Akashic Readings - Kalabhairava Answers Life's Questions through Nithyananda Balasants

{Ma Nithyananda Bodhana}

Nithyanandam, going to the Akashic readings has been one of the most fulfilling things I’ve done. Of course, everything with Swamiji is super fulfilling. But the first thing I want to say is that whatever Swamiji is offering now, I take advantage of. I have been with Swamiji for 10 years in this physical body, and, you know, when he is doing the Nithya kriyas, if we take advantage of that now, there is some kind of grace, or ease, when you are going through the process that happens, as you are doing it with him. So he opened up this treasure chest of Akashic readings about a year ago. This is where his energy is, this is how it is expressing. So I’ve taken advantage of it, and it has been really amazing. So, one of the things when I came here in September, which was really felt my first real opportunities to do it. Swamiji said, don’t use the Akashic readings just for curiosity. Have it for practical utility application. And I took that to heart, so initially I was asking questions as part of our causing team. You know, what can we do to cause more, or what are our blind spots. And this is a beautiful use of the Akashic readings. For sure it was very helpful and it was wonderful. But, I had some fear, about asking certain questions, and I know that some of you out there also have that fear because you have told me that's why you don’t go to the Akashic readings. Anybody who saw Swamiji, channel Kalabhairava, saw some of that ferociousness. And maybe even that is what is keeping you from asking the questions. But Kalabhairava is only going to show that ferociousness to the pattern of you, not to you, when you are ready to hear it.

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So, what I am going to share, is that, back when Swamiji was channeling Kalabhairava, everybody was saying, “What is my connection to Swamiji?” “Was I ever connected?”, And I was too afraid to ask, because I kept thinking, “What if he says….”, Which I heard many times, “there was no connection.” I just felt like I couldn’t bear those words, so I never asked the question. But gradually here, I got the courage, and one day I finally asked the question, “What was my connection to Swamiji?” And Kalabhairava answered, that I was Sadāshiva’s priest in another lifetime. Now, some of you already heard that because I shared it on stage with Swamiji. But Swamiji beautifully acknowledged it, about then I am landing here in the Ohio temple where, seeing some temples the women cannot do puja at all. In some temples you cannot do puja because there is many other volunteer teams. But if you are in a small Aadheenam or temple, you have the opportunity to do all of the things. So naturally, I had the opportunity to do puja. In fact I took training, in Los Angeles for two weeks. So, for Swamiji that was not a surprise. But for me it was a bit of a surprise. Now the next thing I wanted to share, is that, in my life, there was a lot of these awakenings that kept pointing to Bharat, being a Shiva devotee, but somehow I could not put it all together, because I was raised in a very, very strong catholic family, extremely strict, orthodox traditional, and somehow I just couldn’t put it together that I had had these lifetimes.

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And one funny incident happened in Cambodia, when I was there with Swamiji. I kept feeling like I was having dejavu there. And, so finally I said to Swamiji, “Swamiji, was I in Cambodia at one time?”, and the look He gave me was really like, “are you such a dumb..., that was what I thought the look was. He said, “Bodhana, you were in Bharat.” Even when He said it, I still somehow couldn’t take it in. Because why am I landing in the United States. So another question then I asked, in this period of time was, “Then, why did I come to the United States, in this skin color, with catholic religion.” And Kalabhairava said, “Only when you move closer to Hinduism, you will affect many, many more people than when I would have stayed in Bharat.” And I shared that on stage, and the most amazing thing that happened next is that Swamiji, said that He actually engineered that. And talk about the trust that lands in you when you hear that your Master and your Guru has been watching you for Janmas, engineering it, just so that you will be exactly where you need to be, was just the biggest growth I think that happened this whole time. To know that, even if I couldn’t remember being with Swamiji, I’ve been with him for Janmas. So, this was super powerful acknowledgement. But I still had some curiosity. Because how still is this Bharat happening, how many lifetimes were there. So I went back and I asked, “So how many lifetimes was I in Bharat or the United states,” and the answer was very quick; “You spend the last three Janmas in United states. Every other lifetime was in Bharat.“ And Kalabhairava went on to say that, “You were in San Jose, only to spread devotion of Shiva, that's your only purpose.” So, again, knowing that I am here in the United states, all of this is just supporting me more and more to boldly stand as a Hindu, to boldly say; “This is what my purpose is.”therefore, It’s just the most amazing, thing that's happened.

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Now the thing is, a lot of times when people criticize these kind of Akashic readings, there is the criticism, “Oh, you were Cleopatra, you were in Egypt.” There is always this comment. So, Of course, here with us you are going to here all the goody, goody stuff. So I am going to share something that was not easy to hear, in hopes that you will also go and share. So, I have been online, with many, many people, hundreds of people, helping to get them to Inner Awakening through Akashic readings. And a lot times, the answers are really like, cryptic, short, one letter, excuse me, one word. And we kept thinking in our logical minds, we would have meetings, and we would keep thinking in our logical minds, “Oh, help them rephrase the question, make the question ask this.” Somehow nudge Kalabhairava to give them the answer that they are looking for. What I can say that I saw overtime in my own process is that there were certain areas where the question, answers were so cryptic, and no matter which Balasant I went to, I kept getting the same thing. So the context is money. I just, in this lifetime, I have not been able to break through into the cash flow situation. And I kept going to Kalabhairava, and this is the answer I got at least three times from three different Balasants. “You will know what you need to know when you need to know it.” And I would just leave, going, “Oh my God, what is wrong where is the blind spot, why can’t I break through this.” You know, how I would say, “When will I earn a lot of money? Where will my wealth come from? When will my wealth come? Is my wealth in the form of cash?” No matter what I said, “You will know it what you need to know, when you need to know it.” So, a very cryptic answer.

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Now, I was asking deep questions about my family, which has been a you know, for all of us, the family is very important. But I was hearing answers, that were not easy to hear, but what I found it, as I digested those answers, the depth of my listening changed. And this what we tell the online participants, “Listen with depth, and you will get the answer.” Now if you get a cryptic answer, you don’t judge yourself, and say. “Oh God, I don’t have depth,” You go back again and again and again. And I want to credit Ma Atmadayaki from Europe, because she fully worked with Kalabhairava, to bring the online Akashic readings to all of us. Sending some people back; 17 times, 20 times, as there depth of listening increased, and the answers they got really helped them get to Inner Awakening—which is one of the best uses of the Akashic reading. So in this situation, with the money, I finally went, and I said, “Okay, look, I asked four people for loans. All of them said no. What's the blind spot?” Kalabhairava, His head was this way, and she just whipped her head like this, and stared in her eyes and she said, “Because you have never cared for anyone in your whole life.” She said it so strongly, it literally just pushed me back, because in my personality, I don’t think that is true. But it's Kalabhairava, and she just, He just, hit a place that was so hard for me to hear. It just, did something in Manipuraka, in my heart, it just threw something out, I started crying, I couldn't stop. I was supposed to actually be interviewed in like, in three minutes, and I couldn’t, I was so overwhelmed with this answer. But one of my teammates was there, she said, “Bodhana, stop, remember, Kalabhairava is attacking your pattern, a pattern that has to leave. He didn’t say anything to you, He said something to get the pattern out of you.”

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And, as soon as she said that, I recognized the truth of that, and just in a few hours, that pattern already started to recede, oh. Partly because I immediately got back, and I said to Kalabhairava, “I don’t know where this root pattern is coming from,” I don’t know which unconscious space I’ve been in. But only Swamiji is the embodiment of caring. So if I am not caring, and I have Swamiji in me, please bless me with the caring that Swamiji had. And I got a “tathastu,” and I can tell you, it felt like an instant restructuring of my whole Being. And it felt like I am a grid, and there is wholes, the structure is there, the grid is there, but there is a melting. It is very visual, it's like sweet honey beeswax. It started getting poured in all of these holes in the grid work, just melting everything that has to do with that, non-caring aspect. So, it was hard to take, but I am telling you now the questions I have asked since, has been an amazing depth more, than that. So one thing I want to say, I've heard many people want devotion. And in online Akashic readings, I hear it again, “Kalabhairava, I want more connection to Swamiji, I want more devotion.” I am telling you, just going to Akashic reading increases your devotion, it is Swamiji, it is connection. The online Akashic reading is no different than the in person one, and you can use it again and again and again. It is a resource Swamiji is giving us now, so please use it, you will be amazed at the growth, the exponential growth that you will take, in your devotion and expression of your highest potential with Swamiji. So thank you.

{Soma Majumjer}

Hi everyone, my name is Soma. I am from New York City. And, I actually want to share about a question that I asked In Akashic readings. So, I was never interested in like, you know, past life before. However, when Akashic readings came around, I was like, you know since I have Akashic readings, why not? Like, it will be really cool to know what I was in my past. So, the Balasant that I was with at that time was Nandita, and, I went up to her, and I asked, what was I in my past live? And Kalabhairava, through her, He said, that I was a peacock in Meenakshi’s temple. And because of the good Karma over there, I got a boon from Meenakshi. And, the boon was that I was in my next lifetime, which is this lifetime, I was to be born as a human, and get liberated. And, ehm, I also wanted to confirm something, because, Swamiji, before, He said that, you know, as go to the births, you only go up. So, in the later, you know, reading, I had asked, “How many births that I have as a human.” And, Kalabhairava, He told me that this was my first human birth.

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And, I actually want to share one more story about Meenakshi. So, this is during Sadāshivoham, and this was during the wedding with, Meenakshi and Sundareshwara. So, you know, I was, you know in the temple area, and I don’t know where I was at. I was in a completely different state, when suddenly, you know, I had my eyes wide open and I saw this vision. It was a tree and it said, it was speaking to me, I don’t know what it was saying to me, but then all of a sudden it gave me an orange fruit. And I went, like, euhm, I went to receive the fruit, and I said “Thank you.” and as soon as I said, “thank you,” I came, right back on earth. And I was in the temple area, with my hand out, like you know extended. And, I thought you know, like, it was, euhm, one of the 25 states of consciousness, so I really wanted to know what that was. So, I went to Akashic records, and I explained the situation, I told them about the vision, and, I asked Kalabhairava, what state I was in. You know, that experience happened to me. And Kalabhairava said, that it was actually Darshan of Meenakshi, during her wedding ceremony. So I thought that was so cool, it was amazing. So we are actually going to the yatra, and I think we are going to go to the Madurai Meenakshi temple and I just can’t wait to go there, it will be so amazing. I cannot wait. Thank you.

{Ma Nithya Chandrikananda}

Nithyanandam everyone.

So first of all most importantly, I want to say that Swamiji is the best thing that ever happened to me, and I am, so grateful. He actually, was, the reason for my transformation and being to actually even come on stage right now. Because, this is probably the most frightening thing I ever thought of. So, I just wanted to share how Akashic record readings has also changed my life, thanks to Swamiji making this available to us. And I also, want to mention that, I am so grateful, that Swamiji has introduced Hinduism into my life, in a way that I never experienced. It is the ultimate celebration of life. And, I am so grateful for that also. And, so, euhm, in Akashic record readings, not only can you ask questions, but, you can ask for a boon, or a blessing. So, that is one of the things I did, I actually asked that Swamiji always guide my life, and bless me throughout my life, and Kalabhairava said, “tathastu.” So I was very happy about that. And then, I also asked, “I said its very important to me, that I want to have a relationship with the Divine, Gods and Goddesses, I want to not only speak to them, but, I want them to speak back.” And I was like, “How can I make this happen?” And Kalabhairava said that I just have to have integrity with the master, Swamiji.” So, just working on as hard as I can, because, that's very important to me, so that's cool. I also asked, “If one of my past lives, if Swamiji was in my past lives?” And Kalabhairava said, “Yes, I was a Rudrakanya,” which, they are involved with sacred arts, like dancing, singing, arts. Which is interesting because in this lifetime I am extremely passionate about all those things. So that is very interesting.

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I also asked, you know said, you know, I am actually very health conscious person, I am very healthy, back at home in the USA. Nobody would get sick, but everyone around me would get sick. But when I am in Bharat, I am constantly getting cold, or something like that, feeling sick. So, I asked Kalabhairava, “Why is this, what can I do to make this stop?” Kalabhairava said I need to complete with my lower self-image. So, if you know, me, I have struggled with self-confidence my entire life. Since childhood, and you know, things like, I have wanted, to like; sing, dance, be on stage, you know acting, whatever. Like in third grade, I wanted, you know, play the part Cinderella. But of course I wouldn’t raise my hand because I had such a bad self-esteem. So this completion process, you know, when I went to IA in September, was huge for me. So that was very, very helpful, and just continuing with this completion every day. Actually changing not only what's inside, or what I think, or you know, like standing up a little bit more straight, but also, all that, but also like, the way I am dressing, the way I am doing make up. And, doing things on the inside and the outside. It’s all Swamiji working on me transforming me, I have him to thank for every bit of it. It’s not me, I couldn’t do this on my own, trust me, I couldn’t even be on stage without Swamiji’s blessings right now.

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And just to share real quick, just so you know the extent of my shyness. When I got my first job in high school, I had to walk about 10 blocks; and you know, I had to dress in heels and skirts and all that kind of stuff. And, I would literally be so shy, just walking down the street, that I would actually, literally just wish myself invisible. So deeply and hard, that I actually, while crossing the street, even though there was crosswalks and everything, looked both ways and all that. I got hit by two cars, two different times. Because I was literally invisible apparently, because they always said, “I didn’t see you.” So literally I was that shy, I really didn’t want to be seen, I wanted to be invisible. That was my deepest wish. So, yeah, anyways, and then, I also asked, if I was going to get married, and when and, Kalabhairava said, “Yeah, in about two years”, so that's very exciting, because that's actually another thing that is extremely important to me, all my life, I’ve wanted to meet my prince charming to meet me, and get married, and live happily ever after. Because of Swamiji’s blessings I know that He’s got this. Yeah, just wanted to say Swamiji is the ultimate, and I have him to thank him for everything and He is literally my dream come true so that I can live happily ever after. Thank you, Nithyanandam.