“But this engraved memories create so much of trouble for you.”

But this engraved memories create so much of trouble for you. It is like a, your major decisions, even your major decisions are disturbed by these ingrams. And you take many decisions just out of this engrams and suffer. And moreover, your creativity is disturbed by these engraved memories.

You don’t decide spontaneously, you carry a memory, you carry engrams. Based on that engrams you decide. Based on that engrams your decisions are made.

Participant: I don’t understand why responding to memories or engrams is a bad thing.”

SPH: That’s beautiful. Why should it be a bad thing? I don’t say it’s a bad thing, you will be dead. Constantly if you are reacting to the present based on the past, you will never be creative. You will not progress in your life. See, first thing: The present is not past, but your reaction to the present will be just like a reaction to the past. Then naturally you will not be able to fit, you will not be able to update yourself. You will not be able to grow. You will be just reacting in the same way. You will be reacting or responding in a very same pattern. You will not be able to expand yourself. You will not be able to go further. Some, there is nothing called bad. I don't say it is a sin or something bad, not in that way. But you will not be able to raise yourself. You will be thinking in a same old pattern. You will not be able to update yourself. That’s what I say. Mmh.

Participant: “It seems like there is a fine line between useful engrams and non useful engrams?”

SPH: Ah, one more thing: There is no such engram called ‘useful engrams.’

Participant: “Oh, ok.”

SPH: All engrams, all engrams are only dead. Living directly to the present, living directly to this moment is the only useful thing. For example ma, take this situation: You sitting with Me. If you already had some good experiences with some other teacher also, that will not be useful for this moment. You will judge Me only based on your past experience. So, you will not be able to listen to Me completely. You will not be open to Me. You will not, if you had a bad experience, you will not even sit here. You will say: “Bye, this is not for me, this is not, I am not this type.” If you had some good experience, even the good experience will not help you to completely to be present here. You will be expecting what you had earlier. You will not be able to directly respond to this situation.

So, no engram is good engram. Living completely consciously, responding spontaneously to this moment. One more thing, because of this engrams, you start creating a belief systems; not only in the religious level, even the day to day level. We are all living with some belief systems. The moment you start creating a belief system, the communication stops. Communication completely stops. You can see in your life, only 6 months you live with your husband or wife. Within that 6 month you create an idea about her or him. After the 6 months you live only with your image, your idea, you don’t live with her. Whatever she does, you project only according to your idea. Whatever he does, you project only according to your idea. You don’t live with persons, you live only with dead images. When you start creating a belief system, communication stops completely. All our problems in the interpersonal level or decision making, it is just because of these engraved memories.

Participant: “What is the difference between memory and engraved memory?”

SPH: Yes, ahh.

Participant: “Can you give an example of each?”

SPH: Yes, you see, memory is something like a plain memory. You see this scene. That’s all. There is no other emotional attachment attached with this memory. You see this flower, over. But, if you have the emotional attachment to this flower, positively or negatively, then it becomes engraved memory.

Emotional attachment to that memory becomes engraved memory. For example, if somebody gives you a rose, instead directly enjoying the rose, you start bringing the memory all the roses which you presented, whether it is refused or it is accepted, all those memories starts going, ah, going around. And you miss the rose, you miss the beauty of the rose.

At every movement in your life, especially in the corporate setup, you need to live with lot of memory. The problem is, when you create engrams, you will not be able to handle your memory. It is like ah, engrams are like high resolution pictures. If you start stor… storing high resolution pictures, you will not be able to store word documents, you will not be able to process word documents. Actually, the less engram, more memory you will have. The more engram, less memory. If you have the problem of forgetting things, be very clear, you have too many engrams; because, your heart is completely filled with high resolution pictures, you won’t have space for handling word data or the ordinary memories. Person with less engram will be able to have a sharp memory. He will recollect things, he will be able to process it much more easily.

Storing things without emotional attachment, is what I call memory. Storing your memory with emotional attachment is engrams. Engrams complicate your mental setup. Constantly you are in stress. One more ah, there are so many simple things, very simple things can disturb your whole routine. Like, there’s, there are some people, who are, who have a lot of sentiments, morning when they open their computer, if it doesn't open, they decide: “Today is going to be hell.” You have some engrams when you sit in the chair, some feeling or first person whom you meet, you associate that person with some engrams. And you think: “Oh God! Today I met him, over. My day is... Today morning itself this happened. What will happen to me, I don’t know.” Constantly you are suffering with these engrams.

What I am saying: If you are ahh, if you consciously analyze, you can understand, at least 80% of your time and energy is wasted in these engrams. I can say, at least 80%. If you know your mind, if you have spent at least little bit of time analysing yourself, if you have really given little bit of time to develop yourself, you will be able to understand what I mean by the word ‘engrams’ and how you suffer with these engraved memories.

One more thing, now the scientists are saying constantly our body is getting updated, our body is healing itself. But when you bring back your, ahh, past memory engrams, when your, your engraved memories again and again you bring the same kind of body.

Ahh, recently I read a beautiful book, ‘Biology of Belief.’ One great doctor and research scholar, he says, in the biology we all, we believe that DNA or cells only they manage our system. But he says after 30 years of research, not only DNA and cells are not managing your body, your belief system guides the DNA and cells. Whatever you believe, whatever you think you are, only that guides your DNA and cells. And moreover he says, that ah, structure does not monitor the function, function monitors the structure. It’s an important... structure does not monitor the function, function monitors the structure.

It is a very, ah, surprising or a amazing breakthrough, but he is able to prove structure does not monitor the function, only function monitors the structure. He says, whatever you believe, your belief system only designs your whole sys.. whole structure. Even your body can be healed when you are out of these engrams. You can heal your body if you can come out of this engrams. For example, in the young age if your mother has taught you, “Don’t go in the rain. If you go in the rain, you will have cough, you will have cold.” If you, if that becomes engraved memory in you, even if you see a rain through window, you will start sneezing. You don’t have to feel the rain, experience rain, just see the rain through window, you will start sneezing. The engraved memories are so deep, it disturbs even your physical health. Coming out of engrams, liberating yourself from the engrams even can heal you. It can even heal you physically.

Participant: “We often talk about learning from our mistakes, our past mistakes or others’ mistakes. Aren't those also in a way engrams? How do you, how do you explain?”

SPH: One thing, ah, it can be understood from two angles. First thing, whenever you learn from past experiences, you never store those engrams. If you are constantly brooding over the past mistakes, only then you store them as engrams. If you just learn, you don’t have emotional attachment to it. But if you are constantly brooding over, if you are constantly suffering, only then that becomes engram. You can see in your life.

One more thing, to tell you honestly, we never learn from our past mistakes. We only.. we may do the same mistake in a different angle, that's all. But we never learn from our past mistake. One more thing, intelligence is no way related to past. Intelligence is no way related to past.

Let Me give you a small example. Learning from experiences means, first you put your hand in the fire created by matchstick, and you say, “Oh, matchstick fire burns.” Then you put your hand in the cigarette, then you say “Oh, cigarette fire burns”. Then you put your hand in the charcoal fire, “Oh, charcoal fire burns.” Then you put your hand in the oven “Oven fire burns.” By the time you come to a clarity through experience “all fire burns”, your body will be ready to be burnt, you will become old.

Learning from mistakes, learning from past is something like a long process. It will never be successful.

One more, one more thing: Doing all mistakes and learning you don’t have time. You don’t have time; you don’t have time to do all the mistakes and learn. So, learning from past mistakes is not a right lesson. According to Me that is not a right understanding. It may be good morality, but not a lifestyle. Morality is different and lifestyle is different. So, learning from past mistake and all those things are good lessons to learn in the young age, but not for practicality.

Learning should be quantum, completely quantum. Keep your intelligence alive and respond to the moment. That's all. You can never learn from the past. One more thing, even if you learn from the past, you will be doing little better than that. Little better than past is not our life. Life is supposed to be quantum. Updating is not going to work, only quantum leap is going to work in future. Updating is the old word, I don’t think updating is the right word for the future. For future quantum jump, quantum leap, that is the only way.

See, updating your intelligence, learning from past, all these things are nice words to cheat yourself or postpone the growth. We can use all these nice words and hide our mistake. This is a nice word to use in front of your boss, not to your consciousness.

Participant: “How do you recognize when you are living in the moment?”

SPH: Or, ah, suffering with engrams. If you have this question itself, be very clear, you are suffering with engrams. A person who is living in this moment, not only he will not have this question, he will have a complete clarity. See, that clarity, intelligence is such, not only you will have it, you know you have it. That’s all. If you have the doubt, be very clear it is not there.

People come and ask Me: “Swamiji, how to know, whether I am intelligent or not?” Be very clear, as long as you have this question, you are only intellectual, you are not intelligent. Intelligence is self shining, not only you will have it, you know you will have it. When you have it, you know it. Now, when you have this doubt be very clear, you are suffering between the engrams. Engrams create dilemma. If you have dilemma, be very clear, you have engrams.

Any other question?

Participant: “I am a little confused because we are encouraged to erase engrams. But engrams seem to constitute the unconscious state?”

SPH: You see, if there is no, if you remove all the engrams, this time will be very less; you will be able to take straight decisions. Your files will not be tortured. The files, the file from the mind doesn't have to go through so many tables. The quantum leap will be very easy. As on now, the quantum leap takes too much of time. See, you can see, there are so many files, you have a clear data, but you are not ready to decide, you are suffering with dilemma because of the engrams. Even after having so many clear data, you are not able to decide, means you are suffering with engram. When there is no engram, straight away you will be able to decide. You see, as on now, to take one decision, that file has to go through 300 engrams. It means it takes at least 3 days. Sometime we never decide. We postpone decision making.

One important thing, postponing decision making also is one more decision. We forget that. We forget, postponing decision making also is one more decision. When you suffer with engram, you decide not to decide. You are in dilemma. When you, when you have less engrams the decision is quick and straightforward, more straight. And one more thing, when you don’t have engrams, you have the deep satisfaction that you lived your life. You are, you will be very clear and integrated. With engrams, you will be like a schizofrenia, pulling… being pulled and pushed.

Now I think we can see a simple technique, to work on our unconscious layer, to work on our engrams, to silence our engrams. It’s like we activate this conscious zone and give little rest to the unconscious zone. Just giving little rest to the unconscious zone. See, constantly your unconscious is active, even when you are sitting here, your mind is constantly judging what is happening here. You are not ready to directly respond. Constantly you have something or other going on. That’s what I call ‘Inner Chattering.’ The Inner Chattering. Inner Chattering means, even when you don’t have any file to process consciously, the unconscious engrams will be automatically coming up. You will be suffering with them.

You can see, even if you close all your senses, close your eyes and close your ears and close your nose and all your senses, even then simply something will be going on inside, like a volcano. Means, just the engrams are jumping and taking your energy.

Now, you will have, we will do a simple technique to give a little rest to your engrams, so that you can directly receive the file and process it. If somebody is interested in living without engrams, you can use this technique in your regular life. It’s just a 20 minute technique to silence your mind or awaken the intuition. Awakening the intuition means again reducing the engrams. The less number of engrams, the more strong, deeper intuition.