“I will give you a simple straightforward answer.”

I will give you a simple straightforward answer. I don’t have to... I don’t have any agenda and moreover, this is not the crowd where I need to convince or prove anything. You are already Sadhakas. Either for the sake of physical healing or for mental healing or for Spiritual healing, you are here. All of you already have an introduction and idea about the Yoga tradition or Vedic tradition. So I don’t have to convince you.

Only if… if the need for convincing exists, you need to go on using big, big words and clothe the truth with the... big, big coat and suit and everything. Here I won’t clothe the truth with any... I will just straightaway give you the naked truth, as it is. Maybe you have any question; anybody, you are welcome... Yes...

Delegate: Swamiji, being here a student of a University and I am taking this privilege to ask you a question. Being at a young age, you have gone through various deep Sadhana but can you explain, little bit, your experience...?

Swamiji: Oh… Alright!

Delegate: Thank You.

Swamiji: I had the fortune of sitting at the feet of Ramana Maharshi’s disciples. You must have heard of Ramana Maharshi. A great master who lived in Arunachala. There is a place called Tiruvannamalai, five or six hours drive from here, that’s My native place. I am born and brought up in that Arunachala.

Usually in Bharat, Swamis don’t tell their native place or don’t feel proud about it but in My case it is not geographical connection, I have a deep Spiritual connection with Arunachala. So, I… I am proud of that place and I always feel connected and I have a deep respect for that place. It’s a… one of the very powerful Spiritual energy center; and World’s biggest Shiva Temple, something like a 27 acre built-up area in granite and a huge tower, 220 feet or something; World’s biggest Shiva Temple is there. World’s biggest Vishnu Temple is in Srirangam. Biggest Shiva Temple is there.

I had the fortune of sitting at the feet of the Ramana Marahashi’s disciples. One Annamalai Swamigal, maybe some of you would have seen… seen him also, a great soul, who left the body only 95. Ten-twelve years ago he was... I can say that around the age of ten, I started visiting him. It’s like a... not any Spiritual reason or anything just My parents will take Me.

In Bharat you know that parents will force the kids to go with them. When they go to these Temples or to meet Swamis. One nice thing with that Swami is he will always give candy. So, they will give some sweets. So I will never miss when I know that they are going to, this… meet this Swami.

I will go there and sit with him. Many time he will give candy and maybe because of candy I felt very connected to him, not anything else just eh… eh… you don’t need to do anything, and you can just sit and… and you don’t understand also what he talks. It’s good in a way. You are not disturbed, you can mind your business and at the end you will have candy.

So… One day, somehow I don’t know whether fortunately or unfortunately, I was drawn to what he was talking.

He was talking something like a... “We are not body, we don’t have suffering, we are beyond pain”.

These kind of words. I was not... not only I was not convinced, I was not able to understand.

How can he say that we don’t have pain? If My mother beats Me, I have pain. In… In Bharatn villages you know that parents will kick the kids if they do something wrong and I think in the cities, the habit is not there now. Cities are…? Now we don’t have. In villages... still the… in the villages it is there; hmmm... still in villages it is there. The parents will beat the kids.

I always… I remembered that when My mother beats Me, I have pain, I have suffering. Anyhow I went to the home and conte… continuously contemplating on this word. He is saying that I don’t have pain and we don’t have pain, we are beyond suffering and we are Atma and all those things.

I was not able to brush him aside also because I somehow felt he is a very honest person. He is a very truthful person. He is not the person to tell lies. Maybe because of candy I don’t know, that relationship is developed. Because of the relationship I was not able to just reject him, completely throw him away.

I was continuously contemplating, then took a knife in the kit... from the kitchen and cut My thigh to see whether I have pain or not, still the mark is there. Of course not only I had pain, My mother gave Me few Puja and took Me to the hospital nearby and they did first aid and what all they need to do. Something like a 13 stitches they made. Such a deep cut, 13 stitches they put and… Anyhow I become alright in maybe 10… 10 or 15 days.

I became alright, and I went to him again and asked him, “What is this, what have you taught Me? You told we don’t have pain, we don’t have suffering!”

And still I remember he was repeating some Gita Shloka:

नैनं छिन्दन्ति शस्त्राणि नैनं दहति पावक: |

“nainaṁ chhindanti śhastrāṇi nainaṁ dahati pāvakaḥ”

What is that?

See, this Arjuna, this guy is intelligent, when he heard all this truth he killed others and verified, not himself but in My case I went and cut Myself, that’s where the problem started.

Anyhow I went and asked him, “What is this, what have you thought, you did like this and I am having pain and suffering. My mother was shouting at Me”.

He said a beautiful word, still I remember. His eyes have become very compassionate and soft and he said, “My son, don’t bother. Just look inside and see from where the pain idea is coming into your being?”

See, now I am using a very logical words to you. He was not using this many words.

In Tamil, he told... he said, Tamil is My mother tongue, in his… in that language he said, “Vali yarukku ennu parruda”.

He told Me, “Who is having pain? Look inside”.

Please understand. I tell you honestly, I am a ten year old boy. I can’t understand the Vedanta or philosophy. I can say, honestly, he Initiated Me, with that word he Initiated... Initiated Me into that method of enquiring or going into the truth.

Now I know all these big, big words, it’s a self enquiry, great Vedanta Vichara and all these words. To tell you honestly at that time, fortunately I did not have an intellectual stuff, otherwise I would have idea, “Oh it’s a big thing, I cannot do”.

Fortunately, I did not have all that intellectual background because of that I was very simple, relating very simple way with him and he told Me, “Who is having pain? Look inside”.

Anyhow, I told him, “Alright I will look inside” then, even then I was not convinced.

I was asking him, “Okay, you could have told Me about this meditation and all before I cut Myself. Why did you make Me... make Me cut Myself then you all teaching all these things”.

He told very beautifully, that words still I remember. It’s a very strong word, “My son, don’t bother about this pain, your spirit to experiment with the truth is much more valuable than this pain. Forget about it, keep that spirit alive. You will never have any pain”.

It was a very strong word from him, “Keep this spirit of experimenting with the truth alive. Keep this spirit of playing with the truth”.

Maybe I can say, the first... the word which he uttered was “Initiation” means like Initiating Me into the technique, into the truth.

The second word which he uttered is giving courage and confidence to travel in that path; to travel in that path, to continue the journey to do My Tapas, that was the first and very strong inspiration and I was playing with the technique whenever I find time I will sit and see that from where the pain is coming.

Sometime it will feel like the pain is in that area, same area where I had the pain, where I had the cut. Sometime suddenly I feel the pain is coming from some other area, somewhere else I am remembering the idea of pain, so it was just a play for few days, the technique or the method.

One day evening, I was sitting at the foothills of Arunachala and trying to play sameway with this technique. It was not a serious meditation or Tapas or anything. It was just a playful remembrance or trying to see from where that idea that I, I am suffering or I have pain is coming. I was trying to find the source and by the grace of Arunachala or by the grace of the Annamalai Swamigal, the Guru Krupa and the Daiva Krupa, some strong experience happened, something opened up inside. I was sitting with closed eyes but the opening was so strong, I was able to literally see whatever was there around Me 360 degree. Of course it’s a very mystical experience. If you are not able to logically accept, please forgive Me, that’s a… forgive Me for intruding into your logic but what I am saying is honest truth as it happened, whoever can catch, catch.

Complete 360 degree, this side and this side, all the direction I was able to clearly see at a time, not only I was able to see, it’s like a... that hill which is in front of Me, that temple which was in the side, and the trees, plants, rocks which was around, and the sky, the ground, the whole thing. Not only I was able to see, to tell you more clearly, I was able to just feel everything is My very being.

I can say... see now usually people feel that they are alive inside their skin. How you feel alive inside their skin, that same depth of life I was able to feel in the pillow and the plant and the flower or the mic, whatever is in-front, whatever is around.

How you feel, you are living inside your skin, inside your boundary, the same depth of intense life or feeling, “I exist”, “I am alive” happened with the whole surrounding whatever was there in the 360 degree. It was a very strong experience, very strong feeling.

Maybe I can say some two and a half hours or three hours I was there without moving the body, then slowly I was able to move the body and the moment I came down, around two and a half days or three days, like a bliss fever. It was like a fever with intense bliss. It was not suffering fever, bliss fever, feeling like a... I have to go to that place again and again. The place where I had experience, one side it is pulling, the other side because of this newness or something unknown, the fear was also there.

It’s like a... if a young boy falls in love, one side he will have a deep pull to meet that person, the other side because it is a unknown dimension, he himself never experienced he can feel for somebody so deeply it’s a unknown dimension opening up that will naturally create a deep fear.

How can I open up so much? How can I be open so much? How can I be pulled so much beyond My logic? That fear was also there.

I don’t know what happened. By and by within few weeks that fear to go and be in that state again and again has disappeared and after that, never the feeling to come out of the state came, never the feeling to feeling of boredom from that state happened, never moving out.

Maybe I can say, it become like a under current of all the activities and inspired, created more and more energy and intensity to continue the journey. Maybe different meditation techniques, different practices, different Tapas, different things.

I don’t know why all this has happened and all those things. To tell you honestly, there was no... only one thing I can say, after that there was no suffering. Even during Tapas or penance, there was no suffering, it was a pure joy.

People ask Me... nine years I lived wandering, begging and eating, sleeping under the trees; nine years I spent... maybe 10,000 kilometers I would have walked; and 2-3 years I spent in the organizations... like different organizations, Ramakrishna mission and many other organizations, Spiritual organizations.

So, during My wandering, people ask Me, “Swamiji, it would have been a great suffering or... How did you live? It’s very difficult”.

Actually I feel... otherway, the normal person’s life is very difficult living in the same house, same car, same city, same wife, same life, actually that is more boring. I feel that they are doing real Tapas. They are doing real Tapas. My life was a joy. It was just an ecstasy. Everyday you have something more interesting and exciting; new, new things in the inner world and in the outer world, it’s a great… great exploration.

So after that first experience, there was no suffering, whatever I did, whatever I lived; from others’ view it might... maybe looking like a suffering or penance or Tapas or meditation. From My point of view, it was nothing but a simple exploration, a simple joy or simple expression.

Now sometime I sit and read the book, it’s not that I am suffering, I am just exploring. Sameway, all My Tapas, all My meditation, everything was just exploration. It was not suffering. It was not painful at all. Maybe these are the few words I can share. Thank you.

Whatever you think as Atma, whatever ideas you have about Atma is just an idea. According to Me, if I have to tell an honest answer, just drop those ideas and be very clear that, “You don’t know”, then you will see the truth. Any idea you carry about Atma only becomes a hindrance for realizing the Atma.

Ramana Maharshi says very beautifully, “I did not even know the word Brahman till I had Brahmajñāna, that is why I was able to have easily”.

So, the concept of Atman is good in the initial level as an inspiration but after you start your path, better to drop the ideas which you carry about Atma and be very clear that, “I don’t know”.

See, sometime the ideas which you carry due to a pseudo feeling, “You know it and you only need to live it”, then the thirst or the enquiry or the seeking drastically drops.

You became more or less like a manager. “Now I know the truth, I need to administer” that is not the case. You don’t even know that is the case. If we know, it will express by-itself.

I always tell people, the urge should become urgent. The question should become quest. For that, better not to have an idea about Atman. I can give you any idea, long, big, big talks; big, big idea but I will be only disturbing you.

I can say, it’s in the form of light, consciousness, Sathya-Swabhava-Swayamprakasha-Jyoti, Nirvikalpa, Nirananda, Niranjana, Nischala, Nir... all those big, big words I can give, but all the words are just nothing more than a brand names.

No, true. Somebody says Nirvana, somebody says Advaita, somebody says Atmajñāna, somebody says Brahmajñāna. I have My own branding name, Nithyananda state; so something like that. I don’t want to repeat all the different brand names. See that’s why I asked you, If you want a social answer, I would have given a long social answer. I don’t think that anyway going to help you.

In the... if you ask this same question in that public, I will give you a very long answer quoting Ramakrishna, quoting Ramana Maharshi, quoting Buddha, quoting Shiva, quoting Shankara, quoting everybody. Long answer, because I need to convince him that I know something.

Here, I don’t need to convince you, I can straightaway help you. You understand you are a seeker. I can straightaway share with you what I... what really can help you. Usually these big, big terms are used not to help that person, to help Myself.

No, that is the truth. These are all... you see, after all I am a young person. So, I need to use big, big words to tell that person, “You are sitting in front of a person whom you need to listen” and I think with you... with seekers, I don’t have to use the big, big words. I can straightaway tell the truth.

This is what I feel, better not to have an idea once you enter into the journey. Just be very clear, you don’t know.

That clarity, “You don’t know” can lead to such a great depth; can give so much of strength; can gives... bring... will bring so much of inspiration. You will never be struggling or in depression.

See, depression is the worst problem seekers face in the life. Why they face you know? They think they know almost everything. They know everything, only thing they have to make it... as a… as a reality in their life but that is not the case.

If you know the fire will burn, naturally you will not put your hand there but people tell Me, “Swamiji, I know everything fire will burn, but again I am putting my hand there”.

No, it means you don’t know, that is the truth. You have a pseudo knowledge. I can say, breaking the pseudo knowledge is what I call Vijnanamaya Kosha Bedhana; breaking the Vijnanamaya Kosha.

We live with the very wrong knowledge, very wrong idea, “We know everything”, that’s what I call Vijnanamaya Kosha. Breaking it, having a clarity, “This is what I know, this is what I don’t know. Let Me be very clear”. That clarity will break the Vijnanamaya Kosha and can bring so much of strength, clarity, peace into your being.

Thank you.

Swamiji: Yes.

Delegate: \<English 23:07\> \<Not Audible\>

Swamiji: No, the first statement is wrong.

Delegate: But you said, in the family, all we are suffering.

Swamiji: I am sorry...

Delegate: When we are s... when we are in the family, with the same wife with the same life.

So, what is my question that... does it mean that if we are suffering intensely, you are progressing on your \<English 23:25\> \<Not Audible\>.

Swamiji: Ah, two thing... the statement which I made, the same wife, same life, same car, just a jovial statement; but to tell you honestly, neither your wife nor your car or your house is same as yesterdays, it is different.

You can’t step into the same river twice. I tell you, you can’t even step into the same river even once. See the moment you put your foot, before even it reaches the ground water moves away. So, your wife is updating herself, your life is updating itself. The whole existence is constantly updating itself.

So My statement, the same wife, same car, same thing was told in a more a casual sense and a jovial sense and how you feel, but that is not the case, actual truth; that’s the first thing.

Second thing, if we are suffering, are we going towards God? No, something seriously wrong. I can say, in the initial level you will not have suffering, you will have suffocation. Suffocation is what Ramakrishna calls, the seeking or the intense yearning; Vyākulatā, that is the word Bhagavan Ramakrishna is using, Vyākulatā; the intense yearning, there will be suffocation, not suffering.

Suffocation means feeling that you are not enough, you have not expanded what you can, you are not doing what you can; just like a… missing some part of you. It won’t be a suffering. Suffering is different, suffocation is different.

Suffering is something when you think, “I need this” and you are not achieving, that is suffering. Suffocation is, you know you are something but you have not become that. Suffocation is from within, suffering from outside. Suffocation is from Prarabdha, suffering is from Agamya.

Prarabdha means, the potentiality which you brought with you is Prarabdha. Agamya is the desires which you accumulated after coming here. The accumulated desires bring suffering, the Agamya brings suffocation. Suffocation inspires and helps you to expand, open up, break; suffering puts you in deep depression.

So I feel suffocation will just explode into joy. There won’t be suffering between you and the Enlightenment or the Ātmajñāna. So I can’t accept the word if you are suffering more, you are going towards Divine, towards God.

According to My experience, not only goal, even the path is Anandamaya. Path and goal both are Anandamaya. In the initial level, the suffocation will be there.

Please understand the difference between the suffocation and suffering. Suffering is from the accumulated desires, suffocation is from your inborn Prarabdha, tendency, the potential energy. So when a seed has not become tree, when the seed is about to break, it has that suffocation, Vyākulatā but suffering is after you become tree; suddenly you want, maybe 2-3 house built on you or 2-3 cars, so that you can get into that. Tree can’t move, which you… you try to accumulate something, which is not directly yours, your very quality, that is what I called suffering.

Suffering is from Agamya. Suffocation is from Prarabdha. Prarabdha, suffocation may be there in the initial level in your Spiritual path but Agamya, the suffering, a depression cannot be there in your spiritual journey then there is something wrong if the suffering is there.

First sit and clari… clear the suffering, that’s a basic need to start your journey. Thank you.

Swamiji: Yes... I will answer, ten more minutes. Yes.

Delegate: How do you attain contentment… contentment?

Swamiji: Sit and contemplate. Make a list of all your desires. All your desires, whatever, even the small to big, even the fulfilled desires. If you remember, it means it is there in you. List, list and sit and contemplate, just visua... take up each desire, and visualize that it has become your reality, how you feel.

Influence... ins… add Kriya Shakti to Iccha Shakti, add your visualisation and creativity to your desires. Suddenly you will see many desires which you thought is your life will drop, will lose its influence over you.

Empower your visualization, your desires with your imagination power. Just see that they have become reality and how you feel now? Suddenly you will see, many desires which you thought is a important thing in your life will lose it’s power over you; those desires are your Agamya, accumulated desires and suddenly you will see some desires will become so strong in you, that’s what I call Prarabdha, your own desires.

With Prarabdha... you see, Prarabdha... great quality of the Prarabdha Karma is, before fulfilling it will give you a deep inspiration and energy to run behind the desire. After fulfilling automatically that will give you deep satisfaction; but with Agamya, before fulfilling also you will have a deep irritation. Sometime you will see, if you remember some desires, you will have a deep irritation. After fulfilling, you will feel the deep emptiness.

Agamya will start with irritation and end with emptiness. Prarabdha will start with inspiration, end with fulfilment.

So, sit and contemplate on all the desires. Take this as a meditation. Everyday visualize one desire fully. Create your heaven and live half an hour in that. It may look like imagination, what am I doing? But you will see suddenly, there are many desires which you are carrying without even knowing that they have no say over your being. They have no power over your being.

When the Agamya drops, Prarabdha will have its own energy to fulfill itself.

Thank you.

Delegate: Two question. I am... which is in the picture... I am not here to prove I am God, I am here to prove you are God. Please… Why do you say, you are God?

Swamiji: When I say, you are God. I mean whatever you have an idea about God, you are much more than that.

Can you describe what do you understand by the word, “God”? See whatever you know about God, the quality or the experience or anything, you are much more than that, that’s what I mean.

Please understand, if you think God is all pervading energy or God... you see, if you say Krishna, what do you know about Krishna, with... the person is such a wonderful joy, power, glory and all the qualities. He lived His whole life like a Leela.

See, whenever you start cherishing, enjoying your very existence, the whole life will look like a Leela. Krishna lived in that Space, that’s why we always call Krishna’s biography as Krishna Leela. Krishna’s history is called Krishna Leela. It was such a wonderful play. Whatever quality you remember, you identify, you associate, you understand in the name of Krishna, you have much more than that. Possibility which is in you, potentiality which is in you, is much more than that.

Please understand, I am not disrespecting Krishna. More... immediately your mind will say, “No, no, no how can I be equal to God?”

Person who says he is equal to God and person who says he is not equal to God, both are egoistic idiots. Understand, both are egoistic. At least a person who claims himself as God, will have his ego somewhere cornered. Society will not allow that. Somebody will make fun of him, “Ah! See this fool, he is claiming himself as God, he is a madcap” but the person who is not... who is thinking I am not God, his ego will never be attacked. So he is the worst cunning idiot. He is the most cunning fellow, toxic than the ego; inferiority ego. He can easily preserve himself, protect himself.

Please understand neither the idea you are nor the idea you are not, is a ultimate truth.

Understand, actually I can say, this way, the inferiority ego is much more dangerous than superiority belief. Neither you need to say you are not God nor you need to say you are God. Just experience you are God, that is the truth.

Person who is experienced his divine will not feel... People ask Me, “How do You know you are Enlightened?” I tell them, “The doubt whether I am Enlightened or not or the ego, I am Enlightened, both disappears, both are not there; that is the Space, that is the symbol that you are Enlightened”.

Neither you will have a doubt whether I am Enlightened or not, nor you will have a ego, I am Enlightened; both will not be there. You will just be radiating and the people around you will feel that you are living in it.

Understand, if you have that idea you are not God, you are egoistic idiot. Please, sorry if the word is too strong. I am talking to you as I talk to My Ashramites. To My Ashramites, I give a very strong words.

If you see the original words of Ramakrishna, very strong word; and uses lot of Bengalese Slang. Somehow unfortunately in english everything got edited and did not get translated. He is such a villager, such a joyful... joy to lead... read his words and the simile examples which he uses all dirty village comments and you should… you should read in original Bengali to understand the juicy being.

See his portrait unfortunately by the… I think I can tell the truth. This Vedantic Swamis has a very decent, cultured and the… which appeals to the modern mind but he was such a pure simple raw being using straight words, straight cut. Ah... examples, if you read the original Bengali... now the latest... The original Bengali, the “Kathamruta” is translated as it is and came out five volumes. If you read those things, he is a very straight...

No, just why I am telling you this... please don’t mind by the word, “Idiot”. You may think that, “How can an Enlightened person use the word, idiot?”

What can be done, that is what I am using so nothing can be done. If you want to learn the spirit from that word or judge and waste your time that’s all. I don’t have a problem but why I am using this… this kind of strong words? This is the way... I don’t feel like editing. The moment I edit these words, the strength or depth with which… with which I want to convince or convey this idea will lose its power over you, that’s the reason I am using the exact word.

I want to remind you once more, if you think you are not god you are egoistic.

Thank you.

Two thing... What is happiness and Guru?

See the idea... let Me be very honest. I always tell people... in… in our Ashram... whenever people ask Me about this Guru and all these things, I tell them… There is a beautiful example, if you allow the calf, it will go and be with the cow only for ten minutes; but the calf will drink the milk and come out. The bee; fly which is sitting on the cow 24 hrs, it will drink only the blood.

So you can have Guru but just drink his blood, give headache to Him and you can be away from Guru and drink only milk whenever you go near Him. It is not being near a Guru’s physical presence. I don’t think that plays any major role in the seeking. It is the depth of seeking, that plays a major role.

Ramakrishna very beautifully says, “Surrender to anything, surrender is important, not to what you surrender”. If you surrender, even a stone can become God and guide you, that’s what happened in Ramakrishna’s life. A just a black stone, three feet black stone. If you go and see, it is... it looks very funny. This three feet black stone showed... this Ramakrishna the whole world. The Kali Murthy... if you go to Dakshineswar it’s not more than three feet. She is just standing with four leg and three feet black stone but that stone can show the divine or the cosmic experience to Ramakrishna.

So when you surrender even a stone can become God. When that intense seeking is not there even if God comes in front of you, you will ask for ID card. You will ask for ID card and now you are saying, “Oh, I am not having a Guru”.

You think living around Me is such a easy joke. Ask them, they will tell you. It’s not a joke. You understand, let the seeking become strong. If the seeking become strong, even a small stone can teach you, the life can teach you.

Life you see... the Prana which is flowing inside My body coming out as words, the same Prana is flowing everywhere. It can straight away enter your body also and create those same strong teachings inside your heart.

Please understand, because I have become empty, empty bamboo... hollow bamboo, the air which is flowing inside Me coming out as a flute music. So, the same depth, if it can start happening in you, the air which flows inside your nose can become a strong teaching or inspiration inside your heart. Without that intensity, even if I tell something, even if I utter some word, after two days you will not even remember.

“Oh, that young Swami came... they brought... okay. He spoke something, I think He spoke well”, that’s all.

People come and tell Me usually, “You spoke well Swamiji”.

I just catch that shirt and tell, “Tell Me, what I spoke?”

“No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. You spoke well, don’t ask that and all”.

It is just a... one more word, one more word. A courtesy or socially polite or just to get an attention. You can get attention in two ways, one by throwing stone, another one by praising. Both way you can get an attention. A polite way of getting attention, asking for attention, that’s all.

So, I don’t think the physical nearness is directly relevant than the intense seeking. The intense seeking is what I feel is needed and maybe I can use one more word “Psychological revolution”, a cognitive shift. Seeing, processing the information which you receive and decision making. This cognition should completely have a shift.

As on now any experience which you add to your being adds more and more fear or greed. Instead of that any experience add to your being should become strength and awareness, leading you to more awareness. If this cognitive shift happens, if this psychological revolution happens, I think that is what is Guru, that is what I call Guru. So maybe you can work hard for that than being physically around the Master.

If your Prarabdha is to be physically around the Master, suddenly you will see you will click with somebody. Somebody, with somebody you will click. You won’t even have to think about it.

People ask Me, “Am I your master?”

I tell them, “As long as this question is there, forget about Me”.

The moment is if I am your master, that question will just disappear and you know you have seen and the click happens. So that... till the click happens don’t bother, if the click does not happen also don’t bother. Just go towards that psychological revolution.

If needed you will have the click when it needed with whomever it needed, if not you will become, you will achieve the truth as it is. There is no need to bother.

And this question “Happiness”. I can give honest answer and I can… can… can give honest answer or you need... again socially polite? No. You need a actual honest answer. There is no such thing as happiness, that’s the honest answer.

Maybe when there is a gap between suffering, you call that as happiness. If you are beaten less number of times by the society and the surroundings, you call that as happiness. It is just a comparative drama.

There is only two thing in the planet earth, one is suffering, another one is bliss.

Understand bliss. Bliss has a positive existence like a light. Suffering has a negative existence as a darkness. Darkness has no positive existence.

Understand, lightlessness is darkness so bliss-lessness is suffering. So bliss has positive existence, suffering has negative existence means it does not exist. When there is no bliss, suffering.

The joy or happiness is a comparative reality. For something can be happy, for something can lead you to happiness, but the same thing can lead the other person into suffering. So, happiness is just a comparative reality, the comparative drama. It’s only a comparative reality, it is not an existential reality.

Please understand, happiness is not existential reality. So according to My experience there is no such thing as happiness. Either you have suffering or you have bliss, when you have less suffering you just give little courage to yourself, you need to justify your existence you see. You need to justify yourself that still why you are not committing suicide. So, that is the reason you just tell yourself or console yourself, “I have happiness”; that is, you see… see all the moments of happiness, just enq… enquire them.

I have seen these guys, these people, they will go for some vacation, picnic; they will take big, big pictures. They will not enjoy at that moment, the thing, nature in front of them. They will take pictures and come back to the home.

After two years, “See, in those days when we went for honeymoon… In the picnic, see how happy we were”.

These guys forget that they have only shouted, “Cheese” and they posed for hap... posed for... posed with smile for that photograph. See when the photograph itself was taken, this guy shouted, “Cheese” and they all smile, “Heee” and the photograph was taken. After two years they forget it was posed to smile.

When they were in that space, exactly in that spot, that... what they think the joy was… was not there. See after two years when they look back, what fantasy they have?

“Oh, two years ago when we went there, it was such a great joy!”

But when they were there actually that experience itself was not there. So the photograph was posed.

Just look your life, anything you claim as happiness, you think as happiness is only the fantasy or the memory, which is little better than the present. When you can't tolerate the present, you just attribute little joy to the past and hope that same past can be repeated in the future and pull your life, drag your life, that’s all is the definition for happiness.

If I have to say in one sentence, it is just nothing but trying to reproduce the hope about the past into the future, into the future.

Please understand neither the hope which you car… which you have... about the… or experience of the past nor the hope you can reproduce in the future is going to be reality. Drop that and drop this. Drop your idea of happiness about... idea of happiness in the past and drop the hope to reproduce that same thing in the future. Suddenly you will find bliss in your being.

Your idea you had happiness in the past, your idea you can have that same happiness in the future, both which is not there but which gives you the idea as if it is there, is what I call Maya. It was not there, but you have an idea it was there. It is never going to be reproduced but you have a hope it can be reproduced. This is what I call Maya.

If you can relax from both, suddenly you will see the reality itself is such an ecstasy. The Prana going inside your body and making you alive and coming out of your body is existence, that is a great joy, a Leela. You are the part of cosmic Leela. You are the part of cosmic play.

Suddenly you will see, when you remember your part of the cosmic play, you feel that you are blessed. You are needed, you are here out of a reason or necessity, you are not an accident. You will feel your life is a needed and it is a fulfillment and it is a great ecstasy.

So let you all just understand and remember these few things.... Maybe I can say few words, essence of whatever I expressed.

See, live with an intense excitement and joy whatever may be happening around you; that intense joy and excitement will make your body deliver its maximum, will make your mind deliver its maximum, will make the whole cosmos to deliver its maximum to you.

So, live with that intense joy and excitement so that your body can deliver, your mind can deliver and the whole cosmos can deliver, the optimum, ultimate to your very being.

Let you all achieve and radiate the eternal bliss.

Nithyananda.

Thank you.