“We’ll enter into the meditation technique to internalise these…”

We’ll enter into the meditation technique to internalise these concepts, to awaken the seeking. If I answer all these questions today program will be over, that’s all! After long time I am conducting programs. I think completely all the sessions I Myself conducting after a long time... So it feels new. (reads a question) “Swamiji, if a seeker has tremendous pull towards his goal, as You said, he or she would sacrifice anything beyond imagination to achieve his or her goal but if the obstacles are strong in his way, the seeker gets helpless. How would you pull him out, is it trust whatever I say? Swamiji please explain.”

‘The seeker has tremendous pull towards his goal.’ I think maybe you are meaning some particular situation. If you write little more elaborate on this question, I can answer because ‘if a seeker has a tremendous pull towards his goal, as you said, he or she would sacrifice anything beyond imagination to achieve his or her goal but if there are strong obstacles in his way’. There is no such thing as strong obstacles. It is just a mind playing two game you see. One time mind says this one and that time mind says this one and ...please be seated.

People come and complain to Me, “Swamiji, in all spiritual organisations, so much politics is there. In Your organisation also politics is there. What to do?” I tell them, “To create politics, you don’t need two people. One person is enough. Morning he will be in one mood, evening in another one mood. So politics between himself. See, what he does morning, evening he will be contradicting. So to create politics, you don’t need two person; one person is enough. So anywhere single individual is there, politics will be there.” So already moon politics started. Already in moon, politics has started.

So understand, to do politics, you don’t need two person. It’s the internal politics. So even this question is related to that only. Morning your mind says something is important in your life and evening your mind says something else is important. That is what you call obstacles. There is no such thing as obstacles, there is no such thing as obstacles. It is your priority, that’s all and your emotional strength to fulfill your priority, emotional readiness to live your priority. That’s all is the...otherwise there is no obstacle. Obstacle word is just...there are so many words, meaningless but commonly given meaning because of our hypocrisy.

Same way, the gap between the efficiency and victory, achievement, there is no gap. Because of our hypocrisy we don’t want to believe we don’t have efficiency. We know we have not achieved the result but we don’t want to believe we are responsible for it. So we always say, ‘No, no, no, for my efficiency, for my skills, I should have been somewhere. God has punished me. All these are usual statements we use to hide our inefficiency. So these words like ‘gap between the efficiency and success’ and these ‘obstacles’-all these words are just meaningless.

(Swamiji reads a question from a devotee)

‘How to know what our soul is searching for?’

Please understand, anything you seek, maybe I can give this simple technique. You will really experience and find out what you are seeking for. For example, if you are working now to achieve some desire, why are you working? To achieve something. Not just to get your food and stay. Most of you don’t have to work just for food and stay. You are working, active, still alive for something else. See, when that happens to you, when you achieve that, how your mind is behaving, how your mind is suddenly shifting. Just experience two-three times, what do you want when you experience what happens inside you? Suddenly you will see, you are not seeking what you are seeking. You are not seeking what you think you are seeking.

If you think you are seeking just relationships or money or some comfort or anything, when you achieve that, just see how you feel. Suddenly you will see, just two-three time, be aware when you experience what you wanted. You will understand what you are really seeking for. All of us, whether you want or not, whether you understand or not directly or indirectly, seeking feeling of fulfillment which you lost when you started feeling individual identity. By the age of ten or eleven, usually the person starts feeling an individual identity. From that time only you start feeling that unfulfillment. From that moment, we are seeking only that, back.

‘So many times I see the same disturbing situations come in my life’ means you are carrying the blueprint of that. Straightaway you are responsible, nobody else is responsible. If it is an accident, even for accident, we are only responsible to tell you honestly. Even for accident, we attract accidents. Please understand, I am not insensitive towards your suffering. I am not talking irresponsibly. I am talking responsibly. Even your accidents, you are attracting. You may say, ‘How can it be Swamiji? I was driving in right lane. That fellow came and dashed. How can You say that I am attracting?’

Please understand, there is no effect without cause. There can’t be anything without your silent permission. In the inner space, all of us, you see... whenever after a certain incident, the result is liked by you, you call it as miracle and you call you are responsible. If that aftermath is not as you feel comfortable or connected or happy, then you say it is accident and you are not responsible. That’s the drama we play. It is just hypocrisy. Whether you like or not, understand or not, it is a very deep but truth. Even your accidents we attract. We attract our accidents. I can quote many incidents. Even the one incident I can quote. Many times you would have heard this from Me because I am seeing 70% are regular devotees. Only 30% I am seeing new faces. But at least for the 30%, I will repeat this incident.

This happened in USA. One 4-5 year old child was brought to Me for autism to heal. Child was having autism. So they brought the kid to heal. He was born and brought up in telugu family, settled in USA. They brought the child and they asked Me, “Swamiji, please heal the child. He is suffering. He can’t talk and disturbed child.” I put My hand on the head and started healing. The moment the energy started entering his system, he started speaking straightaway in tamil, not even telugu. They say, “Impossible Swamiji!” The whole family says, “None of us know tamil. Neither our relatives or none of us know tamil and he is very clearly speaking.” First of all, he can’t speak; he is speaking. He is speaking in tamil. He says, in singular he said, not even with respect, ‘Remove your hand!” He told Me in tamil, “Kaiyya edra” in singular. I was shocked. I was really shocked! ‘

First thing I was shocked because he was able to speak. Second thing, he is speaking a very clear, fluent tamil and in singular. I was shocked. I thought maybe he is possessed some spirit or ghost. Even then usually spirits don’t stand in front of an enlightened energy. I was completely taken aback and asked, “Who is speaking? May I know?” That guy said, “Don’t You understand, I am the owner of this body. Don’t think I am ghost or some spirit. I am owner of this body. I am speaking. Remove Your hand. First remove the hand and then we will talk.” He was very strong. I said, “Why? Don’t you understand I am healing you. Why do you want Me to remove the hand?” He says, “I don’t want to be healed. I want to live like this.” I was shocked. I asked, “Why? What made you to take this decision?” He says, “I am tired of living responsible, routine life. Taking birth, going to college, going to office and I am tired of this responsible life. There is nothing. So I decided one life I will enjoy without any responsibility. I want others to take care of me, people to attend me.” I was shocked. No, see really!

After the IT invention, IT civilisation, that is what I have to use, that is the word I have to use. After this IT revolution only, the autistic child have become more because people are tired working 24 hours, what will you do? Unnecessarily creating infrastructure without enjoying! No, I am not saying reduce GDP. No, I am saying learn how to live also. You will actually be more productive, more creative and you will be enjoying also. I have seen these countries too much oriented towards working, working, working. Those countries are suffering tremendously with depression and this kind of kids because souls are becoming tired of working. They say two lifetime we worked as a software professional, now let me become autistic child. No really! ‘I don’t want to work anymore.’ These guys have...these kids are taking this kind of decision.

Anyhow, if you understand little deep, mystic truths, you may understand what I am saying but the incident itself is truth. Please understand, the incident I am reporting as it happened without mixing anything, without adding or reducing. I may be giving My commentary, My interpretation but incident itself happened as it is. Let Me finish the incident. Then I said, I asked him, “Alright, you wanted to rest and live a irresponsible life. Okay but what about your parents? They are good people. They are suffering. Why did you take birth to them? They are very good people.” He says, “I took birth to this couple because they are very good people. They will take care of me. Somebody else may put me in some residential school or somewhere else. They may put me in some residential houses, homes to be taken care. I know these people are good people. That’s why took birth in their family.”

Usually whatever you read intellectually, hear as a intellectual truth, sometimes some incident will make that a reality, experience. Some incident suddenly will make the truth as a click in your life. Something will click. You know, ‘O God! What that Swami said or what that book says is true!’ You will experience. Same way, I have read many places. ‘You are authority of your life.’ ‘You make decisions’-all these things I have read. ‘When you take birth, you choose your parents’-all those things I have read in many Upanishads and books. To tell you honestly, I don’t believe whatever I read. I may tell others to believe but I don’t believe. I don’t believe but when this happened, it was such a strong click for Me! I know, now I know experientially. Now whatever I am saying you may, may not believe but My experience, I have seen.

When I removed the hand, again that fellow is dumb. He is not able to speak. Not only he is not speaking tamil, he can’t speak a single word. If I put the hand again on his head and ask any questions, he answers. It is My experience. Shocking, mystical but truth! He is very clear. When he speaks, very clearly he is uttering the words. Only thing, he is uttering in a singular, abusive language because he is very tired, retire...he wants just retirement. Tired, want to retire, irritated, stressed but doesn’t know how to retire eternally, how to retire. So instead of... for example, if I want to leave this space, I can just get up and walk instead trying to commit suicide. Unnecessary! That’s what that child has done. That is what the child has done. If he wants to rest, he can just relax by reducing the engrams, samskaras but he doesn’t know the technique. So he reduces the expression part. He reduces the possibilities of expression like taking birth as a physically or mentally handicapped child.

Please understand, if you are also piling up stress and unable to handle the life in a balanced way, there is every chance you will take this kind of decisions. So don’t wait to meditate, don’t wait to get rid of the stress, don’t wait to get rid of the emotional pains, don’t wait to heal yourself. It is time...no, I am not threatening you, I am not threatening. I am just sharing My experience. Anyhow, this incident taught Me a great truth. Even if it is an accident, we are responsible. Many time when people ask Me, “Swamiji, You say it is our karma, we are responsible but how about kids having cancer? Five-six year old kids having cancer, having diseases, how can they be responsible, what sin they have committed?” Now I know the answer. Now I know the answer. That incident, it was a real, strong click, very strong click! Whether you want or not, understand or not, we are responsible. We attract. Anything in our life, we attract, we are responsible for it.

So as you say, ‘So many times I see the same disturbing situations to come to my life, come in my life, we are responsible.’ Change the blueprint. It may take little time and energy but you have to. It is just like if you become overweight, if you put on weight, you work for six months to reduce and bring it to balance. Same way, you have accumulated too much of samskara, too much of engrams. So work for six months. Take it as a project. That’s all! But the problem is, weight everybody can see. So you feel compelled to reduce. The engrams nobody can see. So you think, ‘I am okay. I am comfortable. It’s okay.’ That is the only problem but take it as a project. That is the only way.