“Very rarely I conduct these public programs with this intense energy…”

Very rarely I conduct these public programs with this intense energy experience... I somehow always manage. But actually, only in last few, maybe these one and half two years only My calendar has become like this, there’s no single day gap. Whole day I am doing some program and whole night I am travelling. So earlier, body used to have few days, some break here and there, and it’ll balance and settle down. Only last, maybe year or year and half, this constant program load. Of course what to do? From all over the world people want!

Just sit with the deep vidarka. So, as I said, the great news is, I can say, it is almost equal to, you have 2-3 Nithyanandas sitting inside now and working. The usual Nithyananda, usual program, 2-3 Nithyanandas sitting and working. You will see it, you will see it... I’ll surely make it, you also make it... I’ll surely make it. You also make it... When I say you make it, I mean, sit with a deep ‘vidarka’. Go into the whole thing. Integrate your body and mind. Tell yourself very strongly, “I am going to work on this whole program intensely and I will experience the truth”. Tell this very strongly to yourself, “I will experience the truth”.

The conscious decision has the tremendous capacity to open your ‘vidarka’ - the feeling connection. So, you don’t know the power of your conscious decision. The conscious decision can really open your ‘vidarka’ and you will be able to make it. You will be able to make it. When I can make it, why not you? So, decide to make it. Actually, late, yesterday late, very late night only I came. There’s no tiredness, actually. It’s like a big effort to utter words. If you guys can just sit, just by sitting I’ll finish the whole job. These next four days I will not talk single word and I’ll sit. And you’ll have, you’ll have the equal of, equal to ten NSP job inside done in you. But unfortunately, we can’t sit, just. You’ll start talking inside you. So that is the reason I have to talk and make you go through these experiences and technical knowledge and technique.

If you have a deep ‘vidarka’ and just sit, whole next four days I can be sitting here, radiating initiation. Whole four day initiation, the energy process. But, normal human beings, of course, your mind and body is not trained for it. We’ll train it. We’ll prepare... But one nice thing I feel, I am feeling so intimate with the whole group. Because, this NSP is not just a business decision. It’s My personal decision, My personal commitment to the Sangh - mission which I took. And commitment to the work, job I took. Actually, I have already decided to loosen My calendar to manage this kind of balancing, to balance all these things.

So, let’s enter into the conscious decision of entering the whole program intensely. Please sit straight. Close your eyes. Tell yourself, very strongly, you’ll put your whole body and mind into the program and experience the truth. Please close your eyes and just sit. Tell yourself very strongly, you’ll experience the truth, very deeply and intensely.

You can open your eyes. Let Me introduce this technology. Please understand. So, you created formula to reproduce that same understanding on others, on everybody. So, a person who creates formula to reproduce the experiences of the outer world is a scientist. A person who creates formula to reproduce the experiences of the inner world, is a Mystic. Scientists create sutras, Mystics create shastras. Mystic is a person who creates a formula to reproduce the same experiences in others, same deep, pure, strong experiences in others.

How this technology, sometime I feel, today I really feel that I am not a regular person. But one nice thing. You may not have too much of technical knowledge from this NSP, but I can guarantee that you will have a strong experience, which is important, for which these programs are organized. Programs are organized to give you the experience, not for technical knowledge.

Let Me explain how this technology happened in Me. I was wandering, young age, I was travelling many parts of the country. Different times, sometimes with sadhus, sometimes with Myself, sometimes with some of My teachers. Once, I was wandering near Varanasi, there’s a place, Kazipur. There was a sadhu in hospital, in ICU. of course, don’t imagine the Bangalore hospital ICUs and all. That small city hospital’s ICU, small town’s hospital ICU... I was staying there to take care of that sadhu. Sadhu was in deathbed. So, I just thought I’ll help him, take care of him. That.

Usually, in North Bharat, the sadhus are taken care by the young sadhus. So, I was staying there to take care of him. At that time, I saw one patient, next bed to that sadhu’s bed, was dying. It was very strong experience. The doctors were trying to help, but could not. I saw that - how the soul was leaving the body. At that time, I was able to see whatever was happening, but I was not able to help. Means, I have not realized My Avataric Mission, means, the intense samadhi. You see, when samadhi happens in you first, as an enlightenment, you can save you, but you can’t take care of others. The energy will not radiate through your muscle-memory, it’ll not be that strong. Only when the body starts staying in that samadhi continuously, when it radiates through muscle memory, it can help others, it can support others.

So, during that period, I was able to see, but I was not able to help. I saw, it was such a strong experience, like a, how that soul was leaving the body. First, the tremendous pain - how that soul went through the tremendous pain. It’s almost like a peeling of the skin. And next, that individual soul who was dying, not the Sadhu, the sadhu was not dying, this guy, one patient. That individual soul was kicked left and right, this way and that way through his desires and his guilt. Please understand, his desires and his guilt have started kicking that soul and it’s almost like the desires are standing thirty feet tall and the soul was only two feet tall. And this guy is being kicked like a football by all the desires and the guilt and the sufferings. It was such a strong push and pull... Almost, that soul was going through hell. I understood, there is no separate space as hell. It is only the experience which happens during the passing, leaving the body is hell. It was such a hell that soul was going through.

Then I saw all the pains. All the pains are awakened. It’s like a, see when you fall into sleep, how all your desires come up without logic and come up as a dream and torture you. All your desires and fears are awakened. There is nobody to control. Nobody to tell which is right or wrong, or which is truth or lie. That is why, you will be sitting with your son, but you will be afraid of your exams - college exams. You can see in your dreams - means there is no logic. The logic is not alive. It is just happening in its own way. Something is coming up, something is going. Something is up, something is down. Same way, I saw his logic was out. So all his desires, all his guilt, all his fears, all his sufferings have come up.

And it took continuous intense few hours of travelling for that soul - for that soul to reach the final stage of death - means leaving the body. Then it became such a strong suffering. The soul was not able to be alive without taking another one body - without taking another one body. So it just ran, jumped and took another one body and ran away, escaped. It just jumped and took another one body and escaped... Please understand it is - for you it’s a story, for Me it was such a strong experience - it was such a strong experience. Anyhow, it’s almost like seeing an accident directly, very deeply. Doesn’t feel like eating or sleeping for a few days. I was just sitting, sitting, sitting and contemplating. It became like a pain on Me. Of course, because I have My own spiritual experience, it did not affect Me. But I was not able to help, so it became like a deep sympathy wound in Me.

Anyhow, this Sadhu whom I was taking care of, he became alright, he became alright. I have seen - somehow mystically, I am still not able to understand one truth - if there are - if somebody dies in your neighbor’s house or somewhere, your grandparents were sick, they became alright. And still it is happening and I am not able to connect. You will see, one patient dies, suddenly all the people around will become alright. They will all get well and come out - this guy came out. I was surprised.

Anyhow, this guy came out and it went on. I started continuing My travel. After some time, maybe after a few months or an year, I Myself had some of the strong experiences in Me means realizing My Avataric Mission. Means, the ability to transmit this experience started happening through My bio-memory. I am just describing things as happened in you, as happened in you. So the body was able to transmit, reproduce the experience and radiate energy.