“If your inner chattering is honestly what you experienced, inner…”

If your inner chattering is honestly what you experienced, inner chatter means your thinking, if your thinking and experience is one and the same, you won’t have to prepare; just open up. Whatever comes out is your experience. It’s like if somebody asks your name, do you prepare? Although you carry needs to tell that? No. It’s your experience. If something has not become your experience, you have to prepare to deliver a lecture.

Be very clear, if you are preparing to deliver a lecture and if you are afraid of public speaking be very clear you are filled with lies. Why do you think we are afraid of public speaking? We are afraid that we may speak what we are thinking, nothing else. All our fear is we may just spill out what is going on inside. Without our knowledge we may just spill out what is going on inside.

The only difficulty is, we know so much of garbage is going on inside that is the inside. Dirt is there inside. Suddenly something might erupt out. Suddenly something may come out. That is why first you need to prepare what you should say. Then you should prepare how you should say it. Then you should see that you don’t say something else. Then you should be very clear, you’ll remember one by one all the points, next, next, next. Otherwise, then if you don’t remember some one point you may start talking on your own which is going to be the truth of what you are thinking. So all our preparation is just to hide what we are thinking.

Be very clear, if you are a speaker and you are preparing for your speeches, be very sure what you are speaking is a pure lie. It has not become your experience. It has not become the truth of your being. It has not got internalized in your being. It is just memorized and vomited. What do you think? You’ve prepared so many courteous words again and again you say, ‘It’s nice to see you. It’s so nice to be around you. It’s so nice to spend time with you.’ After that you will say, ‘Can I move this time? Even though I wanted to spend some time with you I have some urgent work.’ You know what you are thinking.

A small story: One teacher was walking in the corridor of a school, students were all greeting her. She simply nodded her head and started telling under her breath, ‘Same to you, same to you.’ One of he colleagues asked, ‘Why you don’t greet when kids greet you? You just say same to you, same to you.’ She said, ‘After all I was also a student. I know what they are thinking in their mind.’ What they’re thinking in their mind.

So whenever you greet, just be aware, underneath your greeting what is the thoughts going on, what’s your thoughts. Just be a little aware. How many times you have to edit when you speak. And I tell you, if you are established in only one thing, truth, your inner chattering will disappear. Your inner chattering will disappear. Your thinking will disappear. If you’re established just one thing called truth, if you are completely truthful, you don’t have to think and speak. Whenever it is necessary you can just speak and relax. Why do you continuously think, not only for lectures or discourses or public speech, even when you go to meet your friend?

In the car you’ll be sitting and thinking. Even when you go to meet your friend, what do you do? In the car itself you do the rehearsal of the whole show. Now you know what to start, how to start, what to speak if she asks this question, what to answer if he asks this question, what to reply and how to take the conversation. You do a complete rehearsal. Practically you do complete rehearsal. When you go there, if he starts talking some other subject you are lost, make whole thing a mess. That is different. Even to talk to your friend.

See, if you have to prepare to talk to your boss we can understand; it is your profession. You have to be courteous; otherwise, you will loose your job. You will loose your job. You’ll loose your basic needs. That is at least basic need, forget about it. But we have become so corrupted that even to talk to our friends, even to relate with our family people continuously we prepare, prepare, and prepare our dialogues. If you are preparing continuously, be very clear, whatever you are saying is lie.