Walk out of Disease

Your self-doubt, self-hatred, self-denial-SDHD I call it. self-doubt, self-hatred, self-denial. Let Me explain what is self-doubt, what is self-hatred, what is self-denial. For example, you want to make health as your reality. You want to ask, ‘Swamiji, please heal me. I want health as my reality.’ Immediately one part of you will say, ‘Will I become healthy?’ That is self-doubt. Constantly there is one part of you-inner critic. You can get rid even of your spouse for few hours but not this inner critic. Actually your spouse is the extension of your inner critic. And most of the time if you see the voice and accent of your inner critic, it will be your spouse’s language... How many of you experientially understand what I am saying, raise your hand. Relax! It’s true. Others who have not raised the hand have come with their wives to the Program, that’s why.(laughs)

‘Will I become healthy?’ That is self-doubt. ‘I think I have done too many wrong things. One, maybe I have done some karma or I never maintained my health. I ate anything available which flies, walks, runs, swims. I have done so much karma. I don’t think… I think I am not qualified for health.’ These kind of the thoughts only self-hatred. And finally, ‘I cannot become healthy.’ That is what is self-denial.

Please understand, I tell you. I have seen people walking out of cancers the moment they walk out of their SDHD- self-doubt, hatred, denial. Just like ADHD, SDHD. But SDHD is the worst problem. When you walk out of your SDHD, you can walk out of even cancers. Any disease which is psychosomatical means, which comes from your consciousness to your body can be straight away healed the moment you walk out of SDHD. There are some disease which comes from outside like accident, bone fracture. Even in those disease, the healing rate, healing quality can be drastically increased when you walk out of SDHD.

If the cause of your disease is your consciousness, mind, inner space, just walking out of SDHD, you will walk out of that disease. Most of the cancers are nothing but your strong decision to commit suicide during the vulnerable, powerless moments of your life. Whenever you feel strongly powerless, you hate life. Do not program yourself by saying, ‘Better let me die. I should die.’ Never ever utter those words. Never ever program yourself with those words. When you are in a deep sadness or the high joy, peak joy and deep sadness- both extremes, your whole being opens up to you. Any word you utter at those moments, it will become a programming inside you, in your bio memory. Do not utter words like, ‘Better let me die. I should not be alive. Why this life?’ Don’t utter these words, because those words gets programmed in your bio memory and they are the root cause of cancer. Not just cancer, many of the terminal illnesses.

Your SDHD kills the possibility of the thought manifesting into reality. Understand, all of you at some one point or other experienced a thought manifesting into reality in your life. Ten years you have not seen some friend or a relative. Suddenly from morning when the moment you woke up, you are thinking about that person and you want to see the person. In ten minutes, he is there outside your door. When you open the door you see, you are shocked! Ten years I have not remembered about you. I have not seen you. From today morning I was thinking about you. You are here! Same way, phone rings. Before you even pick up, you remember some strange person, some friend, somebody whom you have seen. You don’t even remember in your regular life. You remember that person’s name. You open the phone and he is talking from the other side! How many of you had this kind of experiences, raise your hand.

Everyone of you at some point in your life experience power of thought. You brush it aside calling it coincidence. If it happens in one person’s life once, you can call it coincidence. If it happens in so many people’s life, so many time, can you call it as coincidence? How can you call it as coincidence? Many of you don’t even want to believe your thoughts have power because all the time you are in the negativity. You know that. So you are afraid to believe your thoughts have power because you are not able to control many of your negative thoughts. Listen, how many of you really don’t want to believe your thoughts have power because you can’t control your negative thoughts, raise your hand. True! Many time you don’t want to believe. You don’t even want to think your thoughts have power because, too many negative thoughts.

I have a story. A couple came upon a wishing well. The husband leaned over and made a wish and threw a penny, threw a penny. The wife made a wish too but she leaned over too much, fell into the well and drowned. The husband was stunned for a moment but then he smiled and said, ‘It really works.’ Too many negative thoughts! Listen, whether you want or not, accept or not, your thoughts has a power to become reality. Whenever they are not killed by the SDHD, they manifest as reality. Your negative thoughts, many negative thoughts don’t become reality because of your SDHD even towards negative thoughts. Whether it is positive or negative, if you don’t kill that thought by through SDHD, it will become reality.

Now, a thought you want to manifest into reality and identifying all the self-doubt, self-hatred, self-denial around that thought… Please understand, many time you think you want wealth, but you are always afraid of handling the responsibility which comes with wealth. ‘I think it will be great if somebody gives hundred million dollar to me!’ But alongwith hundred million dollar, huge responsibility comes. Please understand, you don’t want to take the responsibility but you want wealth or you carry a deep hatred towards the lifestyle and attitude of wealthy people. Please listen. I am not saying you should praise the lifestyle and attitude of wealthy people, but as long as you carry a deep down hatred towards the attitude and lifestyle of the wealthy people, you will never accumulate wealth. Even when you start making wealth, you will collapse, fail and again you have to start from the scratch. Because anything you carry deep down as a hatred, you will not allow yourself to reach there.

Listen, if somebody with wealth misbehaved with you, disrespected you, abused you, or you imagine he abused you, he disrespected you. Many time the moment your friend or relative gets the wealth, you yourself imagine he is not going to respect you, he is not going to bother about you, he is going to abuse you. You yourself come to the conclusion and you want to prove your conclusion. You try to do something. If he doesn't bother, you come to the conclusion. ‘See, he has become wealthy. That is why he doesn’t care about me!’ Authentically look in and answer. How many of you have done this kind of things in your life, raise your hand. Already coming to the conclusion. If somebody becomes wealthy, they are not going to bother about me! Raise your hand. Let Me see. Great!

Listen, if you have hatred towards the attitude and lifestyle of wealthy people, when you start accumulating wealth, you will always be afraid of you becoming like that. It means every moment you will also be pulled down, bogged down by the self-doubt, self-hatred and self-denial. Running your life with SDHD is like running your car with hand brakes on. With hand brakes on without releasing it, if you drive the car, you may be able to drive. For what distant? Few metres. By then, your brakes will be burnt. With lot of difficulty that also you have to push your car. Same way, with SDHD, if you move your thoughts, your life, even if you achieve something, it will be with so much of difficulty. Whatever you achieve with your SDHD, is achieved by hard work, whatever you achieve without your SDHD, is achieved by smart work. Only stupid people do hard work, understand.

If you are a hard worker, don’t think it is cute. It is just stupidity. Let us be very clear. Please understand. I am not disrespecting you. I am not insensitive to you. I just have to show the reality to you. Don’t think hard work is cute... Smart work is the cutest and smart work if you do for more number of hours, that is great. Let Me define hard work and smart work. When you are working, if you feel more and more bored, tired, powerless, you are doing hard work. While you are working, you are constantly feeling empowered, powerful, joyful, you are doing smart work. Hard work or smart work has nothing to do with the number of hours you work or the way you work. It has something to do with the attitude, context you carry about the work.