Root out your root pattern-Part 1

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Yes we will start the process... Now we are going to find your root pattern. What is root pattern everything I will define. First I am going to lead you guys step by step. First please take the-your notebook which you wrote from the day one. Not your personal class notes but all the homework I gave. Like a life purpose. Second the about authenticity. We have given so many homework. Am I right? Means the intranalising work and then all the patterns of non integrity. Then responsibility, then enriching, whatever your wrote. I just want you guys to spend few minutes and read the whole thing once. Then I will lead you into root pattern session.

When your mother slaps you and drags you, the first thing you will define a about you is I am powerless, helpless. I am dead. I am gone. I can't do anything. That is the definition, first definition you give about you and about your mother and your mother is the life at that time. About life, Oh God! cruel, demonic, devil, violent. That is the definition you give about life. I am giving you one example. Naturally when your mother locks you, you cannot survive by thinking you are a powerless and life is cruel. So you have to show, no. Do you know who am I? Only then you can survive. Then what is the only way. Put up a strong front. You will kick that gate. How many of you have done this?

Listen. The first time you felt threatened, you are in danger at that time, what is the definition you made about you? What is the definition you made about life? What is the way you decide to respond, handle, project? You may not immediately respond, after, little time. How you decided to respond when you recovered. How you decided to respond?

What you defined as you is inner image. What you defined life is life image and others is life image. How you decide to respond is outer image. How many of you are clear about what I am saying? How many of you are already able to think some incident in your life would have happened? Usually root pattern gets developed only below seven. That is why lust is not root pattern. Understand. The great news I have for you is lust can never be root pattern. It is only parasite pattern. It can be completed, because it develops only after seven. But the root pattern develops before seven. Now just few minutes, I will give you. Whoever remembers some incident which you think would have started the root pattern in you.

Listen one more thing. If you don't remember anything before seven, whatever you remember earliest, if you remember something only at the age of fourteen, fifteen, when you feel you have been threatened, your survival was threatened. Whatever incident you remember, pen down that, because from this you can go back, back, back and trace. Earliest incident you remember where you have been completely shaken, powerless, face the survival threat. Pen down that incident and try to find out what how you defined you, others and how you decided to respond. Few minutes, pen down. Then I will guide you next into root pattern.

Write down the earliest incident you remember where you felt powerless. What exactly you felt about life and others at that time. Identify what kind of outer image you created to protect yourself. Relive and find these three statements. The first statement you made about you. The first statement you made about yourself to others. The first statement you made about life and others.

Number one. The first statement you made about yourself is inner image. The first statement you made about yourself to others is outer image. The first statement you made about life and others is life image... Do only this much. The last line we will do later on. Start reading the root incident you wrote now. That we will do later on. First you pen down... How many of you finished writing. Raise your hand. How many of you are still writing?

Please pick up the mirror. Now start reliving the root incident you wrote now. Whatever you wrote, start reliving. Look into that three statements. The definition you made about you. The definition you made about life means others. That your decision you made, how you will respond to others. How you will show yourself to others. Please drill and get the three images out. Start reliving and try to dig out the precise inner image, outer image, other's image...sorry life image. Now only the real process starts. The moment you have your three images only then the process starts.

How many of you understand the whole drama we play? When somebody comes to the house, we know. You fellow you have come here to cheat I know. What all you are going to do I know. But I will give you the coffee. It is like... suddenly one friend came to the house. Husband wants to drive the fellow out. But he doesn't know what to do. He goes to the kitchen. Inside the kitchen he convinces the wife to do a drama and in the kitchen he is shouting. Eh! My friend is come, get the coffee. The wife shouts, there is no sugar. There is no coffee powder. There is no milk. Why are you shouting, coffee, coffee all the time. Nothing is here. Then this fellow acts as if he is beating and she starts crying, everything is happening in the kitchen. The moment the friend in the hall heard the noise in the kitchen, crying, shouting, fighting. He says, it is okay, it is okay, don't fight because of me. I am leaving. He went away.

Then in...without even having the patience this fellow, this host he tells the wife, see, see, see, how nicely I acted and kicked him out. She says no, how nicely I gave an act and sent him out. That fellow who went. He heard the whole thing. He came back and said, see how nicely I acted as if I am going and came back. (laughter) This same drama only is going on in our whole life! How many of you understand? This is exactly the game we are playing, and this pattern. How many of you understand this game this...exactly the games we are playing in our life? It is just these patterns are ruling., ruling, ruling and ruining us.

Whether your first time you became powerless or just today morning you became powerless, these three statements will be same. How many of you discovered that? Even if you have gone powerless today morning, some fight, some situation. If you live it, relive it and pick up this three image statement, it will be same as you created first time before the age of seven. How many of you found you just live such a pseudo, empty life? Raise your hand. What you feel is different and what you show is different and it is like a...before you cheat others, others cheating you, before others cheating you, you cheat...(laughter)

Can we drop all our built ideas and be with the truth for next forty two minutes? How many of you are ready? Shall we try? A simple game. A very powerful, simple game... You will go around and introduce yourself with the truth... Means, what you feel about you. You will say something like Hi...for myself I am a failure, powerless, loser, incapable idiot. But for you I am strong, successful, intelligent, brilliant. But you are a bloody cheater. You are here out to cheat me. You are here to exploit me. Exactly as you wrote, spell it out, real intensity, authenticity. Let us get what is. Then we will see what should be. Understand? You may think Oh God! What will happen now? And please understand. Let's...In Hindu tradition, beautifully there is a one verse. The context for seeking is that one verse which says Athatho Brahma jignyasa.

Let us enquire into that truth. What comes, comes. But you need guts. So let us be with the truth for next forty two minutes. What comes, comes. Okay? What comes, comes. How many of you have the courage to do that? So we will all do it. How many of you don't have courage to do it? Raise your hand. You are the first one to do it. We will push you to do it. We won't leave you because you don't have courage.

Listen. First thing. First rule of the game. You will not give any lie introduction. Hi, I am an engineer, doctor from Delhi, from Bombay, from... No. You will not give any of that introduction. Now you are not introducing your individuality. You are introducing your original inner identity. What constantly you think as you, you are introducing you. Let us be with the original identity for next forty two minutes, and see what happens inside us. Whatever happens let it happen. You will not give any introduction about you. The usual false introduction. Do you know I am this, this, this. Your name. No. Nobody is interested in your name. Nobody is interested in who you are. I want only you to stand with the truth of what you actually believe about you in your deeper most being. Clear?

First thing. First rule of the game. You will not give any of your so called social introduction. Second: You will not talk anything else. Third: You will only introduce your inner image as you and you will also tell, but for you I am this only. For me I am this, for you I am this. But you are for me is this. And real sincerely, authentically you will tell. When you tell about, for you for me, you are a cheat, you are here to exploit me. You will not tell that smilingly. You are cheat and you are here to exploit me. No. You will really be... because that is what you are feeling. You carry that constant anger, aggression, fear. Don't you feel the frightened child sitting inside? How many of you discovered that frightened child is still sitting inside, alive? Don't we need to grow? Tell me. Then you need vitamin S - Spirituality. Vitamin S is spirituality. This is vitamin S. Let us start.

So now. All of you understood the game. First thing you will go out and introduce yourself. You will start something like this. “Hi, here I am a failure, stupid, loser and but for you I am a powerful, successful, strong, hard working and you for me is nasty, cheap, cheat, fraudster, out there only to exploit me!” After you introduce, just listen to the other person's introduction and carry on. That's all. You are not going to continue any other conversation. Okay? and you can speak in your language and if the other person doesn't understand don't worry. That's great. (Laughter) Because here we are not doing any socialising. How many of you understand? It is not socialising. It’s a spiritual process. You understand? The more and more you repeat, you are going to learn. You are going to understand...How many of you understand it? I know for some people when you guys open up like this it hurts you so much. But the truth is the truth is the truth.

If you really feel hurt, you should not have built your root pattern. I did not build. Root pattern is not a compulsion. It’s a choice. I tell you. One of My teacher tried to build a root pattern for Me. This is a incident really happened When I was I think four or four and a half, My grandfather wanted to put Me in the school, because My ma...My mother and father went and cried to My grandfather. Maternal grandfather. My mother said, I cannot handle this fellow any more. He is too much. My mother used to tell..say that I will, I used to be like a Shiva bhootha means like a three year old child, I just tumbled a one ton weight cot. Teak wood cot. You know in the villages, they will have that huge double cot made in teak wood with a mosquito curtain stand and all that. It seems My uncle was sleeping on the cot. My mother told Me go and call the uncle. I went and try to call him. I called mama, mama. He did not wake up. I just tumbled the cot. He fell on the ground and he thought some ghost has come because that huge cot he cannot imagine that three year old kid just tumbled it. And My father used to say that was the time first, first that VHS deck was introduced in Bharat. It seems My father brought one to the house and instead of putting that VHS cassette, I took that dosa tawa. In Bharat we make dosa out of on a stone slab. I just picked up the stone slab and threw it. It just went and got inserted into it. My father came and said, Oh my son, no no no, we have to put cassette in this. Only then you can see movie. Dosa tawa and all will not show any movie.

Root pattern is not compulsion. It is a option. It is a option, Unfortunately we almost everyone develops it.