“Because you see, the moment I feel somebody is close, I will laugh at…”

Because you see, the moment I feel somebody is close, I will laugh at them when they ask questions. Have you seen the teacher in Me, answering any question? In the initial level, I will always answer. Especially in the public I will be so polite, I will be answering every question; I know its complete foolishness. Neither this fellow wants the answer nor he is a seeker. Just he wants to show he is there; he wants to show his presence and he wants to show he wants something, he knows something or he wants... just the greed for more and more words. All questions are nothing but greed for more words, be very clear! That’s all. Now you left the greed for all the money and other things, you caught hold of new greed. Greed for more words, greed for knowing more, greed for more explanations - brain candy! Brain candy is the right word. The initial level, the public lectures, I’ll be offering brain candy with a big tray... going around. And in the initial level, I’ll always give enough of brain candy. Have it... and let your brain boil. ☺ Once you come to certain level, I’ll laugh at your questions. Then once you come very near, I’ll laugh at the questioner himself. There is a beautiful story; let Me narrate this story. Actually the more they become intimate, the less I will speak about spirituality to them. More they become intimate the less I will speak about spirituality to them. And I’ll never answer any questions. Shiv is trying last 2 years to get one answer for Me. “Swamiji am I connected to you in past life?” Last 2 years, at least some 300 - 400 times, he has asked that question. I’ll just smile, “I’ll tell you when time comes. I’ll tell you when time comes.” Now he became tired, he stopped asking that. Now a days he stopped asking that question. But if a onlooker asks, I will give a detailed answer. If Debbie asks that question I’ll be answering half an hour.... that same question. But if he asks, I’ll laugh, “Eh! Take care, do the work. Go work….”

There is a beautiful story. Vivekananda was sitting on the bank of Ganges and enjoying the hookah. He was enjoying the hookah. One modern youngster, the half baked fellows... there are so many. The half baked modern day youngster, one fellow came. That guy asked Vivekananda, “Swamiji, I like you, just because of your modern views. You are so logical, so scientific. I just hate this nonsense - taking bath in Ganga and putting this bhasma, doing all this Gayatri, all these foolish things. I just hate all this nonsense. And I like you because you are very scientific. You are revolutionary Master. That’s why I love you, I respect you.” Vivekananda says, “Fool, idiot! Who said taking bath in Ganga is superstition? Every day I take bath in Ganga. Every day I do Gayatri. Idiot, you think just because after reading 2-3 pages of Western philosophy, you got everything! You know everything!” And he says, “Like a donkey munching the paper, paper, you just ate 2-3 papers, that also is not digested. 2-3 papers of Western philosophy…..”, in slang Bengali he says, “Just like how donkey eats the paper, same way you donkey you are eating….you’ve eaten 2-3 Western philosophy papers and that also you have not digested and you think you know everything and you have...you have the courage to say ‘taking bath in Ganga is superstition’! How dare you do this?” He fires him. That fellow gets the shock of his life and runs away. He escapes and goes out and criticizes. He goes away, “What type of Swami he is? Reading his book, I thought he is an intellect, very intelligent person. Seeing him only I understand he is a same old fool, like all other Swamis.” He went away.

Next guy comes. Very elderly pundit, egoistic, well read in philosophy, knows all the shastras, comes there. “Swami, I have come to see you. I am a pundit, maha upadhyaya. Every day I take bath in Ganga and do Gayatri. For last 30 years, I am doing this. I am a pundit. I have come to see you.” Then….Pundit means actually a spiritual person in Sanskrit. In a colloquial way it is considered as a spiritual person. Pundit is like a ‘swami’ word. The word, the literal meaning is ‘the person who is knowledgeable’, but in casual way it is used as a spiritual saint. Then Vivekananda asked, “How dare you….how you call yourself as pundit? How can say yourself as a pundit or spiritual person?” He says, “What?! I take bath in Ganga and do Gayatri for last 30 years. Not even one day I missed it.” Vivekananda says, “Oh, just by taking bath in Ganga if you became a liberated Enlightened person, if you became a great spiritual person, then all the fishes in the Ganga are the first great souls! They are the great Gods. They are the liberated ones. Then they are the great Enlightened Masters. Let us catch all of them and start worshipping! Let’s catch all the fishes in Ganga and start worshipping.” He bangs him, fires him. Fellow gets a shock and runs away and he starts saying, “What type of Swami he is? And he is teaching all wrong things. He should teach, taking bath in Ganga and doing Gayatri and all these things” That fellow runs away.

One disciple was sitting at his feet. She was pressing his feet. He was enjoying the hookah and she was pressing his feet. She got confused. She asked, “What is this Master? For that youngster, young guy, you gave one type of teaching and taking bath in Ganga is a great thing, that is spiritual practice, you will be liberated and all those things. When this old pundit came, for him you are teaching something else! Your idea is different. What are you doing? What is this? What you are teaching?”

Then Vivekananda just laughs, “What I said for that young guy is for that young fellow. What I said for this old guy - pundit is for this old fellow. For you, press my feet and keep quiet. That is for you. ☺ Keep quiet and press my feet; that is for you. ☺ That’s all; nothing else.” And she gets the shock of her life and she just does, “Yes, okay Master.” So the teachings vary from person to person. You can’t say the same thing give the same thing to everybody. So when it is a...when the distance is more I’ll be giving lot of brain candies. When the distance is less, I know from their side nothing can be done, all I will tell them is, “I will take care, you keep quiet.” Again and again, I’ll tell them only one thing, “I will take care, you keep quiet.”

Once actually, one of My crew member, in the inner circle they asked Me, “Swamiji, everybody is doing meditations, spiritual practice. We don’t do anything. We don’t do anything. In every program, we are busy in attending all your cares and needs or arranging everything.” And I told him, “All those fellows are reading menu cards. You are eating. If you want you can also go and sit there and read menu card... but you are eating. When you are eating, why do you think that I am not reading menu card? Reading menu card is not necessary. It is for them. You simply eat.”

All of you have understood, yesterday about the dianetics. Hope you understood. The life, the aim of the whole energy, life happening is to achieve the eternal bliss - Nithyananda. You are already Nithyananda. You are Nithyananda. But there some engrams, again and again makes you feel that you are not Nithyananda. The moment you say, “I am Nithyananda”, some thoughts will raise in your mind, “Oh, how can you say ‘I am Nithyananda’, I have knee pain. I have that pain. I suffer with my wife. I am addicted to drinks. How can he say, I am Nithyananda?”

Whatever says, whatever tries to prove that you are not Nithyananda, write down all those engrams. And one more thing, if you can find the source of the engram, for example - if you have the fear - that your boss may fire you. If you see the root of the fear, the fear root is your father continuously firing you or your mother firing you. That same fear only now you project on your boss. Then you project on Me! That’s what most of you are doing! You make Me only as your father figure. If you have the fear about your father, you project it on Me and suffer, struggle. If you are disturbed, disrespected by your husband, you project that on Me! And you show your anger on Me. Now, all the engrams which disturbs you and the roots of the engrams... if you can find out… If you can’t find out, don’t bother. If you can find out, start writing... the roots also. We are having a straight war with engrams, with the help of the Master. With the help of the Master when you straight away do war, simply they will run away and disappear and die. If Devatas directly go and fight with Asuras, they will fight and there will be a big war. If that Asuras know, that Vishnu is backing the Devatas, whole fellows, they will run and disappear into the ocean and hide themselves into the ocean... and dissolve, disappear. Same way, if you directly fight with your engrams, there will be big fight between you and them. But if the engrams knows, that Master is with you, supporting you in your fight, all the rakshasas will disappear and dissolve.

So understand, understand, whatever engram, whatever your idea of - I am male, I am female or I am body - even if these things are disturbing you, write the whole thing. Whatever engrams makes you feel that you are not eternal bliss - Nithyananda, whatever engrams disturbs you, write all of them and if you can trace their root - trace it and write. One more thing, if you are writing, in between suddenly you would have written some third problem...like a problem - one problem, two problem, three problem, four….- and the roots of the problem 5-6-7 something like that. Suddenly you will remember the root of the third problem. You can write down, no problem. You can write down. Bring out the whole thing. We are going to have a straight direct face to face war with the engrams.

Of course, when we are ready to face to face, they will not have their face, they will just disappear. Darkness can never face to face fight with a light, because the moment light happens, it has to disappear. The moment Master happens, engrams has to disappear. When enlight happens engram has to disappear. Enlight...when enlight happens engram has to disappear. So be very clear. Engram is nothing but words written on darkness. You see, for a photograph to be filmed, for a picture to be filmed, the film should be in darkness. Only then it will...the whole thing is...will...will be captured on the film. If the film is directly exposed to the light, what will happen? Whatever is captured, will just disappear. Same way, now, as on now, all your films is in the dark….films are inside the darkness. That is why you are catching, capturing in so many engrams. I am exposing the whole thing to light - enlight. Simply it will become pure white and you will start radiating the same light.

Let you write down, we’ll straight away have face to face war. Yes... with the engrams.

Even if you think something is blissful, in the end you will see only the painful. You start writing painful then you will end up...where you will end up we will see. Even if you have done NSP, don’t worry. Bring out, if there is...if that is in memory, bring it out. Anything in memory, bring it out because it is much more deeper and higher technology which we are going to work now. Be very clear, all your pains, all your problems are related to this only. I am going to straightaway attack every engram.... intensely.

Yes

You just remember and write. You can do one thing, not by memory... you remember and live the whole incident. Relive the whole incident and write the...pen down. Only then you write maximum data. Please write maximum possible data. If you remember - one smell was there in that room, there was one chappal, 2-3 clothes are hanging, I was seeing this scene. Write everything. Don’t even miss even a single line. If you can bring more and more datas out, go into that same mood, same scene and write down.

Engram and root - write both. You see, engram and root - for both you write the roots; whatever data you can collect. Actually, roots only will have data, engram as such will not have directly data. It will be only information. Now you are all working, preparing the route, path for the Ganga, to flow in you. You are asking every Devatas by doing tapasya, “Please can you give way, can you give way.” There are so many hills inside you, which will not allow the Ganga to flow. Now you are requesting all of them to give way for the Ganga to flow. Then the Guru….Guru will release the Ganga, before that it can’t be released.