“We will work on the second layer now.”

We will work on the second layer now. As I was describing yesterday I Am trying to take you into the…… all the deep experiences step by step. Working on death is the first layer - physical layer, working on all your bio memory, working on very physical layer. First we start working on fear of death. Fears and worries related to death. That's the first layer - physical layer. The second, now we will work is, allow all your desires and thoughts to come up illogically, irrationally. You see, do not judge whether it is a right desire or wrong desire. The moment you start judging your mind will stop telling you the truth. It's like a ... the moment you start controlling your kids they will just stop telling you what they're doing. That's all. It's not that they're going to stop what they're doing. They will only stop telling you what they're doing. You will just teach them how to hide. That's all, nothing else. So we will open your second layer. Second layer is the prana sarira. As I was describing the prana sarira is the place where you store all your desire engrams. All your desire and engrams are stored in the prana sarira.

Inhaling, holding, spreading, exhaling, cleaning; these are the five activities of the prana, pancha prana. In this all your desire engrams get stored. That is why when your desires change the prana activity will change. If you're caught in the lust suddenly you will see your breathing is totally different. You have a different breathing pattern. Every desire has a different breathing pattern. Different breathing system. So, if you work on breathing you can open all the desire engrams. All the desire engrams can open up. It can be made available to you. If you remember I was describing the first death I told you that person fell into the coma. The moment he fell into the coma all his desire woke up, become alive, started harassing him. You can see this happening even in your dream state. The moment your logic stop functioning all your desires will be awakened, alive and it will start moving your consciousness as it wants.

Now we are going to consciously enter into the same level energy field or the same space where your logic will not be standing and judging. Your logic will not be standing and verifying. But all your desires will be alive, activated. I Am trying to help you pass through the stage of prana sarira now itself, consciously, which you will go through any way when you are leaving the body. So, we will be doing two step: one reducing the power of your acquired desires, second increasing the frequency of your consciousness. As I said yesterday, raising your height to thirty feet and reducing the height of the desire to three, four feet. See you have two layer desire in you.

One Prarabdha: The desire which you brought with you. Second Agamya: The desire which you acquired here after landing.

See desire itself is not wrong. Because your life source is desire. Desire is your fuel. Without desire you can't even get up from your bed. Early morning you can see even if you are out of sleep, unless you have a strong desire you will not jump out of the bed. You will not feel your whole body. Either you should have a desire to do something or you should have the fear that if you don't do, you will miss something. Indirectly that is also a desire.

Only desire can get you out of your bed. So, desire is your life force. Desire itself is nothing wrong. Nothing is wrong with your desire itself. But the problem is the agamya - the accumulated desire. Very beautifully Mahavira says, “When you land in the world God sends everything you need including the amount of food, whatever you need to enjoy in the world. Everything is sent. He doesn't deprive you. But we all feel we don't have enough. Why? The problem is when you land in the world you have certain ideas. You see, this many years I want to live. This much I want to enjoy. For this much only I can take the responsibility. More than this I cannot handle with this clarity you land. All the things needed for you is sent. Unfortunately after landing you forget your prarabdha what for you landed and you see everything else everybody else and start accumulating their desires also. It’s like a …. you go to the main market with ten thousand rupee to buy your clothes. Suddenly one of your friends sees you there and takes you for jewellery shop and you blow away the money in the jewellery. Now for clothes you don't have money. And you want to... then immediately go for credit card, credit card or bargaining whatever or borrowing the money. Sameway when you land in the body what for you land you have enough for that. For your prarabdha you have enough. Unfortunately after that you start accumulating more desires. The desires which are accumulated are agamya. Accumulated desires naturally leads to the feeling of poverty.

If you know this is not there, that is not there, life is not enough, time is not enough, money is not enough, things are not enough. Not enough happens to you when you accumulate agamya; when you accumulate agamya. Agamya is the main reason, accumulated desires are the main reason for feeling poverty - for feeling not enough. Now the big question is how to find out, “What I am living or doing is agamya or prarabdha?” See, the innate desire the desires which you brought prarabdha while they are there in you, they will give you inspiration. When you fulfill them they will give you deep fulfillment. You lived your life. Agamya, accumulated desire while they are there they will give you a deep irritation. When you fulfill them, complete them again the big problem is you will suddenly feel empty. See the quality with your…. the desires which you brought before fulfilling it will be very inspiring. The moment you remember you will be….it will be inspiring. After fulfilling it will give you deep satisfaction. You lived your life. But that accumulated desire before fulfilling it will be having, it will giving you deep irritation.

See, many time you hate that, what you want that. You hate him but you need him. Sometimes you hate something it means, it creates deep irritation. It's not there but you want it. Even though it creates irritation, you work for it. But once you achieve suddenly you feel empty, “Oh God, just for this I work so much. Just for this I wasted my whole life. Just for this I have spend my life.” So, even before acquiring very beautifully Ramana Maharishi says about this agamya, “Before acquiring the desire even the mustard seed will look like a mountain. After acquiring even a mountain will look like a mustard seed.” That is agamya - accumulated desire. Now we need to work on prarabdha and agamya. The desires which we brought and the desires which we accumulated. One important thing when you see when you shake a tree all the dead leaves, old leaves will fall and the strong leaves will stay with it. All the fallen dead leaves will become manure for the tree for its further growth. Sameway when you shake your prana sarira where are all these desire engrams are hanging your prarabdha will stay with it. The agamya will drop by itself. And the dropped agamya, dropped accumulated desire will become manure for your prarabdha to be fulfilled.

So, you will …..the tremendous energy which is getting wasted in the accumulated desires. Please understand. With accumulated desires even if you remember you will have shoulder pain. You can see in your life if you just go and sit morning in your office you don't need to do any work. Just sit in your office morning, one hour think about all these things. You will have a shoulder pain. You're tired already. And you don't want to take any more decisions, you don't want to do any more things. If you work on your desires suddenly you will see energy is getting wasted with unnecessary directions. The agamya those things will drop. I always tell people to don't renounce what you have, renounce what you don't have. See there are thousands of things you don't have but you are living with it thorough fear or worry or fantasy or your ideas. So, renounce what you don't have, that's enough. I always insist and looking into the agamya and prarabdha. This will clear 90% of your confusion save more than 80% of your energy. Because 80% of your energy goes either in unwanted or confused direction not in a proper way, not in a straightforward way. You don't even know how the energy is flowing because of all this accumulated desires you are so deluded. You do not know what you really want. Please understand. When we go into the experience you will understand you yourself will be able to very clearly see which is your prarabdha and which is your agamya in this one session you will be able to see very clearly.

Now let's start the process. I will guide you step by step. We will go through some tri-level different process. First thing: you would have been given two notebooks. One with My photo. That is for your notes. That is for you to take it to the home. Another one just papers, pinned. That is the samskara notebook. Keep it ready and just sit. First listen to Me. Please listen. Later on you can do, now sit with closed eyes. See whatever you have inside you as desires whether it is already fulfilled or unfulfilled. Whatever you know as desires from the young age whatever you accumulated your childhood fantasies or youth fantasies or the old age fantasies. Whatever you accumulated sit and take accounts of everything means pen down vividly.

Please understand. Don't show it to anybody first thing. Second thing don't look at other desires and write. You already accumulated agamya from others desires only. At least when you write, look into you and write. But people are very happy looking through the corner of their eyes. What is she writing? Now at least look within yourself two thing do not judge. if you judge your mind won't reveal itself to you first thing. Second thing pen down as vividly as possible. You need to know only when you record you will know. Third thing, write in the same language you think. If you think Telugu and English mix or Hindi and English mix the same way, write. Don't edit. Because many of the inner truths will be revealed to you when you write as it is. Please do not change the language, change the sentence formation, change the grammar, write as you feel. Usually your desires will be these four classifications: one sense and enjoyment. Seeing, taste, smell, sound, sex, five sense enjoyment. That's the first layer. Second: name and fame, rewards, recognition. The third: accumulating more than what you need just for the sake of accumulation. Like a .. let me have one house in Kodaikanal. Let me have one house in Visakhapatnam beach. Like this just.. just for the sake of accumulation. Accumulating but you will not be enjoying. You will not be using it. It is there legally, it is yours. That kind of accumulation.

Then fourth: desires related to spiritual desires. Understand. Sometime people will not have spiritual experience. Because of their intense stressful greedy, desire for spiritual experience. I have seen their very greed will be so strong, so disrespectful they will not allow their experience to happen in them. They will not allow the experience to happen in them. So, even in that field, wait, have deep patience. See for spiritual experience not only passion, you need patience also. You need patience also. Passions and patience when both of them are together in you, you will have the experience. So, write even if you have desires for spiritual experiences. Because people have all weird ideas. Yesterday somebody asked Me in the energy darshan, “Can you prove I will ask something can you predict that, tell me and prove that you are an incarnation or Enlightened.” I said. “I am not interested in proving.” Actually if I tried to look inside I will see all the dirt which you have inside. Which one you want Me to tell? So, you yourself tell I can support. Otherwise, relax. I Am not interested in proving anything. Anyhow, sometimes we have our own ideas. I don't know whether he's here today. Okay. Anyhow, sometime we have our own ideas so even that spiritually if you have too much of desires, too much greed or your own ideas you will miss it. You will miss it.