Get Out of Your Insecurity

I welcome you all with my love and respects. Let’s start the questions.

Question: The first question is from Rajendra Kumar S, IA number 39, who is saying: Dear Swamiji, in thirst of knowledge, I used to go through the teaching of various masters. In that process, I stumbled upon the teachings of two masters; Sadhguru (Isha Foundation) and Osho’s talks on Enlightenment where they stated that with Enlightenment one cannot live in the body. How far is this true? As I could not understand the concept, it was difficult for me to accept and I was shaken. However, the power of your inspiration to live Enlightenment was so high that I could not do anything but continue the path shown by you. My inner voice says that only great Avatars can reproduce such highest experiences to common man, safeguarding from the associated extremities in the spiritual path. But at this moment, it is worth dying for this experience and I do not know how to express my gratitude. I feel this only Bhava; I should first become a candle, burn for you and disappear into your eternal light. And that too would not be enough. With love and gratitude, Rajendra Kumar S, IA number 39.

(2:10) Rajendra Kumar, Please understand, your question itself carries the answer. You say, “At this moment I feel it is worth dying for this experience”. That mood prepares your body and mind and protects you from all the extremities associated with Enlightenment. Understand. Understand the question thoroughly. He says he has heard from two people, two masters - the enlightened one cannot live in the body. I do not want to comment about their words - what context they said and how you heard and all that. I don't want to comment on that. But I wanted you to understand one thing.

The moment I created this feeling in you: “for this experience, even death is ok''. It means you have become riped, riped enough to hold that experience in your body. Understand, till you have… see, what is death? What is fear of death? If you are afraid of death, still you have the hope for life. Hanging on to life. So if you are clinging or hanging on to life, how can Enlightenment happen to you? I tell you, the moment you are ready to die, you don't need to die. The moment you are ready to face the death, you are free from death; Enlightenment can stay in your body now without causing the extremities associated to it.

(4:11) You can see very clearly. Again I wanted to refer Devon Ke Dev serial, how the Sati getting matured in the next body and becoming Parvati. I tell you, if you want to see the much more refined, pure form of Parvati, you should see Her in the next Janma - Meenakshi. Just like how the Vishnu’s perfect incarnation is Krishna. He starts as a Matsya, then Varaha, different incarnations. First as a fish, then as a sorry - Kurma, tortoise. Then as a tortoise. From tortoise to Varaha, pig. Then from pig, He moves to the Narasimha. From Narasimha, He moves to Vamana. How the growth is happening in Vishnu’s incarnations. And Krishna is Purnavatara. Same way, for Devi, from Sati, She evolves to Parvati, from Parvati to Meenakshi. I tell you, Meenakshi is Purnavatara of Devi.

In Sati’s time, in that body, parental conditioning was so much, 80% of Daksha and Prasuti… in Parvati's body, parental conditionings have practically disappeared. 80% was pure Parvati, only 20% Mena and Himavan. In Meenakshi’s body, She did not even stay in Kanchanamala’s body. She walked straight out of fire. So the pure consciousness. That is why there was no influence of parents, parental conditioning on Her. She just lived, and She decided the marriage and She informed the parents. That also, father died by that time. Only Kanchanamala, mother was alive. She comes back and informs, “I have decided to get married and Shiva is coming. Please make arrangements''. And she was already a queen. When she fell in love with Shiva, she was queen already.

(6:37) So, you can see the beautiful evolving happening. From Sati to Parvati, Parvati to Meenakshi. See, in Meenakshi’s body, She was already ready. See, in Sati’s body She gets Satori. In Parvati’s body, She gets Enlightenment. In Meenakshi’s body, She’s an incarnation. What makes Sati into Parvati and Parvati to Meenakshi. Understand, non-clinging to life. Non-clinging to life. Stop clinging to life. All hopes are hopelessness. Get more and more comfortable with your insecured imaginations. Please understand, I wanted this to be one of the important understanding for all my disciples and followers. Get more and more comfortable with your... uncomfortable fear fantasies... uncomfortable insecurity thoughts, uncomfortable insecurity imaginations.

(8:07) For example, if you have wealth, suddenly you may think, “Oh, if some thief comes and steals everything, what will I do?” Or there are some other… see, but nowadays the fear of small thieves have disappeared. Fear of big thief, means the government. No, the whole thing collapsing. Economy melting down. What is the economy melting down? The larger thief stealing everybody’s wealth... by wrong policies and corruption. So you have fear, “If the whole thing melts down, what will I do? Where will I be? How will I be? Ahh.” See, everybody constantly has these insecurity imaginations. Especially early morning before you wake up from the bed... either you will have the deep insecurity imaginations or fantasies. This two only wakes you up from the bed early morning. Of course, about fantasies...with fantasies already you are comfortable. But this insecurity imaginations... start getting comfortable with that. Ok, now you are there. That does not mean you are going to become reality. Your ability to get comfortable with insecurity imagination makes your nervous system riped enough to hold the highest experiences.

(9:59) Understand, this is the only way Sati becomes Parvati, Parvati becomes Meenakshi. Your ability to handle… very beautifully in one place, in Shiva Sutras, Mahadeva says, “Living in utter insecurity is Living Enlightenment.” Get comfortable with your insecurity imagination. Only the people whose nerves have become comfortable with the insecurity imaginations have achieved highest things on the planet Earth, whether it is in the outer world or in the inner world. People whose nervous system cannot handle the insecurity imaginations. I tell you, when I declared few days before, a new understanding for our Sangha - you do whatever is your maximum capacity.

(11:15) I tell you, when Buddha gave Sanyas to women, of course, I am not against giving Sanyas to women; I am all for it. But Buddha knows human beings. He says, when he gave Sanyas to women and made them also part of the Sangha, he says, “I reduced the longevity and purity of my Sangha.” Because after him, there will be too much of... men exploiting women and women exploiting men. It is not that only men exploit women. Women also exploit men. In both ways I have seen. Anyhow. It’s like different ways. Not just the Guru-Disciple relationship, in so many ways, this men and women exploiting each other. He knows as long as He is in the body that won’t happen; the moment He leaves the body it is going to happen. He says He reduced the purity and longevity of the Sangha.

(12:31) I tell you, when I said, “Be honest to yourself,” I felt exactly the same. After I leave the body... of course, as long as I am in the body I will be going on inspiring you guys. And you will again and again true to be your honest capability and true to your core; all that will continuously happen as long as I am in the body. After that, this law, this understanding, I know, is going to create people who are lazy, dull, dead, enemies to Enlightenment. I don't know how people are going to handle those beings at that time. When I am in the body, we will handle. Still I do not know how you guys are going to handle. Of course, none of you are going to be in the body. I am going to be living for quite a long time. I am saying the next generation… maybe your third generation only is going to be the last generation I’ll be seeing. Then, next generation, your fourth generation only is going to be my successors.

(14:09) Because, the moment I say, “Be honest to yourself, be true to your capacity.” You don't even know your capacity. You will completely get comfortable with your lifestyle. See, by the word - through the word, ‘productivity’ - I was constantly making you get comfortable with your insecured imaginations. You see, with the word, ‘productivity’, with that scale, with that idea, constantly you are made to live in that; get comfortable with your insecurity imagination of - see, that is the ultimate insecurity. If I lose Master, what will I do? That is the ultimate insecurity. But, only when you get comfortable with those insecurity imaginations, your nerves become strong to hold the highest Kundalini awakening. When you say, “Ok, if at one day I am kicked out it is okay. But now, I am going to imbibe whatever best and maximum I can.” Only with this, coming to terms with the reality, your nervous system becomes so strong and you imbibe completely, maximum whatever you need to imbibe.

(15:41) When that insecurity never becomes part of your life, you are going to be standing in the rain with the raincoat and umbrella. Not even a drop of rain is going to touch you. I am showering like a rain. You stand with umbrella and raincoat which is called security. The secured feeling and the secured thought trend: “No, no, no, no. Swamiji already said, ‘You be honest to your capacity.’” This thought trend is going to be more like a raincoat and umbrella. Now, I only have to inspire you continuously. Anyhow, I am opening up and presenting the whole philosophy in front of you.

(16:37) How this Rajendra Kumar describes, “I feel it is worth dying for this experience.” When this thought trend becomes part of your system, your nervous system gets the strength to experience and hold the highest Kundalini awakening. Then your system becomes alive. I tell you, to prepare you for this level... is the Incarnation's job. That is my job. Nothing else. Rajendra Kumar is beautifully putting it, “I should first become a candle and burn for you and disappear in your eternal light. That too would not be enough.”

I tell you, the moment I brought this attitude in you, my job as a great Incarnation has happened. I have done to you. You are done with me. I am done with you now. Now, simply the Cosmos will enter you, and your system is ready to hold that experience.

(18:09) It is all about nothing but making you comfortable. You see, how comfortable you are with your greed-based fantasies. Same way, you need to be comfortable with your fear-based imaginations. For example, that early morning, sometime when you have that greed-based fantasies, how comfortable you are. You don’t even want to get out of it. But somehow this foolish alarm rings only at that moment. How comfortable your whole nervous system is with that greed-based fantasies. To the same level, your nervous system should be comfortable and joyful, relaxed with your fear-based fantasies, fear-based insecurity thoughts. You say, “Oh, how can it be? You are saying nightmare and sweet dreams should be same?” Yes. Because both is from you. You are the source. Whether it is a sweet dream or nightmare, you are the source. You are the creator.

My whole job is making your nervous system comfortable with your nightmare also the same way your sweet dreams are comfortable. How you are comfortable with your sweet dreams, to that same way, I should make you comfortable with your nightmares. Then my job is done. Then, your body is ready for the highest Kundalini experience. Then I have completed the job of carving a Yogic body and Vedic mind.

(20:09) So Rajendra Kumar, in your question itself, the answer is there. Look into your question. And you are saying, “It was very difficult for me to accept their words, those two masters’ words.” And you were shaken. You were shaken. “However, the power of your inspiration to live Enlightenment was so high that I could not do anything but continue the path shown by you.” To create this depth of inspiration in you all, means the ability to handle, to get comfortable with the insecurity, I myself should have gone through the whole thing in front of your eyes. I should say, in 2012, some of the Asuras tried to invade the Bidadi campus. I went through that. Only then you will stand. You will understand, “Yes, what He says is true. He did not have nervous breakdown. And He stood. His most insecurity imaginations have been a very comfortable flow in Him. He was completely comfortable with the sweet dreams and nightmares, insecurity imaginations, and extraordinary expression of spiritual energy.”

(22:02) See, morning somebody does Padapuja saying, “Oh, embodiment of all Gods and Goddesses.” In next few hours, somebody says, “He is a criminal. And we are going to put him in prison.” And you need a nervous system which is completely comfortable with both, which does not lead to nervous breakdown. Understand, both can lead to nervous breakdown. It is not that only insecurity, even too much of respect. Suddenly, you see, in your house, the people who live around you, suddenly starts respecting you like a God. What will happen to you? You will go crazy. In two days, you will go mad. You will become loosu. You will say, “No, no, no, no, no. I am ordinary. I am ordinary.” Whether fear or greed, disrespect or respect, both can make you crazy. Your nervous system won't be able to handle. And both are happening at a time…

Just today, one side the international, 15 international media has published about our diabetes Kriya. 15. One - five international magazines. And four third-rate journals in Tamil Nadu have published articles putting so many nonsensical allegations on me. Both happening in same way, same time. You’ll become mad.

(24:20) If your nervous system is not strong enough... I tell you, preparing your nervous system strong enough to hold the fantasies of greed and imaginations of insecurity. Early morning, if you are lying and imagining some sweet dreams: “If this person lives with me… ahh… if I am with that person and then this kind of house and car and bungalow, money, how life will be…” Whether you are drooling or shaking, suddenly some dream: tiger is chasing you and a huge python is trying to swallow you, or you lost all the money in your share market, your net worth has melted down. I tell you, the real, your net worth which can never melt down is Inner Awakening. Your any other net worth will melt down. That is why I tell you, have some asset which will not melt down.

(25:54) Your capability... see, it is not that easy, you can hide and cover up your fears and insecurity and live your life. Your stomach will get churned. You will have diarrhea. This time in the prison, that jailor was the head of the jail, he became very friendly with Me. He was a very devoted person. I have never seen a jailor falling at the feet of an accused. The moment I was taken inside the jail, the first thing he looked around, and when there was no media camera, he fell flat at my feet! I was shocked. “Oh God, what is going on?” I blessed him, “Be Blissful.” And he was not even getting up. He said, “Put your hand on my head and bless, Swamiji. Only then I’ll get up.” I blessed him. He says, “I was so happy the moment they said they are bringing you here.” I said, “What do you mean?” (Swamiji laughs). He was telling, “You are my guest. I am going to take care of you. Come on.” Then he told Me, “I read all your books. I have seen your YouTube discourses. I always wanted to come and see you in the Ashram. You came here to grace me.” I said, “Ok, ok. I don't want anymore jailors praying for my Darshan.” And he said, “Please accept my hospitality.” But the guy was really nice. He was really nice. And, at least ten times he fell at my feet in 24 hours. I was only 24 hours with him. Ten times… he will come again and fall at the feet and say, “Swamiji, you should eat.” I said, “No, I am going to fast, but...” He was so honestly, truly, genuinely concerned.

And, I was talking to him very casually... just to know the mind, mindset, how people behave when they come there, how the VIP’s are treated, and how the ordinary prisoners are treated, and all that. He said, “Swamiji, there is no such thing as VIP. The moment anybody comes in, we know, first thing, in half an hour he will go to bathroom ten time. Means the whole nervous system is shaken, the insecurity. I was sitting and talking to him, and then slowly I asked him, “Do you see any insecurity in Me?” He laughed. He said, “What is this, Swamiji? You are making fun of me.”

(29:27) It’s not that easy to hide the insecurity if it is there inside. Understand. Some of the media - they questioned me in the press meet, “Are you trying to hide your insecurity by constantly smiling?” I told them, “Why don’t you try? Why don’t you try? Try to hide your insecurity by constantly smiling. Let me see how much you are successful.” You need a special nervous system, through which the current of insecurity and the current of future possibility - both can flow. I tell you, when you are always in the peak, means the future - this side is also possible, and that side is also possible; only then you are alive. I tell you, somebody may think I am a good guy, somebody may think I am a bad guy; but I can tell you about Me, I am a living guy! I am alive.

(30:58) The extreme good - what can happen... being worshipped by people as the God, while in the body. I have seen that extreme. And the same way, the other extreme: being abused with all the lies and false allegations, constantly being tortured, disrespected. I have seen this extreme. And both ways could not make any pattern in my nervous system. Birds don’t leave footprints in the space. Same way, both does not leave any footprints in my nervous system. Only buffaloes leave strong footprint in the mud. If your innerspace, your nervous system, is more like a mud, only buffaloes walk in that and leave a strong footprint. You can see, in the mud, when the buffaloes leave, footprints are formed and then when it dries in the sun it is frozen… sorry… it’s dried. It becomes permanent. Mud is your weak nervous system. Buffalo is the experiences happening on you. When the sun is exposed to that footprint, it becomes like a solid stone, of drying up. Life’s various other experiences are the sun's exposure to that footprint, so it becomes a permanent pattern in you.

(33:04) But if your innerspace is like a sky, all the experiences of the extremities - either the experience of fear or the experience of greed - flows in you... flies in you like a bird. You can see the buffaloes’ footprint. If you are a mud, you carry only this. If your innerspace is like a air, ether… every experience is like a bird which does not leave any footprint. I tell you, take this up like a Samyama... meditation. Getting comfortable with your extreme fantasies - positive and negative. Please understand, your extreme fantasies - positive. Your extreme fantasies - negative. Both, get comfortable. Yes, if that happens, if that is the way things happen, what can be done? Ok, next. Next. That's it.

(34:48) And I can still remember, the jailer asked me, “Swamiji, you are not suffering. Why are you trying to fast?” I said, “Fasting I am doing just to put it on record about My resistance. That what they are doing is illegal. The international media is watching. And the history is going to record, not only I am arrested, how I responded to the arrest. Not only I was persecuted, how I responded to my persecution. So, I need to put it on record. I need to create the right history. I am not suffering... is part of my spiritual history.” But I did not budge. I recorded my opposition and resistance is going to be the part of my social history.

(35:48) Rajendra Kumar, the moment your nervous system is ready to face any extreme, you will not be affected by any extreme. The moment you are ready to die, you don’t need to die. But as long as you are not ready to die, death is waiting for you. You need to die. The moment you are ready to die, you don’t need to die. Let you all achieve, experience, live, express, radiate, share, and explode in Eternal Bliss. Nithyananda. Thank you. (36:31)