“Next two words - abhiniveshaha, kleshaha”

Next two words - abhiniveshaha, kleshaha

Today I will continue the same 3rd sutra of Sadhana paada which I was speaking in the last discourse. There are imp. 2 words which we need to internalize in today’s session.

Avidya, asmitha, raga, dwesha, abhiniveshaha, kleshaha.

Translations:

Vivek: pain bearning

Prabhavananda: these obstacles are

In the last session I explained the words . we need to understand these 2 words:

abhiniveshaha, kleshaha

abhiniveshaha – clinging to life. Let us understand this word. First thing, what you think as life is not life. What you think as life is just accidental combination of different persons, desire, anger, greed and chaotic emotions happening. Whatever you feel as the best moment in your life, just open it and see. It is nothing but, the illusion created by so many diff ppl’s greed, anger, emotions, chaos together. The other day, I was seeing a laser beam show. With diff beams they create a picture. Same way, just 4-5 diff laser beams concentrated on sky and suddenly a form appears. Even if one inch of one beam moves, that picture disappears. Same way is your life. Just take one moment in your life, take the best moment in ur life. What for are you breathing? Becos you want something in your life to be repeated in same way or diff way. That is why you continue to breathe and exist. There is a hope in a deep secret corner of your heart – there is a hope for what you call the best thing in your life to repeat itself again. What you think as the best moment of your life is nothing but the picture created by diff laser beams in the sky. If you see, that moment or that happening has happened becos of so many laser beams repeated. So many ppl’s fear, greed is the diff laser beams. For eg. Maybe the joy or contentment you had when you had a baby or got married or got some award if you think that is the best moment in my life – maybe that kind of moments will repeat in my life either the same way or in a better version. Scan that moment and you will see it is a projection of so many ppl’s greed or free.why do ppl give gift in your birthday so that you can give for their b’day. It is just an interest free loan! If you are rewarded and have ppl are in front of you – be very clear, they expect you to be there when they get rewarded or they have some other reason for them to be there. Understand, all the followers of a particular political party are those who want to be in his place. Fans are most jealous

And disciples – if they are working for the state of the master, they are the best ppl you can have. But if they work for the status of the master, they are worst ppl you can have.

Pl understand, whoever is part of your best moments are all projecting their fear or greed. With all these laser beams, an illusory larger than life picture is created in the air. And you think it is real and want to cling to that. So many ppl’s diff chaotic projections is beamed and you think that is life and you cling to that life. What an unfortunate life and mental set up. Even if one person’s beam shifts, the picture disappears. Not only do you cling to the picture, you try to control the very source of the laser beams! Even the sources themselves cannot control their own beams becos it is covered by avidya. It is chaos covered by chaos. That is why the clinging to life is the worst suffering happening to human beings. Clinging to life avoids human beings from experiencing life. Buddha calls Nibbana – nirvana, annatta – simple space without any picture is what I call life. But, you cling to a picture beamed by unconscious sources.

There is a story in Mahabharata – There was king named Yayati who was strongly clinging to life – what he thinks as life. He thinks sitting in the court, pol telling problems, he solves them, he solves disputes of ppl (Listening to others problems continuously – two things will happen – one you will get depressed by listening to them, 2nd – unconsciously you believe you are all powerful and can solve any problem) This guy goes on clinging to life. Clinging to life is the worst thing that can happen to you. When shahjahan was arrested and put in prison from where he can see the Taj Mahal. Once in a while Aurangazeb would visit his father. And would see him depressed. I think man’s worst invention to torture another human being is Prison. Even death is tolerable. Anything else is tolerable. But concept of putting another in prison is the worst invention happened in the field of saidism. So shahjahan is dull, depressed, lost all lusture and glow. Aurangazeb felt bad becos he saw his father in the throne. He cud not contain this scene and asked Shahjahan – I know I cannot release you, but I can give you some things. Ask me what you want, whatever will get you out of this depression, tell me I will provide that. He thot his father will ask for some comforts. Shahjahan strangely asked for 50 school kids who will obey him. So they were sent. After a month, Aurangazeb came to prison and saw that his father is up and back! Radiating power and joy. He was shocked – how can this be? How is he back to life, alive, radiating his grace as king? He asked officers incharge of the prison – what is happening here. Sir, everyday morning, he trained the 50 kids to act like his ministers. Everyday each of them will act, come and present problems, 3-4 hours he conducts his court and he is joyful rest of the day. The kids were trained to behave like his ministers and act as if they were in court. And he is relaxed at the end of the day! What shahjahan thinks as life, he started clinging to life. He thinks, when he conducts the court, his mood, the way he feels, that scene, is life for him. That what he thinks as the purpose his consciousness is reflecting in his body. So he clings to that. Even if it is illusory it is okay with him. He wants to cling on and continue with that illusion! Many times, we know that it is illusion. But we forget that Illusion is illusory. Illusion is illusory is the 2nd level of understanding. Only with the 2nd level of understanding will any truth become a complete bio memory in you. The 2nd level of understanding will bring a shift such that it replaces the negativity in you. Any truth in life if it does not become a part of bio memory if the 2nd level of understanding does not happen in you.

For eg: Here, 1st level understanding is – once he is put in bar, getting that everything is impermanent

2nd level of understanding is – how do I get in tune with this impermanence of life.

This is the most dangerous deviation from enlightenment. This is what I call abhiniveshaha. It means, after having the 1st level understanding and not moving towards the 2nd level understanding. It is a crime against your consciousness.

Shahjahan knew that Life is illusion. But he did not develop his being to be with that beautiful truth. All the sadhana is nothing but preparing your inner space just to move from 1st level understanding to 2nd level understanding when 1st level understanding is slapped on you as life. Please understand, many times it is just slapped. Because we do not listen. So life just slaps. My devotee asked me I know you know what was going to happen. I said being established in bliss, you are in a mood of celebration – when happening is received in deep friendliness all happenings are celebrations. But when it is received with resistance, all happenings are accidents.

When shahjahan had 1st level und – life is impermananet. If he was matured and prepared enough, he will just be with that impermanent life. Impermanance is the only permanent thing. Anithya is the only nithya. Change is the only thing which cannot be changed. Death is the only thing which cannot die. Impermanence is the only thing which is permanent.

But unfortunately, shahjahan did not prepare himself for 2nd level und and he fell into depression. All your sadhana should be aiming to relax to the 2nd level truth when life slaps the 1st level truth. This is the real sadhana.

Again and again, even if you are not interested in the 2nd level truth, life is so compassionate – it waits and slaps again, it never relaxes. Nobody is too much for life. This is the greatest assurance that all of us have to be liberated. Till then life constantly slaps 1st level truths. When the beams constantly form the picture and disappear, suddenly you get a glimpse of the emptiness. But you feel secure and gather the beams again. Again life comes as a breeze, shatters the beams and shows you the pure empty space. But again you gather them. Like shahjahan did with the 50 kids. Writing a script and enacting it in a movie is okay. But being with it in real life is a mental disorder and is dangerous. We are all doing this and this is clinging to life!

Not interested, not matured enough, not intelligent enough to get the 2nd level truth,move to the 2nd level truth is abhiniveshaha. When the happening is happening, unable to move to the 2nd level truth and clinging to the same strategy planning is abhiniveshaha. Unfortunately, you do not have the patient or intelligence to re do the strategy planning for the future. Happening will be happening in all fields of your life – economy zone, physical health zone, mental health zone, relationship zones, friends zone, spiritual zone in all fields life is happening and appears larger than life. All challenges are just message from God to change your strategy planning and branding. Unfortunately, when we are not interested to getting into the 2nd level truth you are stuck. If you are mature enough and intelligent enough to get into the 2nd level truth, a simple happening is enough to put you into enlightenement! Zen – nun walking with full pot in full moon night…

It is a very beautiful story. Becos she was so prepared and matured to fall into the 2nd level truth, she did not need a larger than life happening. Just a simple happening was enough to put her into enlightenment! The clinging to life was not there for her. Abhinivesha was not there for her. She was almost ready to pass into the 2nd level und. So simple breaking of the bamboo was enough for her. She did not need a big happening. Prepare your whole life continuously and be ready for life to slap you with the 1st level und. All 1st level understandings are taught to you in the first 7 years of your life – by your mother, teachers or others. The first level truths that you always hear or avoid (life is impermanent,

You will always go for 2nd opinion with the 1st level truth. This is what I call as abhiniveshaha. This is clinging to life. Do not go to 2nd opinion with 1st level truth. There is no 2nd opinion. With this, you only postpone the 2nd level truths in your life.

Why do we cling on to life? This Yayati story – you will have answer to this question. This yayati lived for 100 years as king, ruled and enjoyed all that he thot as enjoyment and lived with it. Whatever he thot as life, he was able to project those beams and maintained all the beams. He had control on the source of all the beams. But when you have control on the beams, it is very poor – you will be bored! Even though he is bored, yayati was not ready to die. Boredom is ultimate imprisonment. Ppl are afraid of prison becos of boredom. Death is ultimate liberation from boredom. Unfortunately when you establish relationships and enuf wounds and scars are created which you cannot even heal, what will you do? You will start shrinking. Death comes and says, relax – I will give you new set of laser beams that you can create and play new. But Yayati was not ready to get into even that. He thot what if Yama takes away my present laser beams and does not give me new or the ones that I like so much? He begs Yama for another 100 years. He bargains his son’s 100 years of life as bargain.Yama thinks ok lets see and give him a chance. One of his sons dies, and his life is given to Yayati. The thickness of unconscioiusnes is so much in Yayati that even boredom cannot bore him. I have seen many ppl who are so unconscious that even when they know that their mental set up and place where they are living will destroy them, ppl still hold on to them. I have seen how ppl miss me. How they miss living near the living master. Many times, simple foolish things. They know and they know that I also know. Just in few months they will be in worst depression – just becos of the thickness of their boredom. They will not be able to get of their bed or move in their life – b ut the depth of their unconsciousness, unawareness is so strong that they choose this boredom. Insecurity with life will not allow you to be around with the master becos master is life. He will constantly be shifting the sources of the laser beams and showing the poornatva, the emptiness, the nirvana to you. Sometimes ppl project a particular laser beam in such a way that it almost looks as open sky becos they have projected the exact same color of the sky! That is the ‘idea’ they have about the master. It is the blue color thin laser they project in the blue sky in the thin air and they mistake it to be emptiness. Atleast if color is diff at some point you will fall in the 2nd level truth. But if you are exactly projecting with the same color, you will feel that it looks exactly life empty sky and you will feel safe as you are in control of that projection. So when the original sky appears moving your projected sky, you say – no, no, no – shivering, frightened, disturbed and do not enter into the 2nd level trught. This is the worst thing that can happen. Missing the real master becos of your projection of the master becos of your projected master is the worst missing. The thickness of the unconscious is so strong, that you feel security is more imp. Than the reality. Like Yayati chose 100 more yrs of same boring life than liberation. Anyhow, yama granted and after 100 years he comes bk. Again Yayati bargains for another 100 years. When you have same routine, when you have deep unconscious and insecurity, your time will be swallowed without your knowledge. If you want to live life fully, your life should be packed with insecurity. Anything which you think as life, just shake. Just jump and dance like kala bhairava and move all the laser beams. Just shake them up. Once in a while get into the scene and shake. Make chaos. Then sit and handle the chaos. You will then have entertainment and intense excitement in life. Ultimate happening is juice of excitement continuously happening in your ananda gandha area. Your samaana – it means the prana energy that goes into your body and spreads all over the body. Unfort your samaana spreads over 20% of your body. More and more your life becomes secure, same life, same routine then samaana is not required. I have scanned millions of ppl’s consciousness – the worst consciousness – is the government employees – everything is so secured for them – their salary, their routine – at employee level wherethey do not need to make any strategy planning – practically 10 to 12% is the samaana energy happening in them. Means the remaining 90% in them does not need to be alive. Almost all the ppl who are sitting and living with the same set of laser beams and creating the same illusion are stuck like gov employees even if you have crores of wealth. Once in a while, close your eyes and wildly shake your illusions. Before life happens to you, you happen to it. Threatening life is renunciation! Whenever life happens to you, how it threatens you, you threaten it – when you say no to life. Renounce everything – whatever is the best illusion that you think as life, just renounce – life will be shocked by you. Person who can shock the very life is ‘mayateeta’ whenever that sincerity happens in you when shake all the illusions in your life, you are possessed by ‘shraddha vivechaha’ that is the sweetest moment that happens in your life. That is the honey moon in your life.

Renunciation is threatening life itself. Frightening the very fear itself. Sending a legal notice to cosmos. Cosmos gets frightened. That is why the Upanishads describe that a Paramahamsa is worshipped by evn the Gods. That is why when a tapasvi does intense tapas, along with demons, even gods are shaken becos he is saying a big NO to whole life. So ‘no happening’ can be a happening for him. When a happening happens to you, you may fall into 2nd level truth. But if you are over prepared, you will initiate the happening. Renunciation is you initiating war with maya. That is why renunciation is so powerful and strong that maya is shaken. That is why in vedic tradition, a renunciant a paramahamsa is respected more than Gods. They appear larger than life to life itself. So coming back to Yayati – he again says I want 100 more yrs. If you have such insecurity how can you ever be full of life? Yama is little compassionate and thinks alright lets see to what extent he can go. HE give another 100 yrs. Again, after 100 yrs, yama is bk and Yayati says 100 more yrs. Yama has become too compassionate and does not grant it now! He says, the more and more you stay in the frame of illusion you believe that the illusion is the truth and bringing you out and liberating you is more and more diff. He says, by pouring more ghee you cannot put off fire. By keeping illusions and laser beams safe and secure, you cannot be liberated. By the teachings of dharma, yayati finally liberates himself and enters into the 2nd level truths. Yama is the master who is there to remove abhiniveshaha from us – remove clinging to life from us. Let you all surrender and pray to yama raja’s energy. With right understanding Yama raja is shiva raja – rejuvenation. With wrong understanding he is death, with right understanding he is kaala bhairava – shiva raja. When 1st level truth happens to ur life if you are mature enuf to slip into the 2nd level truth yama appears as kaala bhairava. If not even shiva appears as Kaala.

So not clinging to life and just flowing with life – abhiniveshaha is the straight way to freedom. Living clinging to life is easy or just dying is also easy. But the real thing that I need from my disciples is living without clinging to life – abhiniveshaha.

Surrendering your life at the feet of the master is living without abhiniveshaha – living without clinging to life.

When you surrender honestly, suddenly you will learn to live without clinging to life, and you will then experience life.

One lady after thouroughly being healed goes to her doctor and give a beautiful embroidered purse. Doctor says I am not interested

Life comes as a beautiful embroidered purse. Do not cling to your fees. If you do so, life opens the purse and removes the treasure and gives just your fees. So experience your life by not clinging to life by not clinging to your projected laster beams. Do not be shahjahans playing with your own childs in yoru court. If you relax from running your own court, you will be relaxed into the cosmic court. Running your life or ruining your life is in your hands. Remove the I and run your life. Do not add the ‘I’ and ruin it!

Patanjali says, these are all the kleshas that act as obstacles in your life. Living without clinging to life is living enlightenment.