those eggs doing int eh box? She replied. Every time your sermon was really bad, I put one egg in the box. The preacher was very happy….and started braging. And he hasked the wife alright what about the 10k dollars. She just replied every time there were dozen eggs in the box, I sold them and put one dollar in the box! ☺

Understand, Arjuna is bragging unconsciously he is telling he is the center of the universe becos he is projecting his suffering on the wole world. he is not understanding what he is talking. When Krishna thinks he is center of the universe, he is in joy, when Arjuna thinks he is center of the universe he is in pain. When you are in pain, you are all alone. When you are in joy the whole universe celebrates it. becos universe perceives only joy…suffering is not opp to joy. Suffering is anti joy. …antis and aunties annot exist together. Opposites can exist together. Antis cannt exist together. Suffering and joy are not opposites. It is antis. They cant exist together. So und the subtle difference. When Krishna feels he is center of the universe, he is in joy. It is an experience. ….tires to behave that he is center of the world universe. I tell you when you are in joy…universe is joy meter. It does not recognize anything other than joy. If you are in suffering, be very clear you are all alone. You have separated yourself from the universe. You have disconnected yourself from the reality. You talk childishly. Here Arjuna is talking in a childish way in his suffering.

Small story – little boyd opened the big family diary…suddenly something…old leaf that had been pressed in betwee the pages. So he runs tot eh mother – mummy look, look, what I found? Mother asks what have you got there dear? Mummy I think I found Adam’s underwear. A child when he found an old leaf, thinks it is Adam’s underwear…

My people how will I kill them. I will go to hell. The community may disappear…but only Krishna knows it is childish.practically Arjuna is throwing tantrum. How krishna is going to handle Arjuna, how he is going to respond to Arjuna. Let us see tomorrow. Tomorrow I will start BG means the words of Bhagavan. Bhagavan starts ftalking tomoorw. The song of lord! The song ofGod! So sit for few minutes getting ready for receiving BG. Today we will have one kriya in preparation. This kriya, this technique swill directly relax and stimulate the brain. It will relax you and stimulate the right parts of the brain so that you can receive the truth properly, you can be out of all the confusion, reach out to all the parts of your system with this great truth.

Sit comfortably….2nd inhale deeply. On the exhale start humming intensely. Keep your mouth closed and teeth slightly separated so that the vibration circulates through out the head. ..2nd step - the slight and subtle inner sound. You will hear the same sound inside.

Start humming as deeply as possible.

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