“The Joy of letting go : (Bhagavad Gita)”

The Joy of letting go : (Bhagavad Gita)

Sadaa siva samaarambaam Shankaraacharya mathyamaam Asmathaacharya pariyanthaam vanthae guru paramparaam

I welcome all of you with my love and respects. Let’s enter into BG. Today we will see second chapter, second verse -chankya yoga. Kaarpanya-doshopahata svabhaavaha Prchchaami tvaam dharma-sammoodha-chetaah Yat shreya syaat nishchitam broohi tanme Shishyaste’ ham shaadhi maam tvaam prapannam

Here ends Arjuna’s confusion. Let’s see the translation: My inherent nature has been overpowered by the taint of pity. My reasoning faculty has become bewildered by morality. Instruct me who is your disciple who has submitted to you by pronouncing that which may bring auspicious result.

See Depression comes due to 2 reasons.

Inertia: Tamas, which Duryodhana has it, Restlessness: Rajas. The depression which comes out of restlessness, one good thing with it is, when it turns, turns, turns, suddenly it realizes it is self-contradicting.

When the realization it is self-contradicting comes there is a possibility you can be out the depression. First time Arjuna is ready to listen. Please understand unless you are ready to listen, anything said is waste and sometimes dangerous. Unless you are ready to listen anything said is waste and sometimes dangerous. Arjuna has become fully aware of his dilemma. I think the best way to get people out of confusion, I usually use this technique. Let them talk, talk, talk… When they talk, talk, talk… in 10 minutes. They will understand they are contradicting their own logic. They are not hitting outside, they are hitting themselves. They will just know they are contradicting themselves. First sutra of this chapter, The Arjuna was described as a poor being by Sanjaya. He is describing he is crying and all that. But I can say Arjuna did a small but great decision. He saved himself. I can say just this one word “tanme Shishyaste’ ham” I am your disciple. Instruct me who is your disciple. I can say in this one word Arjuna saved himself. IF he has not uttered this word Krishna would not have started getting to the root of the problem. Please understand even the few words Arjuna uttered He was not getting into the root of the problem, He was giving the plain instruction. He was talking very socially. “Hey what will happen to your prestige”? It is defaming you. Krishna is also talking in the language of name and fame, because Arjuna is ready to relate with Krishna only with that line. You are a king, I am a King common,give me your counselling. Now Arjuna starts, No,” I am your disciple”. Please start. Arjuna comes down to Guru-Shisya Bhava from Shaha Bhava. The big problem with Shaha Bhava and Mathura Bhava is you stop listening.

With Shaha Bhava and Mathura Bhava the biggest problem is the ability to listen disappears. Shaha Bhava- the attitude of friend and Mathura Bhava ofcourse, As I said there are enough of references Arjuna was in love with Krishna even physically. Ofcourse see, Arjuna and Krishna are incarnation of same energy. So it’s almost like a same life extended to two bodies. So you can’t even use the regular abusive words, gay relationship, Homosexuality, Even the word love cannot be used, tooo cheap. The Arjuna’s and Krishna’s connection anyword you utter it is a disrespect. It’s almost like a relationship between the original source and his own reflection, his own expression. Nara-Narayana. Other than this word Nara-Narayana any word you use is abusive. Arjuna was deeply in love with Krishna as he was maintaining the attitude of friendliness. The greatness of Incarnation is, He does not disturb your attitude. He lets you evolve. He allows you to evolve. He allows you to grow step by step. Whatever is certain done as long as Arjuna was in Shaha Bhava, friendliness Krishna did not get to the bottom of the problem. He did not address the whole problem from spiritual angle. He was addressing the problem only from social angle. See Arjuna was respecting Krishna only as another King. So Krishna also behaves in a same way. Ok, if you see me as another one king, I will see you, I will also treat you as another friend king. I will share whatever the politically polite advice. But Arjuna saved himself by uttering this one word. I can say this fellow is having the best of both. See to live Shaha Bhava and Mathura Bhava is the best attitude. When you want to listen, when you are in problem you should just switch it to the Guru-Shishya Bhava. The Dhasa Bhava, the attitude of listening, obeying. Unfortunately these two never goes together. I always have problem with people who tries to have the Shaha Bhava and Mathura Bhava. Because they do not listen to the spiritual truths. They do not get into the depths of the enlightenment. They always try to explain, “No, I wanted to be with you, so I came here.” I am not running a fan club here. I am running a enlightenment science Monastry. The place where enlightenment science is taught. If I am running a fan club you no need to become a disciple. Common, you just want to see me and enjoy and live around me.. common. You live here and jump, dance, sing. Nothing much needs to be done. But that is not the purpose of this place. The purpose of this place is to establish the science of enlightenment. Sri Krishna, I can say, I can see and say first time Krishna is smiling. In this whole thing alright I can say very clearly he has dropped the stick which is carrying in the hand to drive the horses. I think now he would have dropped that. Alright this guy is coming to terms. He would have sat up and smiled the further description are very beautifully saying how the whole transmission of enlightenment experience happened. There are some beautiful descriptions I don’t know if it’s a factual or devotional. Whether it’s a factual or devotional its worthy of enjoyment. You can enjoy it. Some of the commentator describe but after this sutra, after this verse when Arjuna uttered that “ I am your disciple” Krishna stretches his hand and lifts Arjuna up. The vedantis described Krishna stretched his left hand and lifted Arjuna holding him by right hand. The Bakthasamprathayas, the devotion samptrathayas Gowdiya Vaisnavites madva and vishistatvaidya Samprathyas they describes Krishna held the chin of Arjuna and raised him. It is just poetic expression, that Arjuna was lifted from depression. So different Samprathayas described the scene. Vedantis feel that touching a chin and raising is too much. It’s too intimate. Vedantis can’t digest it and tolerate it. I had the fortunate of serving the sadhu called Vairagyananda. A great Sadhu. I can say one of my inspiration, my ideal when I had his dharshan , I would have described him in many stories about him. When he died there was no property left. Understand not even a tumbler - glass. The room where he was staying was empty. A real Vairagyananda. He was initiated by Sharadha Devi. So that day he was suppose to do the pooja, the worship of Devi. But the deity which is suppose to come for his pooja is made out of mud and there was the rain and his deity was disturbed. The idol was washed away in the water. He could not get the idol to make it as a deity and worship. Before Praanaprathista it is idol. Once when Praanaprathista is done it is a deity. He asked Sharadha Devi and Sharadha Devi says “hey common I am here living deity-Worship” . And he Worships but he gets a doubt. Heh!!! Because when you do Praanaprathista you see the Mantras describing that “Chinmayam komalangam” means the embodiment of Consciousness. The body made out of Consciousness. And he thinks, heh,..!! This body is made out of bone, flesh and blood. Is she really a Devi?!!! . Then he told me personally. I heard the story from him personally. Then suddenly Sharadha Devi Just held him by chin and lifted him. When she lifted him, he saw the Rajeshwari sitting with four hands and all the sarvaaparana, all the jewels and he was shocked and naturally he thought it is an illusion or delusion. And she hugged him so tightly she hugged him and he also just exploded and hugged her so tightly she was wearing sri chakrakanda. See the Devi was described in the Dhyana Shlokas as wearing 4 sri chakras. 2 in the ears, one on the crown and 1 on the chest. Sri chakrathadanga means 2 in the ears, one on the chest, means sri chakrakanda, and on the crown sri chakra Makuda.. He is seeing Devi in Sharadha Devi’s body. Sharadha Devi is not actually wearing any jewels except the bangles. She did not wear any other jewels after Ramakrishna left the body. May be rarely some function or celebration she would have used. I don’t have any other reference. But atleast this moment when she was hugging him, she was not wearing any jewels. But in dharshan He saw she as a Devi and wearing all the sarvaalangara of Jagadaadri, Rajarajeshwari. She hugged him so much and he also hugged her so tightly, when he took his face off the whole sri chakra print was there on his face clearly the Jewel created a print on his face. When I heard this from him I started ofcourse naturally my eyes become watery. I was actually pressing his feet. He was suffering with cancer at that time. Last day of his life but his face “Wow” beaming!! Radiating!!. I would really love all our disciples, all my disciples to become enlightened and radiating. If somebody misses that even if they live like Vairagyananda swami I will be satisfied. He become enlightened only when he left the body. When he left the body, Sharadha Devi appeared and liberated him. But throughout his life I can say he lived all the qualities of enlightenment. All the subhavas of enlightenment expressed in his bio-memory. The last push he had when he left the body. I still remember after he left the body 2 1/2 days I was in Samadhi. That was one of the strongest Samadhi experience I had. Actually he was in Haridwar Ramakrishna mission Hospital. I served him. He left the body. Great sadhu. I was pressing his feet actually. After he told the story I got up and went and hugged him. He was lying and then sat up to hug me. Then after 2-3 hours I asked him Baba but in Ramakrishna mission publication, in your reminiscence, it only says She blessed you by putting the hand on your head. It does not say she hugged. No no..!! They don’t want to publish she hugged me. Vedantis can’t tolerate the touch. It is too much. It is too intimate. So they changed the story little bit. So all vedantic interpretations they are saying Krishna lifted Arjuna by holding the hand. That much is ok..But lifting him by the chin is too much. I can see very clearly, not only he would have lifted by the chin, Arjuna would have rested his head on the lap of Krishna and cried, wept, wept. I can see very clearly now Krishna feels now Arjuna is ready. The moment he said Yat shreya syaat nishchitam broohi tanme Shishyaste’ ham shaadhi maam tvaam prapannam

First time Arjuna comes to Anjali mudra(Prayer ful mood) He was with different different mudras. Depression mudras, Suppression mudras, Headache mudras. There are thousands of mudras. If you put your hands on ur cheeks it is depression mudras, hands on the head it is suppression mudras!! Audience laughs.. Finally Arjuna comes down to Anjali mudra.Namskara mudra. Shishyaste’ ham let me be your disciple. I tell you just listening just being a disciple is a joy. If I am allowed whole day I can just sit in front of aanandeshwara or the banyan trees and just relax and gaze them. Nothing else. I can spend my whole life. Just being a humble receiver. That is why still morning and evening that is my first activity going and just being a receiver. It’s a joy. If you see me there and here it will be a big confusion. Please understand there are reference Krishna was receiving a padapooja everyday from all Gopikas, other than that I don’t see any references. Even the great masters like Bhagavan Swami Narayan, who had thousands of sadhus even while he was in the body. While he was in the body already 6 temples was built for him and 700 sadhus were initiated. He is the only master who created largest number of sanyasi while he was in the body and he himself not being a sadhu. He himself was wearing all the color dresses lived like a king. But created 700 sadhus while he was in the body. Ofcourse 1000 of sadhu are there. But there were no references even he was physically worshipped everday with the proper mantras by the 1000 of disciples around the world. If you see here one dimension and there completely melting down. But I tell you honestly I enjoy that more. I enjoy the melting down. Being a disciple more I again and again thank Ragupathi yogi and Kuppammal-Vibuthaananda puri both of them see both of them never treated me like a disciple. But I feel I have been given a joy of experience a disciple hood. One of the great experiences which I never had which I was really waiting to have was being a disciple. I thoroughly enjoyed that being a disciple the joy of being a disciple. The celebration you experience when you sit as a disciple. Resting and looking up the lion is 1000 times more than identifying yourself as a sheep or cub, or lion. Identifying yourself as a sheep is one stage. Identifying yourself as lion-cub is one stage. Identifying yourself as a lion itself is one stage.

Identifying yourself as a sheep, completely different from Lion is Dvaita Identifying yourself as a cub not completely different but not completely one is visistaatvaidta Identifying yourself as the Lion itself is Advaita. But I tell you there is a space which is beyond all this three. The most beautiful sweet graceful space when the cub going through the period of transistion from cub to lion that space - being a disciple.When the cub runs everyday to see the Lion to pick up the body language of Lion. I experienced it with such an intensity with Ragupathi Yogi and Kuppammal. Final touch the completion or perfection of that experience with Arunagiri Yogeshwara. Unfortunately all my description and stories and expression and experiences with Arunagiri Yogeshwara will be considered and compiled only as a mystical experience by the history, that’s the reason I was not giving much emphasis on that. But I tell you for me it was physically physical. I can still feel the warmth of Arunagiri Yogeshwara’s body. Feel the smell of Arunagiri Yogeshwara. I can still remember holding his hair and playing. See when the kids get the hair of the mother they will try to make, they will try to round the hair with the finger. I tell you exactly same way I played with Arunagiri Yogeshwara’s hair. Had a long hair. I will just hold his hair and when he was talking I will roll it in my hand, When it becomes too tight then I will leave it and again I will start rolling and he will be talking something. It was physical experience. I know the joy of being a disciple. May be I enjoyed the same space of narnarayana. Arunagiri Yogeshwara was the source and I was the reflection. The feeling connection was such a strong experience. Joy of being a disciple I can say is the last bliss you can experience in your inner journey. After this no more bliss. I tell you even enlightenment is beyond bliss, where the idea bliss,joy,suffering all that disappears. You get into the different spectrum. Ofcourse I am not saying it is boring. Enlightenment is not a boring spectrum but there is no bliss as such of what you perceive. Even when I get into Samadhi, there is no bliss for me inside. But the way the energy expresses you feel I am in bliss. But inside the idea of even bliss does not exist.

It is something that can’t be described. The last bliss the ultimate bliss, the final bliss, you experience is that space of being a disciple. I tell you enjoy now itself. Don’t miss it. You may lose it after enlightenment. I tell you you will really really miss it even after enlightenment. Even this time when I went to Thiruvannamalai I was telling thiruvannamalai ashramites, It will be so nice if I come and stay here for a month. I was actually planning month and go to the temple every morning sit in Arunagiri Yogeshwara’s Samadhi. Near his Samadhi there are steps usually I will sit in that step only. He will sit in the first step and I will sit below him next step. I want all of you to know and I want this to be on record it was not that he was only seen to me. I remember very clearly. Even some of the temple watchman seeing Him along with me. Please understand those watchman never bothered to ask me who is this Sadhu. They never bothered to talk to him also. “Who are you”? they will just make fun telling my grandmother and Kuppammal. This fellow all the time sitting with that samiyar. They asked Watchman who is that samiyar? They just said no, we don’t know some new swamiyar, so many swamis come and go. This fellow got hold of young swamiyar that’s it. I can say 9 months I enjoyed. From summer to January. Summer means March, april. Summer Holdiays in Thiruvannamalai School. From March, april to January. I enjoyed that being a disciple. I tell you just sitting simply and listening, readiness to listen understand it is not a joke. In billions of people in the planet earth blessed are those, who have the readiness to listen in their heart. Please understand I am not even saying you should listen to me and all that. I am not even saying be my disciple.I am just saying, Being a disciple, Being a reciver is a joy. Even if you are disciple of an ordinary stone or a tree its ok. After all we ourself are disciples of tree. See we belong to the samprathaya of the tree worshipper. That is the oldest worship started in vedic tradition. The first worship is tree worship. Then nature.Then only started deity. The science of deity making. Whether you worship a tree, or a stone being a receiver, wow..!! I dono whether I can convince all of you, or inspire all of you about the greatness of being a disciple. It’s a joy. I can say this is the ultimagte romance a person can experience in the life. Just sitting, listening, melting by listening. Atleast 2 moments I felt very seriously in Kailash I may not come back. I wanted to stay there itself. I am not saying about the death. Even Physcially I wanted to stay there itself. Once when my eyes become watery and poured and I am not the giuy who encourage the overflowing emotion of expression. But even in me it was the strong explosion. It’s a joy to be sitting and just melting. Listening some words missing some words, heart melting eyes pouring muscles melting like icecream. The throat choking hair standing on the end. Bodies losing its feeling of being possessed by ego. The joy of receptivity the reception, receiving when it is experienced in your bio-memory ,the body loses the feeling of being possessed. All the time you feel your body is been possessed by ego. Only for those few moments, when you sit in front of the master and melt down Ramakrishna had 2-3 disciples. 1) Girish chandra Babu A famous drama producer and writer. Father of Bengali drama. He was considered as a father of Bengali drama. Still all the drama theatres in Bengal will have Girish ChandraBabu photograph. He will come to see Sri Ramakrishna with some of his friends. Usually he will come late night and he will be tired after all the whole day work and show and sometimes he will be drunk also. When he comes and sits in front of Ramakrishna he will be sleeping, when Ramakrishna starts talking. So after few days he stopped coming. Ramakrishna asks him. He call and ask him, why did you stop coming. He says “no even if I come and sit in front ofyou, when you start talking, I start feeling sleepy and sleeping and I was feeling really shy. I don’t want to sit in front of you and sleep that’s why I stopped coming. Ramakrishna says No, No, No even if you sleep in front of me its ok. Come and sit in my presence and sleep because your Antharathma will listen to me. So many disciples may allow Antharathma to listen to me.. (Audience laughs). Now they have great justification. See Ramakrishna told you!... My Antharathma is listening to you. Sitting and not feeling possessed by the ego, see when your ego possess your body, your whole body will be stressed heavy. But when you really sit and melt the very idea you being possessed by ego dissolves. I can say that is the most ultimate auspicious thing you can enjoy in the planet earth in your whole journey. Because after this only enlightenment. That will not be a joy or bliss and you will be in different spectrum where the enjoyment idea concept disappears. SO understand if you are sitting in front of the master and feeling your muscle are melting like ice cream and you don’t feel being possessed by ego, the tension, usually it will start from the naval till the throat, like a being possessed by the ego. If you are relaxed from that, and your foolish logic is not working, when the tight holding logic relaxes its declaration of power over your body. See the ego constantly declares power of your body. Power over you. When you sit and melt atleast for few hours you melt like ice cream, that declaration of power over your ego disappears. I tell you if you experience that disciple hood the joy of being receptive you are tasting the ultimate. Forget about all your desire, all other desires. Anything else will be lower than this, whether having miss universe as your mistress or largest palace as your house, or having name and fame or the ultimate power in your hands everything will be less than the joy of being a disciple, being a receptive. Where your muscle are not feeling possessed by ego, where even inside your bone marrow you feel sweetness, restful awareness. Peace without feeling heavy. Peace without brooding over on some worries. Just being a disciple just melting the joy of

He says instruct me as I seek refuge in you. Let me give you word by word translation exactly. Kaarpanya-doshopahata svabhaavaha Prchchaami tvaam dharma-sammoodha-chetaah Yat shreya syaat nishchitam broohi tanme Shishyaste’ ham shaadhi maam tvaam prapannam

It opens completely a new door. For Arjuna just because of this one word, that I am your disciple. That one word has opened a new door. If he has not uttered this one word some other door would have opened for him.

Small story :After reading the form filed by an applicant the employer said we do have an opening for you. The applicant asked what is it! what is it!. Please tell me. The interviewer said “it is called ,The door, Go” If Arjuna has not uttered this one word, I am your disciple, only The door would have opened were the sticker Exit is there. But because Arjuna uttered this one word , “I am your disciple”.

Maam tvaam Prapannam- I surrender to you, me who has surrendered to you. New door opens for Arjuna. Let us all surrender to the cosmic presence and sit as a receiver for few minutes. Let the door which opened for Arjuna open for all of us also. Just relax and sit with deep receptive mood as a receiver of the cosmos, be receiver.

I bless you all. Let you all achieve, experience, live express, radiate and share the eternal bliss Nithyananda.

Thank you