If You Find You, You Have Found God

Yes, let’s start! Listen. Now, I wanted to give you some deeper insights, based on your intraspection, your intranalyses, your contemplation.

Listen, how of you found in your experience, listen carefully, how many of you found in your experience, there is a gap between how you think about you and how you show you. Means, gap between inner image and outer image. Raise your hand. If there is a gap between inner image and outer image, how you think of you and how you project you to others, in this gap self-doubt starts.

Understand. For example, you go to attend an interview, you know you are not capable of something. But you show, you sell yourself to your boss, saying: “Aa I, I can do it!” And boss is convinced, and he gives you the job. When you come back, suddenly you feel you convinced others, but you yourself are not convinced. Then what is the truth?

The doubt about yourself starts rising, which will start coming up in every level of your life. In your health, in your relationship, everywhere this doubt will start rising. That is what I call self-doubt. How many of you think you have this self-doubt? Raise your hand.

We will have to now find that and complete. Second, how you project yourself to others - outer image. How others perceive you - others image. Listen. You may project yourself very humble person, simple person. Others will say: “See, see, see, this fellow acting, acting, acting.” You may project as a humble, simple person, others will say: “See, see, this fellow how he is acting.” How many of you experienced this? Raise your hand. You may project yourself in one way, others completely perceive in a different way, raise your hand, let me see. The gap between outer image and others image.

Listen, when others perceive you in a different way, you naturally start feeling you are not enough unto yourself. You will start feeling “I am not enough”. That is the source of all the self-hatred. Please understand, self-hatred. When you project yourself in some way, but others perceive in some other way. When you become powerless about it and you feel kind of, you start hating yourself. “I am not enough, I am not sufficient. Others are not believing how I am projecting me.” That is self-hatred.

Next, listen, next. How many of you feel that you have this self-hatred? Raise your hand. You feel you are not enough. Raise your hand, let me see. Yes, that is self-hatred. We need to find out this, source of this and complete with it. Third, this is the very important thing. Others image, how others expect you. Life image, how you expect others. See the fun, everyone around you will be telling, you should understand people more, you should be more listening, you should have more understanding. But you will strongly believe: “Everyone around me are incomplete. They should understand me more.” (Swamiji laughing) You will believe everyone around you are incomplete and they don’t understand anything, they should understand you and transform themselves. But they will all believe you are incomplete, you should understand them more and transform. How many have you this tug-of-war?

Raise your hand. This is what I call Self-denial. Whatever is denying it, constant denial, the gap between what you think about others, and what others think about you. This gap makes you start denying everything. See, when you want everyone to understand you and change, and everyone around you wants you to understand them and change, there is a deadlock. And you become powerless, you don’t do anything. This becomes a lifestyle, time passes, day passes, you don’t think. You don’t walk that extra mile you need to walk. You constantly live in denial.

All breakdown in life happens in denial. Understand, all breakdown happens in self-denial. How many of you think you have self-denial? Now it is time, you sit and pen down all the self-doubt you have, self-hatred you have, self-denial you have. SDHD. Like ADHD for kids, SDHD for grown up kids. SDHD patterns.

I wanted all of you to spend little time now and understand the self-doubts you have, and the incidents when it started in you. Self-hatred you have, and incidents when it started in you. Self-denial patterns you have, and incidents when it started in you. Start. SDHD, start penning down.

Completion in process.